the smell of fresh beans
fills by dreams
beckons me forth to my culture, to my people
acceptance is key, but I'm rejected by the world
simply because I don't fit the stereotype
rejected by my people because I don't speak their language
engraved in my heart are the traditions and beliefs of my people
but my body betrays me
I am Mexican
I am American
but the world makes me choose one
because I don't look the way I'm supposed to
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 12:36 PM UTC
sometimes I feel like
jealousy
is engraved in me
like feeling
less than
is how I'm supposed to feel
these thoughts ****** me
until I'm drunk with sadness
Feb 6, 2017
Feb 6, 2017 at 7:28 PM UTC
sometimes i forget what it was like to not be in love with you
that's when i become quite cynical
rolled my eyes at romance novels
flipped the channel when any romantic comedy dared to come on
skipped all my favorite love songs
i almost was engulfed in rage when movies ended sappy
i shunned the romance out of my life just like i shunned you
i was quite angry, you see
because i was never really not in love with you
i knew what all those movies and books and songs were professing
and although sometimes they can be quite dramatic i knew some form of that love was
real
oh, so very real
and now i revel in it every day
it wraps me up and keeps me warm
i breathe it in and it infuses with my skin
and i almost forget how i tried to fool myself about not being in love with you
Jan 27, 2017
Jan 27, 2017 at 2:43 AM UTC
you are my song
the beat to my heart
the rhythm in my step
the happiness in my laughter
Nov 12, 2016
Nov 12, 2016 at 11:16 AM UTC
i love you
and ill stay forever
because i figured out what i needed
what i always wanted
is you
Oct 18, 2016
Oct 18, 2016 at 1:01 PM UTC
oh my darling,
i would give you the stars
i would give you the oceans
and all the creatures in the forest
i would build you a universe
full of all the things that make you happy
but oh my darling,
all i have to give you is
my love
my heart
and all you have is
your love
and heart
and that is all i'll ever need
i love every inch
Oct 18, 2016
Oct 18, 2016 at 12:58 PM UTC
i can breathe you in forever
i missed your smell
your taste
the pounding in my chest
your arms around me
i searched for you in all the wrong places
all the wrong people
i was just trying to find a glimpse of you
but now you're mine again
and my heart is all yours
Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 11:38 PM UTC
i like to turn off my frontal lobe
let my amygdala and limbic lobe start screaming
let them ooze their tears
feel each and every stab
i know it's irrational
maybe it's a little self destructive
but the numbness is always worse than every scar they have caused me
because you see my frontal lobe likes to make me an empty shell
it likes for me to pull away from the pain
and let the darkness eat me alive
Oct 3, 2016
Oct 3, 2016 at 9:21 PM UTC
why must i feel so deeply
sometimes its nice
i love deeply
i'm happy deeply
i give deeply
but
i'm sad deeply
hurt deeply
frustrated deeply
drowning deeply in the chaos of these emotions
Sep 8, 2016
Sep 8, 2016 at 7:25 PM UTC