To feel free
To feel open
No worries
No memories
Just you and me
Friends forever,
As we should be.
Always have,
Always will
Ha ha ha…
You know the drill
Forever searching,
Needing,
Craving
More.
As if there is
No end in sight.
My oh my,
What a fright.
Your beautiful skin,
Your hair broken, too.
What will it take to get over you?
Day by day
The rituals start
Beginning with the sun
And never receiving that ending delight.
Oh, but that must hurt?
It doesn’t.
With you by my side,
I laugh at pain
And joy and everything bright.
No emotions
No smile
Faded, bleak, cracked, dry.
I need help, I shriek
But with no reply.
Hate thrusts upwards
Black covers my eyes
Why must you hurt
And tell all these lies?
Please get help,
Im begging
Im pleading
Im on my knees scraping
Just to get a beating.
Is there anyone out there?
I yell once more
Finally, a voice is heard!
They open the door
Pure white lays everywhere
But im much better here
Than where I call there
I promise, I swear
Her naked body lie bare…
Bumps and bruises
Black and blue
Red and purple
And tears are falling too.
Wait, does this mean?
An emotion shows
Its face
Hidden deep
Recovery grows
She prays and she cries
Alone; no disguise
A resurrected angel
Lay there, shut eyes.
Become again, PLEASE!?!
Dropped heads and voices
We all want to see
For the good
Or the bad
The devil was pointing at me
But it was not my time,
Thankfully,
Thank god!
For the strong stand again
But all for Him,
A victory,
A win. <3
Sep 19, 2013
Sep 19, 2013 at 7:11 AM UTC
Past
Present
Future
Me.
All different people,
All different eyes,
All different perspectives,
All different lies.
How do I choose?
Should you know
Should you care
Should you show
That you know…
My pain, my struggle
My cries, my pride,
My jokes, my smile,
My lies, my crime.
Shattered glass
Shattered dreams
Shattered love
Shattered streams.
{Heart in between.}
Of tears, of memories,
Of family and generations
To come and go
So hold on dear
For you may never know
Darkness falls, excitement rises,
Repeated denials, manic disguises.
Sights blurred
Speech slurred
Bridges burned
Lessons learned
Sep 12, 2013
Sep 12, 2013 at 9:55 AM UTC
Tears falling like timber,
Years and years in the past
And right now she has to remember?
This isn’t fair,
Who ever said life was?
And she deserves this because?
With eyes of sapphire,
A pure heart of gold,
She buried down deep,
A story never told.
Stuck in a dream,
A mist settled on the scene,
Shoes walking on the sidewalk,
It was around two o’clock.
The streets entirely bare,
There’s no time to spare.
She knew what she had to do
Many webs of lies askew.
Fear grabbing at her wrists,
Time and time she’s cried
But no one comes and assists.
This isn’t fair,
He didn’t intend it to be,
But theres no magic key.
With little trust and no faith
He took what he wanted,
As in a routine, she promised.
Surely, forever haunted.
Awoken suddenly by a nudge,
Time to cover up the smudge.
walk downstairs and there you’ll meet
a man full of deceit.
Sep 12, 2013
Sep 12, 2013 at 9:47 AM UTC
Scared as hell, wish me well.
Tomorrow is the first day to the rest of my life.
The reason is me. Desire is key.
My mind can be a motivator or a knife.
Cut down deep. Tonight I'll sleep.
Yesterday was the past and out it shall go.
Refreshing water fell. Fear kept unwell.
My heart can be broken or I can say no.
Up is unsure. Doubt is a lure.
Today is the only moment I can truly keep.
Second by second. Minute by minute.
My future can be a step or it can be a leap.
Jul 9, 2013
Jul 9, 2013 at 1:05 AM UTC
A heavy feeling lands in a lap.
Thoughts start.
And don't stop.
Leading to forbidden places.
Constantly.
Helpless.
Paralyzed.
Uncontrollable fear,
denial,
despair,
control is missing.
Pieces fly everywhere.
Dizziness.
Gasping.
Blind rage.
Irresistible torture.
Falling.
Crawling.
Begging
and pleading.
For something new.
A speckle of hope.
Nope?
Dope.
Jul 6, 2013
Jul 6, 2013 at 12:25 AM UTC
And there she goes
And there she knows
And there she shows
nothing.
Bury deep
Bury, weep
Bury to keep
nothing.
Tranquil sighs
Tranquil eyes
Tranquil lies about
nothing.
Lay bare
Lay, stare
Lay there in
nothing.
Silently still
Silently ****
Silently fill with
nothing.
Empty art
Empty cart
Empty heart changed
nothing.
Blazing look
Blazing hook
Blazing book worth
nothing.
Deprived brain
Deprived, shame
Deprived gain means
nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing at all.
nothing.
Jul 5, 2013
Jul 5, 2013 at 3:36 PM UTC