phoenixa - Hello Poetry

if you saw my eyes the ones that couldn't fill the tears the blank eyes the ones that cant show feelings the ones that were once bright that showed happiness for you if you saw my hair the hair that I dyed because you loved colour the hair that is now a mess the hair unclean and became its own dreadlock glad something of me is joint as one if you saw my skin the skin so dry the skin so uncared for the skin so colourless if you saw my wrist where your name is in ink where it'll always be the only part of you left if you saw my heart but you can see that whenever you want you took it with you I wander if you are looking after it the way only you can

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Dec 30, 2019

Dec 30, 2019 at 6:31 PM UTC

if you saw

if you saw my eyes the ones that couldn't fill the tears the blank eyes the ones that cant show feelings the ones that were once bright that showed happiness for you if you saw my hair the hair that I dyed because you loved colour the hair that is now a mess the hair unclean and became its own dreadlock glad something of me is joint as one if you saw my skin the skin so dry the skin so uncared for the skin so colourless if you saw my wrist where your name is in ink where it'll always be the only part of you left if you saw my heart but you can see that whenever you want you took it with you I wander if you are looking after it the way only you can

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how could I be that easy for you to replace? I destroyed my reputation for you I destroyed myself for you I never did any wrong and in two weeks I was a memory? you were everything to me my diamond my star my heart no wrong I did no word you said no matter what no harm ever came to you so when your new friend hurts you and you come crawling back to me I tell you I forgive you but you will never be able to call me your friend ever again I hope it was worth it

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Dec 30, 2019

Dec 30, 2019 at 6:15 PM UTC

your new friend

how could I be that easy for you to replace? I destroyed my reputation for you I destroyed myself for you I never did any wrong and in two weeks I was a memory? you were everything to me my diamond my star my heart no wrong I did no word you said no matter what no harm ever came to you so when your new friend hurts you and you come crawling back to me I tell you I forgive you but you will never be able to call me your friend ever again I hope it was worth it

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do the words I write effect anyone? is my staring at my screen worth it? would it matter if I was gone? would I be intellectually unfit? do you feel my words are relatable? is my effort nothing? is my content debatable? do you think I'm fussing? am I annoying? or am I wrong? am I writing poems enjoying? is my complaint tedious and long? do my words ever become your song? was I wrong all along? is this where I belong? because the people here make me strong.

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Dec 30, 2019

Dec 30, 2019 at 5:33 PM UTC

useless

do the words I write effect anyone? is my staring at my screen worth it? would it matter if I was gone? would I be intellectually unfit? do you feel my words are relatable? is my effort nothing? is my content debatable? do you think I'm fussing? am I annoying? or am I wrong? am I writing poems enjoying? is my complaint tedious and long? do my words ever become your song? was I wrong all along? is this where I belong? because the people here make me strong.

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A few years ago you were written all over me you could read me I was your book you wrote your own stories and I repeated them when I left when you shut me out I will never forget that time a few years ago it was the holidays we hung out you wrote a story that day a story I wish I could someday tell maybe one day it'll be framed shown to the world but even when I did the only person who would understand would be you the book is closed and I know ill never be the same as I was a few years ago

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Dec 30, 2019

Dec 30, 2019 at 5:32 PM UTC

a few years ago

A few years ago you were written all over me you could read me I was your book you wrote your own stories and I repeated them when I left when you shut me out I will never forget that time a few years ago it was the holidays we hung out you wrote a story that day a story I wish I could someday tell maybe one day it'll be framed shown to the world but even when I did the only person who would understand would be you the book is closed and I know ill never be the same as I was a few years ago

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stay with me this morning today ill tell you that the silent snakes slither silently you said its may this time of year they wont slither slightly stay with me at lunch we found your favourite flowers tulips, i tied them in a bunch im sorry about your hair tie stay with me this afternoon and i didn't know what it meant when you said its mid phase of the moon but you love astronomy stay with me tonight I always take pictures of you in the sunset stay with me until its light let me take pictures of you in the sunrise and I wish I could tell you now I wish I could try I don't know how but I do know why you could be everything to me

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Dec 30, 2019

Dec 30, 2019 at 3:45 PM UTC

stay

stay with me this morning today ill tell you that the silent snakes slither silently you said its may this time of year they wont slither slightly stay with me at lunch we found your favourite flowers tulips, i tied them in a bunch im sorry about your hair tie stay with me this afternoon and i didn't know what it meant when you said its mid phase of the moon but you love astronomy stay with me tonight I always take pictures of you in the sunset stay with me until its light let me take pictures of you in the sunrise and I wish I could tell you now I wish I could try I don't know how but I do know why you could be everything to me

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are you okay? have you been able to sleep? every night I stare at my phone as it all becomes about you every day I continue on just as I did before you always thought you controlled me you never believed me when I told you I stood my own ground but ill always wish ever night I could look you in the eyes and ask you are you okay? have you been able to sleep?

