Before tonight, whenever your name was mentioned a smile would instantly be triggered, a smile longer than an old country road
Not only a smile as long as the old road, but this road was filled with nothing was happiness and what I thought, brought the best out in me
while going down this old road tonight, came along with a hole of course
tonight one of those holes has truly hurt me
this hole just didn't make my body jolt and make my seat belt get tighter, but THIS time, I feel as if i had swallowed a rock from the road and which is now stuck in my throat and my heart has been ripped out of my chest
This particular deep hole in the road would accurately describe how my heart looks at the moment
the cold hard truth of it, is that i will continue down this road knowing another hole is to come
I've thought about taking an alternate route, but remembering the perfect memories of the old road draws me back
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 3:31 AM UTC
That tender touch
I yearn for that
That special connection
I pray for that
but
Every time I seem to fall flat
Everything happens for a reason, yes I know
but
I'm just tired of receiving the word no
There is so much love to give in my heart
but
There is always a "but"
Jan 27, 2018
Jan 27, 2018 at 1:56 AM UTC
My mind is like a snowflake
it started out innocent
so pure and remarkably fragile to the touch
but sure enough, this snowflake finally touched the ground
normally a snowflake would melt
but this was no ground, this was a cliff
so icy and brutally cold, nearly unbearable
the once snowflake, turned to solid ice
overtime all the built up pressure on top of the now ice
has finally been triggered
whether it was too much pressure of the new snow, the rain, or perhaps even some slight wind
an avalanche is now cascading down the mountainside
the snow is constantly rolling down the steep slope
nothing can stop this downward spiral until it hits the bottom
then it finally hit
oh so loud it was too
Jul 5, 2017
Jul 5, 2017 at 3:57 AM UTC
my luck hasn't always been the best
when i think I'm on top and living life at my best
a quick turn of events always seems to find me and tare me apart like wolves in a innocent bird nest
I don't understand why my life is like this
its an infinite circle of mishap
I am sucha good person,
why does misfortune always have to take advantage of me
I don't deserve these cards I've been dealt
but what can I do
besides hope for the best and see whats next
Jun 11, 2017
Jun 11, 2017 at 1:07 PM UTC
The entire room is staring, I feel my hair standing
All eyes on me, smiling is all I see
The chanting begins and I hear them but I’m not listening
My mind is focused on one thing
Blowing out my candles after they sing
What am I going to wish for this time?
Shall I wish that my other wishes come true?
Or do I wish something completely out of the blue?
All these thoughts bouncing around in my mind
However, I’m running out of time
They’re done singing, so here it goes
Blow
And like that another birthday
In the smoke
May 20, 2017
May 20, 2017 at 12:26 AM UTC
I see you looking at me
we're glancing back and forth
our eyes meet again but this time
its different
the look in your eyes is so intense
they look like an out of control wildfire
I feel my cheeks blushing and my heart rushing
now all I can do is stare back at you
yours eyes set me on fire and now all I feel is the heat flourishing
beneath the wrinkled bed sheets
May 3, 2017
May 3, 2017 at 9:04 AM UTC
When I think of you
I think of us, when I think of us
I think of disgust
You make me hurl
Yet you make me twirl
It's an endless cycle of one-sided love
Through all the sorrow you've me drug me threw
I still find myself running back to you
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 9:52 PM UTC
My senior prom just passed
I'm currently still hungover in class
I'm supposed to be doing my work but instead I'm here
wishing to crack open a nice cold beer
This morning I'm mourning over how fast it went by
can we just take a second to rewind?
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 9:46 AM UTC