in the rain-
darkness, the sunset
being sheathed i sit and
think of you
the holy
city which is your face
your little cheeks the streets
of smiles
your eyes half-
thrush
half-angel and your drowsy
lips where float flowers of kiss
and
there is the sweet shy pirouette
your hair
and then
your dancesong
soul. rarely-beloved
a single star is
uttered,and i
think
of you
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 9:04 PM UTC
let’s live suddenly without thinking
under honest trees,
a stream
does.the brain of cleverly-crinkling
-water pursues the angry dream
of the shore. By midnight,
a moon
scratches the skin of the organised hills
an edged nothing begins to prune
let’s live like the light that kills
and let’s as silence,
because Whirl’s after all:
(after me)love,and after you.
I occasionally feel vague how
vague idon’t know tenuous Now-
spears and The Then-arrows making do
our mouths something red,something tall
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 9:03 PM UTC
as is the sea marvelous
from god’s
hands which sent her forth
to sleep upon the world
and the earth withers
the moon crumbles
one by one
stars flutter into dust
but the sea
does not change
and she goes forth out of hands and
she returns into hands
and is with sleep….
love,
the breaking
of your
soul
upon
my lips
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 9:02 PM UTC
if i believe
in death be sure
of this
it is
because you have loved me,
moon and sunset
stars and flowers
gold crescendo and silver muting
of seatides
i trusted not,
one night
when in my fingers
drooped your shining body
when my heart
sang between your perfect
*******
darkness and beauty of stars
was on my mouth petals danced
against my eyes
and down
the singing reaches of
my soul
spoke
the green-
greeting pale-
departing irrevocable
sea
i knew thee death.
and when
i have offered up each fragrant
night,when all my days
shall have before a certain
face become
white
perfume
only,
from the ashes
then
thou wilt rise and thou
wilt come to her and brush
the mischief from her eyes and fold
her
mouth the new
flower with
thy unimaginable
wings,where dwells the breath
of all persisting stars
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 8:59 PM UTC
Emerald eyes are home
in yours. You have a torn wing,
melancholy eyes.
A pair of torn wings
holds only the most raw truth
about life and loss.
Rivers down your cheeks
and nothing but pure sorrow.
Later, bringing joy.
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 8:53 PM UTC
Our love was endless as the grains in sand,
and when the sea and wind welcomed you in
the middle of the night, across the land
I travel, wishing for your matching grin.
The waves were sweet, unlike any other,
a voice drawing spider webs on your skin,
you had the haste to forget a lover.
And I do not blame you but I wonder-
Shall I compare thee to a short lived love?
Shall I call thee but a true love still?
In flight now is nothing but a dove,
below are hunters with thirst for a ****
My dear, we are but two stars in the sky,
soon you will see that I’ve drawn an end nigh.
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 8:52 PM UTC
Oh, my dear mourning dove,
a sweet voice sending ripples through the
morning air.
My dear mourning dove,
voice having been troubled and lost,
and then found again,
with sweet benevolence.
My dear mourning dove,
with a voice that beings
crave
to hear sing their ‘Good morning,’s,
Oh my dear mourning dove,
tickling tympanum,
curving lips upward, and
singing reverse lullabies.
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 8:50 PM UTC
And in an instance,
I realized that we were not only one in the present
but that we were one in the past
We have always been one
And that the same strings that attach stars in a constellation
attach us.
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 8:48 PM UTC
I can only write on the computer.
And I suppose that that’s not really the right thing to say, because people are going to say that I really am part of the next generation who survives solely by technology.
I really do try to write on paper, but I can only use pen because pencil smudges too easily and the end gets so dull,
So when people say that they can’t send me a link to one of their favorite poems because it’s on paper, my respect for them goes up by about sixty percent.
The part of writing on paper that scares me the most,
the part of speaking in real life that scares me the most
is that I can’t delete words.
On Microsoft Word, I can go back and add words into the middle of my poem, I can look at it as a whole and as a half and everywhere in between,
I can delete half of it and forget about, and that half will be lost forever.
But the way my fingers sometimes stick to the keyboard reminds me, I think, that the words that I’ve deleted stick with me forever, no matter how lost they are.
They’re not in some vast, infinite vacuum of the internet-
but stuck to my fingers because that was the only physical presence of those words at the time they were given life.
(Baby ducks follow the first moving thing they see when they hatch,)
And it’s some weird, modern folk tale, how the words got life, and how the words died.
So maybe if I’m the only one who can’t write on paper, then this word carrying curse is the punishment?
It’s a special flaw that makes the protagonist unique but relatable, (along with making her not able to spell anything and not able to talk to people)
And if poetry is just rambling and writing is ranting, then what are words.
The cancerous cells in a slice of bone marrow?
More likely some hellish creature that comes out of everyone only at two in the morning,
or the sticky stuff that I feel sometimes on my keyboard (or is it my fingers?)
Because my sticky fingers are a word’s physical form,
and if you think about it, you really can’t ever touch a word. They’re either soundwaves or dried ink on a dead tree, or pixels on a screen.
(or on your fingertips or your tongue.)
And I carry them with me everywhere, on my tongue and on my sticky fingers.
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 8:45 PM UTC
We marked the deaths on a map in little black tallies,
every day we counted the numbers and they had come to a strong incline.
You sat in the dust by the flames
playing with a cattail
and you asked me
“When will it be over?”
The smoke drifted into open sky above us and I tried to count the stars.
The map was held together by rivers and
railroads
and lakes.
