At the Top
On the Edge
Filled with Anticipation
and Excitement
But
the rug was pulled out
from under its feet
Tock
down
the stairs
the marble goes
Tock
down
each step
the marble bounces
Up
and down
Tock
down
from the Edge
it started from
the marble drops
Tock
Tock
Tock
and no more
the marble no longer falls
for it is
at the bottom
where it no longer falls
but
it moves
the marble rolls
steadily
from side to side
until
it
stops
and sits there
quietly
silent
Feb 24, 2020
Feb 24, 2020 at 3:05 AM UTC
Never thought I would feel again
This smile feels strange on my face
Soaring with hope and uplifted
I forgot I had been rock bottom
But I’ve fallen once again
Not alone I hope
To a bottom that is not a void of despair
But a well of comfort and happiness
Your intense stare reddens my cheeks
I turn away in surprise at the sudden racing of my heart
Did you notice? Do you feel the same too?
I was in the abyss of emptiness
On the course of indifference
But you
Knocked me off my orbit around the planet of numbing solitude
Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 1:48 AM UTC
I want to be your rock of strength
Take away your fears of inadequacies
Make you believe that you are good
And deserve to be loved
My heart hurts when you doubt yourself
You’re fighting a war to prove your worth
But no one is in your battlefield
Your enemy is your lack of trust in you
Who am I trying to protect?
You or me?
Because I’m saying this to you
But these words are from me
And how I wish someone said this to me
Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 1:45 AM UTC
I love you
Your intense gaze
With your full attention
On me
So intense
I turned away
For I fear
You see
My naked
Thoughts, desires and feelings for you
My weaknesses and rot
Inside of me
I turn away
So I can keep some of my love
For you
For me
Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 7:44 AM UTC
I send my love
Across the water, air, space
Not so it delivers
To you
But so I can free
Up a little space
For me
For my heart
Is as full with
You
I can't see
Myself
Anymore
Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 7:42 AM UTC
Move, move move MOVE
Where to? What for? WHY?
There, here, EVERYWHERE!
School, work, MONEY!
Where to? What for? WHY?
Buy this, get that, want EVERYTHING!
Strangers, friends, PEOPLE
Where to? What for? WHY?
Smile, praise, talk, brag, VALIDATION!
Do you see?
Can you see?
Will you see?
Or is it me?
Am I mad?
That I imagine this madness around me!
But
Nothing can be done
Change must not come
For it is not what they want
Reality stares
But they pull the blanket over their heads
Pretending until it doesn't exist
Telling me this madness is
The madness we can't see
This is ORDER!
They scream and praise
But how proud can you be
If you have accepted this madness as your reality
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 2:29 AM UTC
Please don't come any closer
I beg you
This darkness is eating deeper
I'm trying to claw my way out
Out from where
There's nowhere
To go
Because you are part of me
The darkness is in me
Darkness is me
May 4, 2017
May 4, 2017 at 4:15 PM UTC