The biggest mistake
Was living a life to prove
Happiness for someone else
How I wish I could turn back
The time
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 12:34 AM UTC
Have you ever felt
So afraid to leave home
Not because of the temporary comfort
But the pain of knowing
He could end his life at the
Drop of a
Pin
Being an adult is terrifying
Someone please let me out
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 12:27 AM UTC
How do you forgive someone
For taking three years of
Trust, and
Throwing it back in your
Face
Regret
How can you stay mad
At someone who once was your
Whole world, it was just one
Mistake
Right?
Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 6:20 PM UTC
My mother tells me I have no
Compassion because of all the
Nice Boys
I have broken, the ones who really cared
My father asks if I will ever find a
Man, one good enough to
Keep around, as if it is my
Standards that are impossible
But there are so many memories I'm afraid to tell
And so much weighing on the truth
I've been hiding
Last summer I felt real pain in my heart
For the first time in my short life
Because she made me feel
Normal,
And then she left
I've spent a long time hiding in shame, but
Something has got to
Give because
It is only a matter of time until
I finally break
Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 6:15 PM UTC
I wonder
Where my life would be
If you never touched my
Neck, or
If I never had to
Hear the creak
Of your apartment
Door as I watched you close it
Gently, just quiet
Enough to leave me Silent
Six years later
I wonder
Where my life would be
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 8:51 PM UTC
Little girl so loved by her number one fan
A proud father, he does what he can
A women who has a world of support
Her dad to talk to, a man in her court
Too many drinks deep, he should have learned
His wrath untamed, her world has turned
Hurtful words are just a game
But coming from him, her body shakes
Slurred speech, bloodshot eyes
Dissapointed girl, a man of lies
Once so wise and once so kind
Has nothing left to hide behind
She knows he's wrong, shouldn't drink 'till sleep
But this is her secret, an embarrassment she'll keep
A role model ruined by self destructive paths
A girl too scared to take off his mask
So she lives to believe he is the one
To look up to so blindly, staring straight into the sun
She convinces herself its okay
Until the point he drives his little girl away
Dec 10, 2017
Dec 10, 2017 at 12:12 AM UTC
I look at you like
You put the stars in the sky
When you drink its as if
You tear them all down and
Right before my eyes
You change
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 12:30 AM UTC
Scraped knees and burnt lungs
Hair pulling and touching tongues
Study hard, fail a class
Makeup on, the perfect mask
Scales and *** you have no power
One night stand, take a shower
Class at eight, get up at nine
Lie to your parents, "I'm doing fine"
Black lace bra, **** dress
Frat house party, look your best
Pills and smokes, just one more
Boy comes over, shut the door
Greedy hands and spoken words
Words he says he never heard
Sink running, your eyes are too
Look in the mirror, someone new
Black circles, white washed skin
"How the hell did I get so thin"
Another pill, another chapter
The college life everyone's after
Nov 18, 2015
Nov 18, 2015 at 7:36 PM UTC
We talk as if
Your hands have more wrinkles
And your eyes have seen
The world
As if
I don't deserve your
Time or effort because
You don't want to be seen with
An embarrassment like me, because
I haven't "lived"
But please don't forget
You once looked at me with
Eyes that didn't need
To see the world,
And once, your inexperienced
Hands were used for learning the curves
Of my body rather than illustrating
The journeys that have made you so
Cultured and wise
Darling, I'm so sorry, but
You've got it all wrong
As if you know what
It really means to
Live
Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 10:38 AM UTC