And we were held together by a commonplace drive:
Hope.
The poem in your eyes had no backbone and it was falling apart at the seams and it made you
tired and
sad and
hopeless.
The map is held together by little black tallies on the edges from an old charcoal pencil.
And we are held together by a thread of life that could very well be
snipped.
Alas, that is out of our reach but we must remember to always
fight! and to stay alive
please keep holding on
please
Because home awaits with open arms and we are here counting stars and
we must never die.
~
The mayor warned when we came home to
never leave again
and to
never go again
and I do not understand because
we couldn’t stop that
and you told me that I understand
and that he doesn’t.
Mother looked at me and my scars
disgusted
and told me to go
and told me that I shouldn’t be home.
And we found a lake from the map marked with a charcoal pencil and stayed there
and you fished
and I found berries.
Every night we counted the stars and
we were connected by constellations.
Every night we were connected by the grass beneath us
pricking the backs of our necks
and we caught the flying stars
(Fireflies)
and we were connected by constellations.
The notes of the piano rang in open air across the lake
how far can the notes stretch to connect us?
As the lake grew, constellations stretched
far
and we never knew what color your eyes were.
Blinded by the bright light from the upcoming sun,
we both ran for cover, turning our backs on each other for the first time in
a while.
The thick trees hid us from the light well enough, but
you
weren’t
there.
We kept running.
The sun was catching up
too fast
and we ran for everything we could live for.
(each other)
I ran for you and you ran for me.
That’s all we could do until you laid on the ground,
tired and
sad and
hopeless.
You stopped running so I did too and we both were hungry for what we could’ve had.
~
When we were still in the war, they let you bring one thing from home.
You brought the idea of hope
and I brought the idea of music
and we mixed together very well.
The nights when we counted stars under the full moon
were the nights when we’d fall asleep with our arms touching.
(A sign that people are alive.)
The dust woke us up when it blew in our open mouths,
and in a shallow breath the tiny things landed on our tongues, woke us up, and
made our eyes cry.
“When do you know to go home?”
I ask myself this a lot because I know that there is no answer.
Human beings like to ask themselves things without answers and then get angry that there is no answer.
Because only they know when they put you back home.
You and I were lucky because we only had a little time in that hell,
but the others weren’t.
The little black tallies from the charcoal pencil weren’t because they
died.
The light woke us up and we knew we had to run
soon
It landed upon our eyelids and woke us up and made us cry.
I think of you as I am running and my bare feet
smack
across the dirt.
I think of you because your hair always was full of the stuff and now all it does is make me cry.
~
I think we are running along the line on one of your maps.
I think our feet are creating the dark brown streaks on the paper with the little black tallies on them.
And I think that we will never find out
the color of your eyes.
We run back to back for a while
until the light stops us and we hide beneath the tree’s leaves.
I am hungry for our arms to be touching again.
I am hungry to count stars with you and the place we did that was the war,
so could you say that
I am hungry for the war?
I am not hungry for the charcoal pencil,
but I am hungry for the hand that touched it.
I am not hungry for the dirt,
but I am hungry for the person who would lay in it carelessly.
I am hungry for the map so I can see the dark brown veins running across it with bare feet
smacking
the dark brown surface of it.
I am hungry to breathe in the commonplace drive that pushed us along the dark brown lines and out of
the war.
And I am hungry for the idea that once was.
Hope:
That is no longer existent when I am not with you
which is a side effect of
you
that I did not know about.
I would welcome any side effects that came with you with open arms, of course, because I would still have
you
I merely did not know about that one, but I am sad to see the idea go.
~
I wish you the best in all your journeys.
I wish to hear the beat of your heart against the crickets again,
but now I am afraid that the light has caught up with me
and I am afraid that
we will never find out what color my eyes are.
I wish you the best in running from the light
but remember that the without light there would be no darkness.
I am sorry to have to tell you that the dust will settle in the rocks and that
the maps have been burned.
The tallies have turned blacker than ever before.
The tallies have turned into ash from the bright flames.
The maps have fallen asleep in the glow of the flames and that
our idea:
Hope;
has been taken by the wind.
It ran with it, and I tried to catch it, but the wind cannot be caught.
Remember the first breath of the war you took when you stepped outside into the
light
of the day and remember the glow of the flames.
Remember that people are still living
(Remember that our arms touched on the nights we counted stars)
and remember the constellations that connected us.
I am not sorry to tell you, however, that no matter how far constellations can be stretched,
constellations never can be broken.
They can stretch to heaven and hell and earth and the sky and the dust and to the war
But they will never shatter
because constellations are images the mind has created.
Constellations are made by the mind and stars are tangible.
Constellations connect stars.
We are stars and we all burn in our own flames.
~
The words from your charcoal pencil make me cry.
I cannot ever count the stars without you
and I cannot ever write poetry in the dust without you.
Your words make me cry and I run
faster.
I don’t try to compete with the light because I know we’ve been running with our backs to each other for the
whole
time.
The wind trips me and its fingers comb through my hair on the way down.
dust from the ground tickles my tongue and the wind left something in my brain.
our idea:
Hope;
has been taken by the wind.
“Are you the dust, now?”
I feel your thumb across my cheekbone and I am
yearning
for what we could’ve had.
“Are you the wind, now?”
I feel your hand in mine and you lift me to my feet.
My face is dark brown covered with dust
but as I run the wind cleans it off.
“I have never been so tired,” I tell you.
I am so hungry for you.
I am starving
and I am sick with what we could’ve had.
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 8:41 PM UTC