randomwrittingsofanaverageteen
My poems are inspired by many things, my friends, family, and my own random thoughts. Some may be happy, and others will not be. As I am fairly new with writing poetry, some of my poems may not be all that good. I am just trying to find a way to express myself. Hope you enjoy
I think I just want someone that can like... crawl into my soul and take up residence there. Know me completely and love me anyways. And provide warn cuddles.
Feb 21, 2023
Feb 21, 2023 at 12:16 AM UTC
I'm starting to realize
Maybe homesickness isn't about a place
Maybe it's about missing the person
I used to be
Sep 24, 2022
Sep 24, 2022 at 11:54 PM UTC
You say you don't hate yourself
When you are up all night crying in your bed
You say you don't hate yourself
Yet you still poison yourself with the lies in your head
You say you don't hate yourself
But you don't stop your toxic relationship with food
You say you don't hate yourself
Even though you never reach out to your friends except when your at school
You say you you don't hate yourself
Then why do you keep making excuses for not going to therapy, even when you know you need help
You say you don't hate yourself
At the same time you apologize again for simply existing
You say you don't hate yourself
While everyone close to you can see inside you're dying
If this is how you are when you don't hate yourself
I'd hate to see what you'd be like if you did
Sep 1, 2022
Sep 1, 2022 at 10:56 PM UTC
There's a demon in my mind
We have the same face.
She likes to whisper things in my mind-
I am dumb, I am unloved,
I am not enough.
She slips in unnoticed
When the world knocks me down,
Even though I always try to lock the back door.
There's a demon in my mind.
She's strong, and she is cruel.
I don't know how to stop her.
There's an angel in my mind
She, too, looks like me.
Somedays I have a hard time finding her,
But she is never too far away.
Everyday she goes to battle with my demons.
She doesn't always win
But she still goes back to fight the fight that left her tired the night before.
There's an angel in my mind.
She's strong, and she is brave
There is no stopping her.
Jun 15, 2019
Jun 15, 2019 at 9:14 PM UTC
Wearing down over time,
Weather and elements to blame.
Ice, mountain, or metal,
In some aspects, the same.
Add a little pressure,
Keep it pouring on.
Don't do anything to stop it,
And soon it will be gone.
Right now they may not show the cracks
Appearing strong, but they will shatter
Yet, after it's all over,
What does it really matter?
They all meet similar ends,
Mountains eventually turn to dust,
The ice will soon melt,
And metals begin to rust.
Foundations will crumble,
Empires will continue to fall.
Everything we know will be gone.
Leaving nothing behind at all.
Oct 15, 2016
Oct 15, 2016 at 10:59 AM UTC
To strangers, she's just the quiet girl,
In the corner of the room
That nobody really pays attention to.
To friends, she is the one
Who will always have their back
And carries the secrets others never hear.
Her family, they see (fake) smiles
Believing everything is fine
Not understanding.
To herself?
Yes, sometimes she is happy
But more often she is screaming inside,
Trying to break the cage
She feels trapped in.
Sep 12, 2016
Sep 12, 2016 at 6:23 PM UTC
I'm choking on words
I'll never say
Written in pen
They smear and fade
But when the sun
Rises at dawn
Maybe then
You'll hear my song
Sep 11, 2016
Sep 11, 2016 at 9:14 PM UTC
*Twin towers up so high
Who know they'd fall from the sky
Fifteen years ago
A tragedy that we all know
So many died
And so many cried
Now all can do is remember the dead
We think what can not be said*
Sep 11, 2016
Sep 11, 2016 at 9:09 PM UTC
I'm not afraid of heights,
Not deep water, or love
I'm just afraid of falling
To the ground from up above
I'm afraid of sinking downwards
Through the depths of the sea
Or loving with my whole heart
If he doesn't love me
Sep 11, 2016
Sep 11, 2016 at 7:53 PM UTC
Can't you see
How your words are breaking me?
Almost two years later,
And I am still left wondering why.
"Let's just be friends."
Did I do something wrong?
I asked, but you never said.
So here I am, blaming myself
Wondering what I did,
To make you leave.
Never wanting to let anyone in,
Afraid life will just repeat.
Because all I can think of
Are the words you said
That broke me.
Sep 11, 2016
Sep 11, 2016 at 3:10 PM UTC