ra - Hello Poetry

So we can fly, to the sea, in the summer in the dark And we can dance, to my home, I can show, you the park Where I sat, under the moon and the dew, touched my skin And I cried, all my lonely But you warm me. You're my kin.

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Nov 21, 2016

Nov 21, 2016 at 5:52 PM UTC

ra

Magic Exists

So we can fly, to the sea, in the summer in the dark And we can dance, to my home, I can show, you the park Where I sat, under the moon and the dew, touched my skin And I cried, all my lonely But you warm me. You're my kin.

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The night is on us Not quietly tonight The wind is singing to me. I felt some peace today A different kind of numb I'll sit with it and rest in this calm. I didn't feel Father's day The way I often do It was just there. I don't care That you don't love me Dad.

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Sep 4, 2016

Sep 4, 2016 at 8:33 AM UTC

ra

Father's Day

The night is on us Not quietly tonight The wind is singing to me. I felt some peace today A different kind of numb I'll sit with it and rest in this calm. I didn't feel Father's day The way I often do It was just there. I don't care That you don't love me Dad.

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You were absent today I didn't notice til 6pm ish You've been fading out Visiting less often I won't miss you ***** Itch You've been persistent

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Jun 1, 2016

Jun 1, 2016 at 6:24 AM UTC

ra

The Itch is leaving

You were absent today I didn't notice til 6pm ish You've been fading out Visiting less often I won't miss you ***** Itch You've been persistent

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Mummy, Happy birth-mothersday Throw ya toast out the window Feed it to the dog Kiss me with your laughing eyes Kiss me kindly with your lips Touch my cheek with your smooth brown hands Not one more time But forever more times please Mum Let's get ***** growing potatoes Let's get paint on the carpet Let's write love notes on the walls Like all normal people do Tell me to make you a cuppa tea. (I'm turning into you mum.) Sing my songs to me mummy Tell me about Rindacella again please tell me how she slopped her dripper on the stairs Can you hear the morepork Mummy? Listen with me Did you see that shootin' star? Are you smelling these trees? Wrap me up in itchy woollen cardies Put my odd socks on Puddle jumpin' in my gummies In a land called Honalee I'll climb into bed with you tonight Lace bedspread catching my toes Curl up in the nest of the crook of your knees It's cold, sleep back-to-back Dance in front of my friends if you like They all think you're cool Sorry I didn't tell you. Teenagers **** Tell me I'm amazing Adventurous and strong Your courageous daughter Smart and beautiful Remind me I can sail ships through storms That God is always close Pray over me and praise with me Read the bible again to me Come play piano with Isobel Or computer games if you like I think I've killed your Farmville farm Sorry . Mummy Chat with me on Facebook Ocean's teacher likes Donald Trump Be outraged with me please Come with me to the school I'll hide behind your storm People aren't afraid of my Gentle, steady rain I think I hear my babies stirring They're amazing Mum You should see the stuff they do and say You should see how fierce they are You should. You should. You should. Be. Here. They're creeping round the house now Making my heart laugh I better open up my bedroom window Ready for the toast.

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May 8, 2016

May 8, 2016 at 10:44 PM UTC

ra

Mummy

Mummy, Happy birth-mothersday Throw ya toast out the window Feed it to the dog Kiss me with your laughing eyes Kiss me kindly with your lips Touch my cheek with your smooth brown hands Not one more time But forever more times please Mum Let's get ***** growing potatoes Let's get paint on the carpet Let's write love notes on the walls Like all normal people do Tell me to make you a cuppa tea. (I'm turning into you mum.) Sing my songs to me mummy Tell me about Rindacella again please tell me how she slopped her dripper on the stairs Can you hear the morepork Mummy? Listen with me Did you see that shootin' star? Are you smelling these trees? Wrap me up in itchy woollen cardies Put my odd socks on Puddle jumpin' in my gummies In a land called Honalee I'll climb into bed with you tonight Lace bedspread catching my toes Curl up in the nest of the crook of your knees It's cold, sleep back-to-back Dance in front of my friends if you like They all think you're cool Sorry I didn't tell you. Teenagers **** Tell me I'm amazing Adventurous and strong Your courageous daughter Smart and beautiful Remind me I can sail ships through storms That God is always close Pray over me and praise with me Read the bible again to me Come play piano with Isobel Or computer games if you like I think I've killed your Farmville farm Sorry . Mummy Chat with me on Facebook Ocean's teacher likes Donald Trump Be outraged with me please Come with me to the school I'll hide behind your storm People aren't afraid of my Gentle, steady rain I think I hear my babies stirring They're amazing Mum You should see the stuff they do and say You should see how fierce they are You should. You should. You should. Be. Here. They're creeping round the house now Making my heart laugh I better open up my bedroom window Ready for the toast.

