the poetry i’ve washed
cleaned
prepped with my own limbs
has been formed
molded
shaped for the heaviness in my heart
the aching in my bones
the
the static in my head
to find another home
it makes me yearn
for more
the poetry i’ve washed
cleaned
prepped with my own limbs
is grieving
mourning for the death of the poet’s own guide
to the words
lines
scrapes of scattered thoughts
in this f-cking grave
Nov 23, 2024
Nov 23, 2024 at 2:15 AM UTC
drifting thoughts never wandered to you
comfort was never brought
but i learned how to survive without your f*-king apology
f*-cking gaslighter
f*-king manipulator
a killer of minds
the cycle continues
at my own hands
Jul 23, 2023
Jul 23, 2023 at 11:08 PM UTC
sacrificing values and views
the uncomfortable space left behind
tight air leaving weak lungs
folding limbs like paper
eyes that saw too much
frozen as the witness
anything to quiet the noise
anything to cover the bruises
and the trauma begins again
Jul 23, 2023
Jul 23, 2023 at 10:19 PM UTC
i've been told i have been silent recently
but maybe they just don't hear me
am i whispering?
i feel like im screaming from the depths of my soul
so why can't they hear me?
if your eyes wander long enough
you'll see the pain
if you're listening
you'll hear the long-held breath i let out
when i finally get the release
of detaching
and realising
what helps
me
Jun 24, 2022
Jun 24, 2022 at 10:15 PM UTC
your problems have become mine
the beautiful thoughts that cross through your beautiful mind
the thoughts that cross through my terrifying mind
are you using me?
am i making a mistake?
will you let me be free?
is all of this fake?
i don't know
idon'tknow
idontknow
let me think
Aug 30, 2019
Aug 30, 2019 at 8:04 PM UTC
i've been keeping low
been off the grid for awhile now
the kindest eyes i have ever seen inspired me
to be the next kind eyes someone sees
don't hurt me please
being kind leaves you vulnerable
to the hate i get
you can surely see how good i am
tears keep falling
why must you tell me you think i should be *****
killed
and dumped and left for no one to see
i deserve to be seen
please don't believe me when i say i'm okay
do not disturb is on i'm begging you
don't message me or i'm going to break
the ice is thin
i'm falling in
Aug 26, 2019
Aug 26, 2019 at 12:26 AM UTC
the devil on my shoulder
he tells me to be selfish
get what i want
but that's stealing
devil, i cannot steal such a valuable treasure
it doesn't belong to me
the angel in my heart says be the one for others
be the one he wants and desires
your life will be misery
at the expense of him
be the girl he wants, don't be selfish
for being selfish is a sin
be there when he needs someone, but don't burden him with your thoughts
he deserves better than to deal with you
but he chose to
angel, so did the one who has my heart
he chose me
girl, you were put here to be the therapist
not the client
don't get it mistaken
Aug 24, 2019
Aug 24, 2019 at 7:28 PM UTC