From deep within;
Emptiness.
As if you're trying substantially to chase a ghost;
Aimless.
You look around and there is no one, nothing
Simply yourself and some nonsense..
then
I ask myself, is it me? Am I the problem?
subsequently..
I take a look at my heart;
I wouldn't find pureness but lucidity and daintiness
However..
Im still on my own
Fighting the feeling of loneliness everyday
The day ends, I go to bed
Cry myself to sleep.. But I wake up hoping that my day would be different
no, it just ends horribly.. like every other day.
Giving up.. It hurts to give up though
Specially giving up on him
As if you're yanking, stripping out, extracting
a piece of your own heart and mind.
..
Holding way too many feelings
Nodding to people and heads
When I wish to have a simple happy life
With my loved ones,
Instead they misunderstand me,
hurt me,
blame me,
disrespect me,
enough..
..
I can't explain my love to him,
infinite emotions of love,
flowing thoroughly within every inch of my heart
..
Jul 30, 2014
Jul 30, 2014 at 11:58 AM UTC
Speechless
Trying to let something out, maybe burst out
Probably shout out
Possibly break out
..
But no, not even close to talk it out
Ravaging inside me
Like a vulture ripping the **** out of its prey
..
Scared of flaming it out
What if it went wrong?
Since it always goes wrong..
Attempting so hard to gather my thoughts together
But they're like drizzles sprayed into the air
..
Returned to being insecure, on the inside
On the outside, seeking a queen, precious.
Excessively a judgmental world
Harsh claws, digging into prohibited areas
..
Not good, not good enough
I'll never be good enough
Not only to everyone, but especially to him.
Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 6:04 PM UTC
Pieces thrown everywhere
Pieces of my heart, torn apart to the air
Silence
Nothing but silence after the offensive blair
I cant take anymore of this repulsive snare
My soul went down to my knees feeling weak and unaware
My mind started repeating the undeniably cruel questionnaire
After spending the day and night
Writing all these things about his love that are so unfair
Realizing how unworthy of a person you were
I wont let you come and just glare
It became a strong game
With scare and despair
..
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 4:19 PM UTC