I can't even get out of bed
all these unnatural thoughts in my head
they're all dragging me down by a single thread
"oh no" they said, "you're over exaggerating"
then why does everything feel so aggravating?
I can't elaborate on how I feel
oh man, what's the big deal
I'm falling apart...
but I guess good things fall apart in order to create new starts
Jul 31, 2015
Jul 31, 2015 at 2:30 PM UTC
All my life I have been living on my own
Living well and yes having a few problems
I have always lived, knowing who God was
But never making him part of my life
As I have grown older
I have finally decided to start hanging out with him
He guides in a way that I have never expected
It is so cool, he is nothing like people portray him to be
He actually a really cool dude and we talk often
He differently knows how to have a good time
Some people want to meet my new friend, some don't
He tell's me Dave no big deal, I still got their back
He is such a good and loving man and ask nothing from me
Except to show real love and to help others
He has guided me in a way that you cannot believe
I still do a lot of the not so good things that I do
and he always forgives me
He is now my best friend and he has surrounded me with so many good people and has opened up many doors for me
Doors to success, wealth and gave me meaning
Apr 25, 2015
Apr 25, 2015 at 10:00 AM UTC
Untie the knot in my throat
So that I can try to speak
Let the air flow to my lungs
So that I can remember to breathe
If I look away in disgust
It’s from the tears that want to run
Don’t mind my smile
It’s the only wall I have
Apr 25, 2015
Apr 25, 2015 at 9:55 AM UTC
don't you dare tell me I'm special and make me feel good in my own skin if you're just going to take that away from me when you leave
don't you dare tell me I'm beautiful then forget how to see
don't you dare tell me what I mean to you if you're going to act like it was all nothing
don't you dare tell me how you feel about me as if it was all a dream
don't you dare tell me that you don't want to lose me then go on and take everything
don't you dare tell me that you didn't feel a thing
-that I meant nothing to you
-that leaving me was as easy as it was to hold me
don't you dare......leave
Apr 25, 2015
Apr 25, 2015 at 12:34 AM UTC
our deal was that we'd wait a minute
see what we could make of it
my hair was in my eyes
and your ears were shut tight
we listened to what we felt
not knowing what would be dealt
I slowly let myself go
continually saying that I was, you know, "going with the flow"
it started with the single excuse of wanting to ask questions
but we both knew your intentions
you let me go
pretending I'd have no woe
so then I opened up tightly
and let you in politely
but you refused
and so you took your things and left me singing the blues
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 5:10 AM UTC
If happiness is key
Then what of the door?
A room with no exit
Just walls and a floor
*It unlocks many things
Let life give you wings*
If life is a blessing
Then why do I hurt?
A life not worth living
It’s but an insult
*Cherish all that you feel
With time all will heal*
*You question your own life
Ignore the given
Play the fool and the child
Even the deaf listen*
If time is a constant
Then why’d nights stand still?
Air hangs without motion
Breathe breaths that don’t fill
*You’ll find peace in the dark
Listen to your heart*
If hearts do have rhythm
Then why’s there no beat?
With eyes frozen open
I am dead asleep
*You questioned your own life
Ignored the given
Played the fool and the child
Even the deaf listen*
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 4:34 AM UTC
so breathless
so mistaken, I tell you
you left me breathless
what a mistake, you
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 4:33 AM UTC