I can feel the memories being pulled away
stolen in broad daylight
dragged from my consciousness
and
shoved into the compartment labeled neatly with your name
your voice stumbles its way through long hallways and down seemingly incessant stairwells
until it reaches a room with security so adept that not so much as a whisper goes unnoticed
your touch floats from neuron to neuron
getting lost in my space
until it is drawn into an empty corner
where it will stay tucked away out of my reach
I am losing you
piece by piece and moment by moment
exactly the way I knew I would
I am losing you, being robbed of my remembrances
but don't you dare, not even for a second, think that I ever let you go
Jul 14, 2021
Jul 14, 2021 at 3:27 PM UTC
some days I think that if I told you
how much **** you've put me through
it'd **** you
it'd knaw away at whatever is left of your soul
other days I think you'd be proud
your ego would grow that much bigger
knowing that you've left me here speechless
empty and hurt with stars in my eyes
Mar 18, 2021
Mar 18, 2021 at 8:05 PM UTC
you hide under an umbrella made of steel
wincing at the sound of the rain as it hits the pavement
the same sound that I love so well
the soft pitter patter that mimics my beating heart
you cower away from the water, while I dive headfirst into the downpour
I just want you to come dance in the rain with me, that's all
set your steel umbrella aside and play with me for a bit
you and I under the bleeding sky
could it really be so bad?
Mar 18, 2021
Mar 18, 2021 at 8:02 PM UTC
how you can look at me that way and in the same breath say you feel nothing
Mar 18, 2021
Mar 18, 2021 at 7:57 PM UTC
i want to rip off my own skin
piece by piece
and stitch it back together
so that it matches hers
i want to carve my cries
into each and every bone
filing away at myself
until I fit her frame
i want to cut and cut and cut
slashing down to my core
until there is only enough fat
to mold myself into her shape
i want to scrape off my
STUPID
*******
FACE
erasing every feature
until my very essence has disappeared
and i
LOOK
LIKE
HER
her
the ever changing image of beauty
the elusive illusion of perfection
the woman we all strive to be
the woman
the image
the ideal
the ideal that not even she herself can attain
Nov 25, 2020
Nov 25, 2020 at 2:27 AM UTC
afraid
afraid of what she could do
afraid of who she could be
shutting off and powering down
only to see what she closed her eyes to avoid
Nov 20, 2020
Nov 20, 2020 at 6:59 AM UTC
how funny, your blue eyes
they hold so much power and conviction
they entice and they beckon
but how funny, your blue eyes
they make a mockery of themselves
for there is nothing behind your sapphire disguise
besides a man far more blue than his funny blue eyes
Jul 11, 2020
Jul 11, 2020 at 9:15 PM UTC
play me like a violin
lure my music out
the music you’ve so carefully hidden in my core
touch me gingerly
summon what you once put deep within
so many eons ago
free me from this trap
this tangled web of broken strings
that suffocates even my strongest breaths
Jul 11, 2020
Jul 11, 2020 at 9:04 PM UTC