Don't you remember when the embers of the fire we burned
Tended to lend their distended heat to our dismembered concerns
About guilt the in the darkness past the attractive flames
That we built a stark distraction reactive to the shame
Of the past and the last active claim of aghast blame
For tame transgressions with vast, intercessive aims
It's not a game
I make no claim
to understand the rules of an impressive refrain on expressing pain
I've always been **** at making real appealing fires
So I gave it to you to take your ideals and desires
And make something that burned brighter and higher
Than anything our nights could ever really earn or require
But the wind had called a favour in
And winter walled that labour in
And so flames buffered and suffered
Fluttering, stuttered, they were scuppered
The ashes of our confidence now paper thin
Unreliable light will let the darkness in
It offers the undesirable, heartless spin
On this starless night we're tiring in
We can build it back up but the conditions are tough
In the build up to an admission that enough is enough
We always could give up and freeze to death still kissing in the underbrush
With Failure's frost seizing our last wistful breaths
and Hope's ghost leaving us to a listless Death
Heavy with regrets gasping a dismissed homesick song
I'm not ready for that yet, let's risk throwing another stick on
I want the heat and the light to cheat on the night
To melt the meat from my cheeks and let my heart ignite
So tonight let's reach a heat to set the past alight
Apr 24, 2016
Apr 24, 2016 at 4:13 PM UTC
He lived in a room with no windows
He hung pictures on the wall
Of driveways, cars and hedgerows
Of redbrick homes and even a town hall
But soon he began to miss a view
That offered some variety
Nothing breathed and nothing grew
At the centre of his dead society
So he moved a couple in next door
And an accountant the other side
An old lady got the house with the green front door
A large family had the garden with the slide
The postman liked to come at noon
A bus passed on the hour
He saw children playing in the afternoons
And lawns brighten under spring showers
It didn’t exist beyond his doors
This idyllic, sunny street
But now that he had some neighbours
His new home felt complete
But like all things of beauty
The cracks began to show
Reality likes to exercise duty
Down to the smallest bungalow
One day the silver car was missing
And, when watching the road for more
He the saw the man next door was kissing,
Mrs Across the Road, not Mrs Next Door
A while later, there came the shouts
And the gasps of laboured crying
The street knew what the row was about
And so Mrs Across the Road was caught lying
The kids were put in the car, confused
Bras were strewn across the front lawn
She begged him to stay but he refused
And an ambulance was there by dawn
Mrs Across the Road was dead
They found her hanging from the ceiling
And Mrs Next Door had a cut on her head
That gave him a queasy feeling
Vandals came, the police followed
The old lady’s front windows were broken
The had tulips wilted and the people wallowed
He watched the decay, alone and heartbroken
He decided to move away from this street
The sobbing through the walls plagued his evenings
A new set of windows, new neighbours to meet
The real world could be conquered by leaving
But when moving day came, and he arrived
He felt suddenly much less sure
When he noticed that, well and revived
Mrs Across the Road living next door
From then, wherever he went they came
His neighbours’ rows and cries were haunting
He moved some more, but it was always the same
His world was inescapable, the fiction taunting
Eventually, his patience snapped
Which led him to a more physical hell
Windowless once again, he could never adapt
To the bars on the door to his cell
Apr 22, 2016
Apr 22, 2016 at 4:08 PM UTC
Those days were the idle ease of clouds
Those mornings breathed
The nights hummed
Vibrations of existence
And the anticipation of dawn
Until time began to wail
Unmistakable
and inconsiderate
The stark countenance of responsibility
Sidled around the curtains
Immediacy stopped consistency
Reality burst forth from the boxes
We could never quite seal
The uncontained became contaminated
Leaves turned brown
Minutes turned grey
The solace of the night suffocated itself
And drowned our plans in silence
Apr 14, 2016
Apr 14, 2016 at 7:32 AM UTC
Dawns barbed tongue
Licked regret off my face
And finally
It seemed as though the four corners of the world
Were finally coming home
Mar 12, 2016
Mar 12, 2016 at 3:47 PM UTC
*I gasped but only your voice went in
After the lies I'd told like magic
Emptied themselves as marbles
On the hard wooden floor
I collected myself
With my hands
Dropping the hope
I had been holding on to
Ambiguity ripped open
A line between my heart and chin
I gasped and only the truth went in*
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 9:07 PM UTC
You think I don't know
But I do
Your lips are rushed
Your hands are polite
Your eyes reflect
Your mind's engagements
When? I'm not sure
But even the smallest gap
Is large
To those who see it open
You think I don't know
That maybe it will come around
That maybe you just need to breathe
But the air you seek is fresher
That anything inside
And if you don't get out
You will choke on it
The scent of home is suffocating
Too late? Almost definitely
Long terms are not always so defeatist
You will not smooth my edges
Only erode your own
A smoother surface for sharper corners
I opened all the windows
I don't think it helped
You are being wasteful
For my sake
But I know
And now I can smell it too
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 8:55 PM UTC
Those stars you see are dead
Only blackness there instead
Sights that enlight hearts and heads
Are finite delights we misread
And those TV shows and media spiel
They're real profits for fake ideals
Our lives are dull, at worst ordeals
And to appeal to the way humans can feel
Cuts the thickest, if slickest, business deal
So we divide ourselves into groups and sides
Find the one that best describes what's 'inside'
Who we are is defined by who we stand beside
With as much control of the pride or snide chides implied
As we have over landslides or mountainsides or the tides
In the age of the original, the individual
We shun the biblical, the ritual, the miracle
And turn to the visual,
A new kind of digital Fictional
Where the miserable are invisible
The political are cynical
The habitual criminals reciprocal
And the principles hypocritical
Those stars you see are dead
That's what the phycisist said
Even sky has us misled
When the truth that's spreaded is dreaded
The truth we bred is embedded
The easily read are easily led
Feb 15, 2016
Feb 15, 2016 at 7:23 PM UTC
Mouse claws on plastic; a scratching sound,
A small pallid face on a merry-go-round,
The wheel trundles on unstable ground
As the empire falls, a fresh king is crowned
Head spinning; hair thinning,
Revolution by minute is no beginning,
And now the man behind the lattice is sinning,
It goes around, and around
Swinging, we come around
Mornings follow familiar dreams
Afternoons clink with routine and caffeine
Evening curtains rise to the same static scenes,
And night rings out the strain of the machine
Round and around
Evergreen; never aground
Our scratches on the wheel grow loud now
Two more eyes swallowed by the shuffling crowd now
Despite strain, the steel walls unbowed somehow
By a thousand pallid faces beneath a thousand sallow shrouds
We go around, and we go around
The mice remain humble: the king has some proud vow
It comes around and back around
The world keeps turning; we all fall down
Feb 4, 2016
Feb 4, 2016 at 8:25 PM UTC
I'm dreading a red Christmas
Just like the ones that used to flow
Where my thigh-tops glisten
And tampons I christen
With the blood from my pink grotto
I'm dreading a red Christmas
With every Christmas cramp I fight
May the clots be unscary and slight
And may all the periods be light
I'm dreading a red Christmas
With each sheet I stain at night
May the flow be wary and finite
And may all the periods be light
Dec 25, 2015
Dec 25, 2015 at 6:51 PM UTC
Take a piece
Cut a slice
It won’t hurt me
Might taste nice
Take from the bottom
Maybe then I’ll feel it
There’s less of me there
You could still peel it
But be sure to take some
And then take some more
Now I’m almost enjoying
You consuming me raw
Dec 20, 2015
Dec 20, 2015 at 3:58 PM UTC