Took a shot,
just to see what it taste like
My faith wrapped in paper,
only to feel it burn away
The silence is deafening,
yet the noises drive me insane
Stare at the hands
as the spin around in circles
Over and over,
they continue in circles
Now my world is spinning,
even as I lie still
Vision is sutured,
though images still create
Bumped into a stranger
Maybe I just want to feel
Do you want another slice of cake?
Do you want some more?
Take another slice,
I insist
Take it,
TAKE IT NOW
Me: "Sure"
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 1:09 PM UTC
Dead during the day
Alive at night
Do you want to fight?
Na, that's alright
Someone's calling me
I'll be right back
Another head attack
Another case to be cracked
Collect all the pieces
but there is no glue
What the *** am I supposed to do?
What the *** am I supposed to do?
Ahem, Ahem
Clean up on aisle four
We may have to close the store
but you know you puppets will come back for more
Thank you,
come again
maybe one day,
we can be friends :)
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 1:01 PM UTC
Just needed one look,
as I gazed into ur telling eyes
to know the fire is still burning,
obvious it's still alive.
And baby girl its heating up,
catching wind, it strives.
Stretching to the pearly white clouds,
it disperses through the sky.
Your lips were smirked,
coated a hint of chocolate brown.
Melted right through me,
knocked all my defenses down.
Became Lost in ur look,
like a pouting puppy in the pound.
Perched on ur throne,
defiant, just missing ur crown.
Then as quickly as you arrived,
you instantly left.
Had me stunned and shook,
drowning with regret.
Missing the photgraphed chokers,
softly fit, yet snug on ur neck.
Fell back on reminiscing of the night,
the magical night we first met.
Jun 12, 2017
Jun 12, 2017 at 5:13 PM UTC
Close eyes,
deep breath
Sweaty palms,
expanded chest
Racing thoughts,
desperate to move on
Rugged past
that is contiuously touched upon
You see im stuck
Or maybe out of luck
I can see the beauty in the distance
Yet there's a trend of "I missed it"
Happiness is one more step foward
However, the threshold has lowered
Hanging on to this feeling to explore
Running to the idea that I can reach that door
Drop my suitcase of memories
Befriend my dishonorable enemies
Escape the sinking quicksand
Grab on to your helping hand
The more you struggle
the more you sink
Its sad that its even difficult
for me to think
Think clearly
sooooooo cloudy
My visionss aaarrrreee soo clllooudyy
yuor lllossinnggnn cotnrolll
DONT LET IT TAKE YOU
you can make it
be strong
you need to go
before your gone
Run with this and fight
The more you think its wrong
the more youll understand its right
chase the stars you analyze at night
they are beautiful
and so are you
Deep inside you've always stayed true
Please, I beg
One more try
You need to understanding living
Before you die
May 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 7:44 AM UTC
Why create me?
Do you love me
or hate me.
Whats the purpose?
I feel fckng worthless.
Why so serious?
This addiction has me feeling delirious.
This seems so wrong
For I don't belong
Hopeless traveler
Ruthless scavenger
Lonely warrior
Fruitful courier
Im at the end
cant comprehend
im a fake
i pretend
to be a man
just a phony
faux
spec of dust
grain of sand.
But yet....
i understand.
May 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 7:22 AM UTC
It was the door, it was my mind.
My heart is bounding, my voice became blinding.
My jaw is the numbest
No one, not even the rain could've heard me.
Could I have even spoken to myself?
I tried, I tried, I swear I tried.
My voice was not loud enough.
I became aimless.
All I hear is the silence, it is so loud and eager.
My ears tingle with static, my tongue hides in fear.
The shutting of my eyes hurt, it's almost unbelievable how awake I was.
I can not close my eyes
May 17, 2017
May 17, 2017 at 6:17 AM UTC
Stone cold silence
Is all I hear
Stilling numbness
Is all I feel
Pitch black
Is all I see
I walk forward
Yet going backwards
Moments I should smile
I'm empty
Not needed
Depleted
Defeated
I'm surrounded
But all alone
Oct 19, 2016
Oct 19, 2016 at 12:29 PM UTC
Oh have mercy
Have mercy on me please.
This deep incision youve made on my heart it bleeds
Uncontrollably bleeding
Have mercy please!
Im on my knees pleading!
You sick son of a b*tch!
Leave!
Leave!
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 5:43 PM UTC
Loving witness of my demise.
Crucial moment for you to see.
This crushes the feelings that make us cry.
Wish these people would just let me be.
I Unitntentionally push away the ones that mean good.
Ruin the relationships with a liftime of devotion.
Hopelessly thinking of what I could.
Lost sensation feelings and emotion.
This drug it burns it destorys lives.
Seeped into my inner soul and ruined.
Cut through me like the sharpest of knives.
The end in the distance is looming.
Please help build the strength to conquer.
My last chance to make amends.
Must keep pushing or im a goner.
Hear me god I need your help amen.
Jun 5, 2016
Jun 5, 2016 at 9:10 PM UTC
Twisting Turning im all tangeled up.
Hands tied mouth taped thrown and locked in a car trunk.
Crash.
I'm momentarily stunned.
Water fills its dark and cold.
I am drowning but i do not care.
Been here already...
sinking..
sinking...
sunk.
Forget everything everything i thought i knew.
Its all fake and so are you.
**** the world
**** the people.
Were so different so far from equal.
Gasp Gasp..
Im out of air.
The Water fills my lungs
Who fckng cares.
Will i be remembered.
Will you ever repeat my name.
Resting
Rotting
Rotted
At the bottom of this lake.
Forget
Forgetting
Forgotten.
No one will ever remember this day.
Jun 5, 2016
Jun 5, 2016 at 6:55 PM UTC