starving in depression
hungry for the mania
all these shrieks and screams
sinking in schizophrenia
nah it's just voices in my head
It's just teen age angst instead
sitting in the middle of cold showers
************ to feel fed
up with these times
every single thing I do is like a small crime
It's like a record but for lonely people
in a secret app post secrets in secret places to secret people
anonymous it might be but only *** I see
it's only *** and ******* these days
and videos of suicide in freaky ways
There might be salvation
to this starvation
of *** and money, alcohol and ****
Dairy queen and Acid mothers
who bothers?
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 10:27 AM UTC
rotting
corpses all around me
cleansed of all that is
good and evil
judgement
no longer exists
we're alone to walk this earth
with nothing but fists
held high
a desperate cry for justice
solstice
turn around the page
for a blank new start
this is the time
the world is ours
to change
the future is strange
but holds great secrets
a pandora box
this is it
this is
the new order
Mar 12, 2015
Mar 12, 2015 at 8:54 PM UTC
get a job
get a wife
get a purpose in life
I keep searching the maze in my mind
morality, sanity
be kind,
rewind
to the days when I had no one
and I made it all by myself
but now it feels all empty again
studying, working,
drinking, smoking
mingling
and what is it worth for?
only the future holds the truth
unveil it like a dress
and see
everything's a mess.
Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 6:29 AM UTC
the clouds
they hover
over me
i wonder
if my doings will stay
forever
deep blue
crystal clear
i can't keep on
living in fear
all I have are cigarette burns
scars on my arms
and broken bones
I am sorry
but I have nothing left
to give to you
go on and be
who you are supposed to
because I'll stay
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 12:23 PM UTC
זה מוקדש לכל הנוער האבוד שאוהב להתמרמר
Accept the love you're given
Because it's the only love you'll ever have
Depression is no longer aggression
It becomes routine and order
new world disorder
I know how it feels
See the scars I bear
Listen to the struggles I'll share
I've been there
and will always be
so lift your head up
and listen to me
It's time to learn from mistakes
even when the whole world's at stake
forever life changing decisions
to make
It's okay
just embrace the love
warm in your heart
put your hands up high
and scream
in victory
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 10:17 AM UTC
Self emotional abuse
It's I against I and it is I who will lose
in this game there are no rules
Just loss and confusion, a game of fools
As my shields break
I break down on my knees
nervous breakdown that is
no mercy no pleas
Dazed, hazed, and confused
rip my heart out and throw it to the sky
launch a rocket and make the country cry
make us free give us life
cut my life with a knife for victory I thrive
My end is my victory
my end is my loss
look down in shame
look up in pride
I don't want to die
\
\
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\\\yet
Dec 12, 2014
Dec 12, 2014 at 12:40 PM UTC
urge
urge to slit to destroy to ****
all these empty voids i need to fill
missing these emotions i used to feel
weird sensation in the dead cells
necro
nero
a fallen god of death
fall from grace
tear down your face
smear it all over the place
i bathe in it
your blood
be mine
it's your time to shine, baby
Nov 23, 2014
Nov 23, 2014 at 6:27 AM UTC
The days go by
the nights are empty
6 apples and two oranges?
equally?
give me records and maybe
I'll be happy
Materialism makes me smile
And I just want more and more
give me money give me records
give me drugs give me drums
give me girls give me knives
give me fish, everything! I want all!
yes, all!
In the end I'll just probably **** myself before I reach thirty
disatisfactions guaranteed
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 8:23 PM UTC
release me
from these barb wires
I'm just the messenger
it's not my fault you see?
I am a simple man delivering
these words carving a prophecy
scars on my flesh
screen the visions of the end of days
not just a phase
of darkness and dawn of light
oh no,
it's the extinction of all
from dust you came and to dust you'll return
in hellfire this world will burn
I'll take you all with me
the whole ******* world with me
Nov 19, 2014
Nov 19, 2014 at 6:52 PM UTC
I bear the pain and shame of this country upon me
I am the ******* son of your political fiasco
I am the ****** spawn of your corruption
I am the outcome of your broken morals, broken culture and dead end future
I carry the weight of this world's mistakes
Atlas ain't got **** on me
I'll slit his throat like I slit my wrists
Because I can't even feel anymore
My legs shaking
Heart rapidly beating
I cant breath
A chokehold of broken hopes
Barren earths
Shattered hearts
World of fears
Fountain of tears
And I drink from it with my bruised hands as if the water is a potion of life and youth, feeling it run down my throat with pleasure... and I vomit blood and contaminate the water forever, for all the people around me are inferior, and the supreme have already gone to higher spiritual spaces. I am here to stay, to take the beating, to hug the suffering and to embrace death as my companion, my long lost friend.
Sep 12, 2014
Sep 12, 2014 at 6:00 AM UTC