so intense
the feelings are so intense for someone who doesn't even slightly
feel the same way
what makes me so drawn to you?
what makes you so different?
why can't i shake you?
a connection.
i don't know i just feel a connection
do you feel one too?
you make me feel like i
can get through
like i can do anything
you are more about your actions than your words
your actions show that you care
and it just makes my heart so full
my heart gets so full for you
n every night when you fall asleep,
i think to myself if this is real.
if i actually am falling for you
but i don't want to fall for you.
cause the love,
that type of love,
won't be reciprocated
there's no room for me in that
heart of yours
i don't meet the criteria
unfortunately
so i don't want to fall for you
as i'll only be hurting myself in the process,
causing my heart to ache as much as my forearm.
to be completely torn apart
i don't know how to get rid of you
and i don't want to get rid of you
i don't want to let you go
but how do i dispose of this love from here?
Jan 23, 2019
Jan 23, 2019 at 8:25 AM UTC
so i like a girl.
and this infatuation
this attraction
has developed in short time,
received in short notice
and it started out with the small things
like how her beautiful tan skin
sorta glowed in the midst of
sunny daylight
like how the polish filled with
hues of blue
seemed to gradually
peel away at the
cracked seams
oh! oh and like how
easy it was to get her
smiling
that way whenever I felt
doubtful
I could always find the
comforting warmth
that the play on her lips
brought
ha, and another is that
she couldn't really hear
when there was a towel wrapped
around her ears
or when a gust of air from the fan
shot pass them,
trapping her in an imperfect silence
yeah it all kinda started with that
but you know I also fall for the big things too
like how her eyes illuminate with the words of her passion
how her voice climbs a little and
her smile getting
impossibly more
breathtaking
yes and I also like the
honesty that
seeps
from her aura
how she stays true to her
opinions
knows her
facts
and acts with such confidence it makes my heart ache in
both envy and longing
and it's crazy,
i mean
how infatuation keeps
chasing me
how it clung to me the
first chance it got
and I wish there was
more time
so that I could make the
feelings seem more
valid
less impulsive
slow them down
a bit
but like I said times before,
I just can't help it.
and I wish I could
shoo them away
like a fly on a typical hot summer's day
cause I know that those
feelings won't be reciprocated
but I guess it's not
natural that way
so inevitably
I'll just have to allow these
visitors
called feelings,
once again,
to stay
sulking and
throwing a
pity party,
day to day.
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 1:39 AM UTC