I've got diamonds on my ears,
Yet my eyes harbour tears.
I've got arms that hold me,
That crush and suffocate me.
I've got love.
Just enough,
To keep me begging for more.
Just enough to not let go.
Forever hoping,
Never wavering.
Always chasing,
The constantly disappointing.
Every racer fast or slow.
Reaches the finish line.
Baby enjoy the chase,enjoy the show.
Your chapter's come to the end,
I'm reading the last lines.
It's been rough and I'm tired.
Tired of running. Of love. Of lies.
But I've got diamonds on my ears now,
And fire in my eyes.
Dec 19, 2017
Dec 19, 2017 at 4:04 AM UTC
And suddenly i see the world differently,
Girls with bright smiles
and slit wrists.
Shining eyes.
Broken pasts.
Shattered beautifully.
Sharp pieces held together carefully,
walking, taking steps forward.
The pieces cutting deeper, inwards.
Fighting, battling.
Hurting, Dying.
****** struggle, Beautiful remains.
No pain, No gain
innit mate?
Apr 4, 2017
Apr 4, 2017 at 2:55 PM UTC
And all the graphs, lines and figures.
All these words,verbs and expressions.
Seem to be...
A mechanic drone, a dry monotonic lecture,
By an uninterested , indifferent teacher.
So i closed my eyes shutting out the world.
Drowning their voices, views & wise words.
And like the knight in shining armor,
The savior, the survivor.
I heard it from within.
Rhythmic, continuous, consistent.
Strong, focused, Resilient.
Beat After Beat.
Never giving up, Nor giving in.
Its been this way from the very beginning.
& seemed to find no reason to give in.
I had the answers to my questions.
I knew it was right, So I closed my eyes...
And Let My Heart Decide.
Jan 7, 2017
Jan 7, 2017 at 10:18 AM UTC
The drastic change,
From
2 hrs 20 mins.
To
2 mins 59 seconds.
That's how long we spoke for.
It was long enough.
The Phone Call.
A phone call.
Is all it takes.
To break down the wall.
To push through my heart,a stake.
My heart cracks a little,at every second.
just want to hold the phone & have u on the other end.
No need for words.
Coz every word hurts.
To say or to hear.
You sound so far yet so near.
I want to scream at how unaffected u seem to be.
Like nothing changed,when how long it has been!
How familiar and distant your voice sounds at d same time.
How u still sound like you did, when you were mine.
I wanna shout at u,stay mad at u,
I wanna hug u, tell u how much ive missed u.
I wanna hang up.
I wanna hold on.
U wreck me.
U break me.
U rebuild me.
U make me.
I smile, through tears.
I laugh ,swallowing the lump in my throat.
You're a monster ,
You're an angel ,
My drug.
My addiction.
My love.
My affliction.
Letting u go too soon to sudden,
Means death to me.
Only time, can determine. Can set me free.
& after time erases time..
I pray i make it out alive.
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 4:29 AM UTC
So many buildings.
So many boulders.
Enclosed,trapped,crowded.
Yet the sun still finds its way.
To peek through them everyday.
Bright, shining.
Warm, penetrating.
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 11:27 AM UTC
Sometimes ,some days, i don't remember who i used to be.
My childhood, lost among all the flashes & memories.
And at times, it hits...
Comes back bit by bit..
Glorious, Mysterious ,Magical.
Pure, Striking, Painful.
I hope one day i find her.
That person i used to be.
But for now,
I hear the smile,
in her words when she sings;
I'll sing to u ,
The words unspoken..
Remind u of the long forgotten.
Unravel our past,our silenced history.
And darling ,the wind will carry u home.
Carry u home,To me.
i'll find you when i'm ready.
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 2:23 AM UTC
Our song has no lyrics,
no continuity, no rhyming words.
But look a little closer, listen a little harder..
and a distant melody can be heard.
its that sweet soft music while dancing under the rain.
its that rush felt when we share the same sudden thoughts.
its the screams we hear in the others silent pain.
The burst of giggles that escape as we try holding in chuckles & snorts.
Its the warmth felt through thick material, in our quick
embraces and hugs.
Those silent sentences spoken through stares.
The reassuring comfort in the little touches.
Its the hushed whispers-calls during midnight.
Its when she lets me share her favorite chocolate fudge.
Its the sadness that she sees behind my smile.
That buzz when we walk towards each other.
Its the little nod of agreement.
That familiarity with our arms around our shoulders.
The feeling of belonging-ness.
That sense of security,
we share in each others company.
Its that heart break when i miss you.
The realization that you've gone.
That promise that one day,ill come back for you.
Because it is beside you that i belong.
Its that last effortless, satisfied smile.
as i drift off to sleep,before i close my eyes.
replaying again...
our beautiful song.
Nov 2, 2015
Nov 2, 2015 at 12:19 PM UTC
I'll make my own life & live it.
If there is a guy who can handle that,
He can have my hand.
And if he cant,
He can have my finger.
Oct 21, 2015
Oct 21, 2015 at 11:50 AM UTC
The light slowly dims away
Leaving room for the darkness to follow
The night folds in to help rejuvenate
To prepare young souls for another tomorrow
The stars appear now
Forming clusters
The mighty moon shines as the sun bows low
The birds snuggle into their nests
The gentle whispering breeze blows
Stars twinkle,moon shines,the sky changes colours
To blow away all ur fears n sorrow
God made this, all for u...
Creating an atmosphere of warmth n peace.
silence n darkness so deep,
so his beloved soul can fall asleep.
Goodnight love,sweet dreams.
Sep 16, 2015
Sep 16, 2015 at 5:02 AM UTC
under the rain again .
My soul purpose - to get her back up.
She has fallen, & it feels like a part of me is gone.
Something is missing.
something is Wrong.
Nothing else mattered.
None except her existed.
I'm gonna keep her going,
Doesn't matter where i stand.
Ill b her oxygen ,ill do everything i can.
I can see right through it.
I know how she feels.
That expression is just a mask.
How well she conceals!
I admire her strength to keep moving on.
The way she suppresses the pain,remains headstrong.
Ill wait for as long as it takes.
Your shoulder to lean upon.
I believe in u honey,
ull end up better,wiser n strong.
And when ur finally able to smile freely again.
When uve made through all the pain,
Uve kicked away all the stress and strain.
Ill hold ur hand,
And we'll race thru and dance under the rain
Again. :)
Jun 21, 2015
Jun 21, 2015 at 5:26 PM UTC