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Dec 30, 2019

Dec 30, 2019 at 9:48 AM UTC

are you okay?

are you okay? have you been able to sleep? every night I stare at my phone as it all becomes about you every day I continue on just as I did before you always thought you controlled me you never believed me when I told you I stood my own ground but ill always wish ever night I could look you in the eyes and ask you are you okay? have you been able to sleep?

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you make me I printed the photo of you dancing in the sunset you played the piano I played the guitar you were in tears when I first sang for you I started singing you asked me to walk you home I was going to anyway you complained about the December cold I then kissed you under the mistletoe you pressed your head against mine I whispered I love you you told me I was your everything I told you we had dated for 4 years now you said I hope its forever I stepped back you had that glimmer in your eye I knelt down on one knee you were already on one knee I had a ring you had a ring I asked you to be with me forever you kissed me I married you on the 18th you gave birth to our child on the 14th I will never be without you you are my world I will never forget the day that I and you became us.

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Dec 29, 2019

Dec 29, 2019 at 6:09 PM UTC

my love

you make me I printed the photo of you dancing in the sunset you played the piano I played the guitar you were in tears when I first sang for you I started singing you asked me to walk you home I was going to anyway you complained about the December cold I then kissed you under the mistletoe you pressed your head against mine I whispered I love you you told me I was your everything I told you we had dated for 4 years now you said I hope its forever I stepped back you had that glimmer in your eye I knelt down on one knee you were already on one knee I had a ring you had a ring I asked you to be with me forever you kissed me I married you on the 18th you gave birth to our child on the 14th I will never be without you you are my world I will never forget the day that I and you became us.

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laugh at me laugh until your lungs burst I will turn my back look at that your judgment broke me I built me I will turn my back because now I am the one laughing

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Dec 29, 2019

Dec 29, 2019 at 5:50 PM UTC

ha

laugh at me laugh until your lungs burst I will turn my back look at that your judgment broke me I built me I will turn my back because now I am the one laughing

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if the roles were reversed if the shoe was on the other foot would you have let me hurt you the way you did? would it be emotionless would the pain be non existent would everything be the same would it just be without me would you hug yourself? would you scream at the pain I caused you? would you be too hurt, to even see my name? would you lose yourself in a mess you couldn't control? would you hope that the pain wouldn't stay? would you hope maybe you could be okay again? would you hope you could look me in the eye? would you hope to be able to trust,like you once did? would you hope one day you could trust again? would you hope one day you were able to feel again? would you hope one day you would love the way I loved you? no. you wouldn't smile the way you did when you met me you wouldnt feel how you did when I numbed all the pain.

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Dec 29, 2019

Dec 29, 2019 at 5:34 PM UTC

would you?

if the roles were reversed if the shoe was on the other foot would you have let me hurt you the way you did? would it be emotionless would the pain be non existent would everything be the same would it just be without me would you hug yourself? would you scream at the pain I caused you? would you be too hurt, to even see my name? would you lose yourself in a mess you couldn't control? would you hope that the pain wouldn't stay? would you hope maybe you could be okay again? would you hope you could look me in the eye? would you hope to be able to trust,like you once did? would you hope one day you could trust again? would you hope one day you were able to feel again? would you hope one day you would love the way I loved you? no. you wouldn't smile the way you did when you met me you wouldnt feel how you did when I numbed all the pain.

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white lie innocence stop using up your trust summon up your vigilance you spent your time in belief belief that they were trustworthy belief they were honest belief in them a white lie appears much different to what it is it is a threat a warning disregard innocence summon up your vigilance because a lie its only purpose is the time it can buy trust your mind leave that person behind. don't trust their dishonesty as it becomes a monstrosity trust yourself.

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Dec 29, 2019

Dec 29, 2019 at 5:09 PM UTC

white lie

white lie innocence stop using up your trust summon up your vigilance you spent your time in belief belief that they were trustworthy belief they were honest belief in them a white lie appears much different to what it is it is a threat a warning disregard innocence summon up your vigilance because a lie its only purpose is the time it can buy trust your mind leave that person behind. don't trust their dishonesty as it becomes a monstrosity trust yourself.

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