It's here..
What's here,
Minimalist view is what's here,
Why,
why go this route,
To find that happiness inside myself,
without everything else.
I change today,
I say my vowels today,
From this day forth,
I will only use what I NEED,
Because consumerism is at fault.
Before I switched,
I was messy,
I was cluttered,
I was not efficient,
I was a victim of consumerism.
However today marks a new era,
For myself,
For the better,
so without further a do ,
I hereby convert to the minimalist way.
-Paul R Hensley |||
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 9:15 PM UTC
I hate how i'm living,
I can't get up to do anything with my life,
I'm pushing myself into a void of sadness
I won't make it out so don't try to save me
cause you missed your chance.
I can't keep going
with the bad intentions my soul holds
I tried so hard to not break
instead I just broke everything
I'm sorry baby
i'm a hard person to love
I am a hard person to love because i live in the saddened depths of my my mind
for that's where I find my inspiration to the imperfection of life ,
Feb 20, 2019
Feb 20, 2019 at 11:29 PM UTC
I'm closed in ,
Like a caged beast.
I am a prisoner of my own mind ,
can't escape something that is me.
my life is so upside down ,
The stress is really getting under my skin..
I'm fed up with myself ,
fed up with the laziness,
fed up with no motivation for change.
Just this past week I have been feeling overwhelmed with reality,
I don't think i am going to make it.
However my wife tells me that I will,
She tries to make me happy...
When I tell her i'm not she cries inside,
She thinks that she should always make me happy...
What she don't get is I am sad at myself not her .
How am I supposed to support her life when i cant even get min started,
I don't know what to do...
Just wish i could be better,
I just don't have the motivation.....
-Paul R Hensley |||
Feb 20, 2019
Feb 20, 2019 at 10:06 PM UTC
covered in blood
cover in blood
all i see is blood
all you gonna see is blood
They might run,
they wont hide,
I am going to slaughter
they all fall below me
build me up
suspense intensifies
door open
here i am
knife
in
hand
blood coated shirt
aw the joy of ending breath '
i will send the earth
to a dark decent
Tell god
Tell god
They wont make it
Nov 22, 2018
Nov 22, 2018 at 5:35 PM UTC
Surrounded by everyone,
Surrounded by everyone,
Yet feels so alone ,
No one understands,
understands of what I am going through,
I wake up with miserable thoughts,
I toss and turn;
Can't fall asleep anymore
I hate this feeling you are putting me through,
How do I heal myself,
Please I am begging them
How will I heal
When there's no motivation to try anymore
ugh...
Sep 16, 2018
Sep 16, 2018 at 6:39 PM UTC
Stuck in reverse tonight,
Can't stop my feeling of guilt,
I know you right here beside me TJ,
I'm sorry it's my fault,
I just chilled in the trench,
I sent you out,
Didn't think you wouldn't make it back,
Man what a life I lived,
No one will understand,
Of all the sin I have created,
I keep it all under lock and key,
However tonight i might spill it all
If I do then noting changes,
If i do ill just go back to hell
but if I don't,
Then you might just stay,
Talk about friends for life...
Aug 14, 2018
Aug 14, 2018 at 11:38 PM UTC
Lights off,
Laying in my cell ,
Mind swirling around you,
How did I get back to this,
Plagued by my past,
Can't move forward,
Cause I can't get out this cell,
If i do i just come back for longer,
The past keeps me cold,
and guarded,
I can't help it,
Just how it be,
Babe I am sorry,
You fell for lowlife,
Babe I am sorry,
you fell in love with a lost soul ...
Aug 14, 2018
Aug 14, 2018 at 11:31 PM UTC
Here it is again,
Always coming up,
Why can't it just leave,
Sitting here ripping the keyboard,
Overwhelmed with the day,
Wanna get away,
Let's float away....
I am back..
Black twisted thoughts..
It's hitting me again..
****************************************************************************
Drifting in the realm of wicked emotion
Hurling boulders of tears on the rise,
Almost lost my two cents..
They all wanna go huh.
Fine... You'll never come back..
Maybe I should capture all of you
Take you to a field of fire and bake you alive..
I must burn you all from my memory
**** your whole pathetic families ,
That pretend they there for you ,
I must destroy all of you,
I will
I will take the appropriate action,
You will feel the wrath
I will make you suffer
I will sit and stare into your wothless eyes
Watch the life leave your body to stay in me ,
Before i leave this world
I will have your souls
All of you
Farewell
May 24, 2018
May 24, 2018 at 7:31 PM UTC
Sitting in silence,
Over my past thoughts
I am sitting here in that chair
while you lay on the bed upset,
I sit here : you leave...
Everybody has left today...
Why does it haunt me,
I guess i deserve it ...
I mean I've done the same,
...........Before........
May 24, 2018
May 24, 2018 at 7:19 PM UTC
Woah...........
.
..
...
....
.....
I made it.
Mar 21, 2018
Mar 21, 2018 at 2:10 AM UTC