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The first time I told you I love you I didn't say it with my mouth I took your hand and wrote it on your palm Over the counter while you were at work You looked at your hand, amused Then I laughed and ran away

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Mar 31, 2016

Mar 31, 2016 at 8:52 PM UTC

ra

I love you

The first time I told you I love you I didn't say it with my mouth I took your hand and wrote it on your palm Over the counter while you were at work You looked at your hand, amused Then I laughed and ran away

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This is to write to you The things I cannot say The things I tell you all day in my head. I imagine I can tell you that every morning I wake I think about being dead. And every night it's become my habit to comfort myself with visions of that until sleep arrives But that's not to mean I will die I'm just so numb. I cannot tell you because people say we say this for attention Or to bestow you with responsibility But although I want nothing more than for you to come and hold me and offer me the comfort I find in your arms to replace the comfort of these relentless thoughts. It is not your responsibility. But let's not talk more of this It's so boring. Let's talk of how your hair smells glorious And your skin's so sweet and warm and your mouth covers mine in friendly kisses. How when I speak of pain you embrace my hand with yours. And even your hands are beautiful. Of the look on your face when I showed you I had drawn your feet. How your eyes speak things to me. Do mine speak to you? What have my eyes already told you? Maybe they've told you of this pain and my tongue will never have to repeat it and this poem can stay secret

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Mar 31, 2016

Mar 31, 2016 at 4:56 AM UTC

ra

Unsuicide Note

This is to write to you The things I cannot say The things I tell you all day in my head. I imagine I can tell you that every morning I wake I think about being dead. And every night it's become my habit to comfort myself with visions of that until sleep arrives But that's not to mean I will die I'm just so numb. I cannot tell you because people say we say this for attention Or to bestow you with responsibility But although I want nothing more than for you to come and hold me and offer me the comfort I find in your arms to replace the comfort of these relentless thoughts. It is not your responsibility. But let's not talk more of this It's so boring. Let's talk of how your hair smells glorious And your skin's so sweet and warm and your mouth covers mine in friendly kisses. How when I speak of pain you embrace my hand with yours. And even your hands are beautiful. Of the look on your face when I showed you I had drawn your feet. How your eyes speak things to me. Do mine speak to you? What have my eyes already told you? Maybe they've told you of this pain and my tongue will never have to repeat it and this poem can stay secret

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There's someone occupying space in my mind and heart again She's new. I can't wait to find out more about her She's like refreshing, but warm rain And I'm wondering if I'll love her She makes me smile so hard when smiling seems impossible She's lovelier than lovely She doesn't even know me but she hugs me so much because I said I needed it And I crave her now Like I crave sunshine She is sunshine

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Nov 7, 2015

Nov 7, 2015 at 4:09 AM UTC

ra

Another New Friend

There's someone occupying space in my mind and heart again She's new. I can't wait to find out more about her She's like refreshing, but warm rain And I'm wondering if I'll love her She makes me smile so hard when smiling seems impossible She's lovelier than lovely She doesn't even know me but she hugs me so much because I said I needed it And I crave her now Like I crave sunshine She is sunshine

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I hate you cancer Because you ravaged my mother's beautiful body and then you stole her We pleaded with you and you did not relent Mummy cried out in pain and you did not relent Mummy wept as you ripped pieces from her body Then she stoically stared you in the face, as if you could not destroy her but you still did.

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Mar 19, 2014

Mar 19, 2014 at 8:35 PM UTC

ra

I hate you Cancer

I hate you cancer Because you ravaged my mother's beautiful body and then you stole her We pleaded with you and you did not relent Mummy cried out in pain and you did not relent Mummy wept as you ripped pieces from her body Then she stoically stared you in the face, as if you could not destroy her but you still did.

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Mum Me and your moko, We lay on the grass Staring into the stars And someone came by and said we might find you there But we didn't. And how could we really Stars are burning gas hung by the powerful creator you are with But still I stared hoping for a shooting one I haven't seen any since we were together on my deck and Mum- I've laid and held your cardies with their cigarette smell And I've curled up with your ashes and wept But you're not there I don't want to hear the empty words people say (I know they're only trying to help) I know you are not here Yes I see you in my mirror and in the paintings you left In my birthday cards In the crutches by the door My daughter's face. The memory of your warm hand stroking my face (if I concentrate hard I can nearly feel it) with love no-one else can give me Lying in the grass With dew settling on our heads We knew you weren't there. And I'm glad for you Mum Secure with the Father Finally healed. I think of your face shining as the Holy Spirit filled you And your arms stretched towards heaven and your voice Singing 'On Eagle's Wings' Filled with joy And I know that's where you are You're not meant to be here.

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Mar 19, 2014

Mar 19, 2014 at 7:39 PM UTC

ra

Mum

Mum Me and your moko, We lay on the grass Staring into the stars And someone came by and said we might find you there But we didn't. And how could we really Stars are burning gas hung by the powerful creator you are with But still I stared hoping for a shooting one I haven't seen any since we were together on my deck and Mum- I've laid and held your cardies with their cigarette smell And I've curled up with your ashes and wept But you're not there I don't want to hear the empty words people say (I know they're only trying to help) I know you are not here Yes I see you in my mirror and in the paintings you left In my birthday cards In the crutches by the door My daughter's face. The memory of your warm hand stroking my face (if I concentrate hard I can nearly feel it) with love no-one else can give me Lying in the grass With dew settling on our heads We knew you weren't there. And I'm glad for you Mum Secure with the Father Finally healed. I think of your face shining as the Holy Spirit filled you And your arms stretched towards heaven and your voice Singing 'On Eagle's Wings' Filled with joy And I know that's where you are You're not meant to be here.

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Yes, you have faults But they are eclipsed because you let me sniff your head

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Mar 19, 2013

Mar 19, 2013 at 5:40 AM UTC

ra

Friendship

Yes, you have faults But they are eclipsed because you let me sniff your head

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