if my love is an ocean i'm drowning helplessly but still breathing. your eyes shoot daggers through me and your smile sets me on fire and you are killing me, but i love dying. it amazes me that someone like you loves someone like me but we were meant to be and we will be together for an eternity and more. if i could melt you down and build you up with my words i would talk forever because you do the same to me. every time you speak to me my heart melts and i don't get butterflies in my stomach when i see you I get ******* elephants stomping through my insides because god you're walking perfection and i'm just less than nothing and i want nothing more to be by your side for the rest of forever. hugging you makes me feel so warm inside and kissing you gives me chills. if i could give you the world i wouldn't because someone like you doesn't deserve something as ****** as that, my dear, you deserve the stars. i will love you for a very long time but i'm going to start by loving you forever and then some. you aren't just my other half, you are my everything and anything and i love you more than you will ever know.
Jul 15, 2015
Jul 15, 2015 at 4:09 AM UTC
The bottle is cold.
Like the frost that covers a
windshield on a cold, crisp,
white December morning.
1
I take one sip from the bottle I so desperately
grasp to, like he grasped the gun
so hard it left bruises
on the day he ended
his own life.
2
Another sip goes down.
It tastes like water,
but burns like fire as it goes down
my throat.
The bottle chills my hands
to the point of my fingers feeling as if
they'd fall off my hands.
3
The poison goes down so harshly.
Yet, the words roll off my tongue, so smoothly,
without any thought to hold them back.
There's a throbbing in my head
but it reminds me of the way your heartbeat felt
when I had my head
on your chest.
I'll miss that.
I've forgotten how many sips I've had now,
5,6, or maybe 10?
I'm trying hard to wash away
the bitter memory of you
with a bitter poison
and the feelings
match up well.
0
The pain of the hangover
doesn't compare to the pain you left behind.
I wish I could fix both.
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 2:54 AM UTC
i often wonder
what was going
through your mind
on that june morning
when you pulled the trigger
as your blood was spilled
my heart broke
and god, do i miss you.
i miss your scent
your kisses
your warm embraces
you lived a life full of
pain and suffering
goofy smiles and giggles
broken hearts
and 3am skype calls
when we both couldnt sleep
you poured out your
secrets into my cold hands
and i hold them in my arms
to this day.
i miss you, but
i understand you were
suffering. the demons
were too strong and you
had told me they were hard
to fight off.
so, i forgive you.
but oh, how i miss you.
Sep 10, 2014
Sep 10, 2014 at 3:50 PM UTC
sometimes i wonder
if my broken smiles
fake laughter and
covered up scars
will ever fade away.
because ****** it's so hard to
keep a smile on my face when
my world is nothing but anxieties
and depressive thoughts invading
my extremely ******** mind
and i wonder.
god, i ******* wonder
when does it end?
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 9:50 PM UTC
i have racked my mind
trying to figure this whole thing out
the staying, the going
the threads we claim hold us here
& the people who've stopped to play a tune on them
i sometimes relate it
to waking up in waist deep snow
in our former selves
the us we wish we could give one another
the children we've sat on the shelves
trapped, like the looks
we leave behind in snow globes
i sometimes imagine ships
dragging the bottom to the sea of "me"
for sleep & pieces of my old self
to sell to the new one
like history doesn't repeat itself
it gets me wondering
if you too want an apology from the rain
or if you dream of burning family photo albums
and wearing the ashes like perfume
if you're anything like me
how i hope god chokes
on memories of me blowing out candles as a child
i know i shouldn't reference my reader
but don't you know, the only difference
between alone & lonely is you?
that if my hands could talk
the only thing they'd be able to say
is "dear god we've missed you"
and how can you tell me it isn't love
when even the rain refuses to fall
in places where i've kissed you
i remember the day
you found my smile at a yard sale
it reminds me of how you'll leave
i wonder if when you go
you'll tell yourself
the person in the rear view mirror
is closer than they appear
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 11:19 PM UTC
if my love is an ocean i'm drowning helplessly but still breathing. you are so amazing in every possible way, and i've never felt like this about anyone before in my life. your eyes shoot daggers through me and your smile sets me on fire and you are killing me and i love dying. it amazes me that someone like you loves someone like me but we were meant to be and we will be together for an eternity and more. if i could melt you down and build you up with my words i would talk forever because baby you do the same to me. every time you speak to me my heart melts and i don't get butterflies in my stomach when i see you I get ******* elephants stomping through my insides because god you're walking perfection and i'm just less than nothing and i want nothing more to be by your side for the rest of forever. hugging you makes me feel so warm inside and kissing you gives me chills. if i could give you the world i wouldn't because someone like you doesn't deserve something as ****** as that, boy you deserve the stars. i will love you for a very long time but i'm going to start by loving you forever and then more. you're more than my missing half you are my everything and anything and i love you more than you will ever know.
Mar 20, 2014
Mar 20, 2014 at 2:35 AM UTC
this isn't a poem
this isn't a love song
it's my thoughts and emotions
the way I feel about you
this isn't a poem
but i could write a million poems
about your dark brown eyes
and how they light up when i smile
and how your smile could **** me
and your touch sends shivers down my spine and it kills me when you aren't here
this isn't a poem or a love song or anything really, it's just my undying love for you.
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 1:16 AM UTC