most people see me as
a happy person because
i laugh easily,
i smile a lot,
i joke a lot.
but deep down
in my heart,
i am fragile,
i can get hurt easily,
but i choose to not
show it to the world.
instead of being sad,
i choose to laugh to cover it.
maybe you can call me
"the queen of the mask"
by this,
you can tell
that most of the time
when I'm laughing,
I'm not really laughing,
i was trying so hard to hide
my sadness.
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 12:31 PM UTC
We were easy soulmates
Content with comfortable silence
Two parts of a whole
Always on the same wavelength
Now we’re on different planets
Speaking different languages
And it’s hard to say for sure but
I think I lost a piece of myself when I lost you
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 12:25 PM UTC
#*
It's 3:11
And still wishing
That I knew
What I had to do
To belong with you
*#
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 12:25 PM UTC
Sigh.
I started the day off.
It gets mundane to be going through the same type of conversations everyday.
I've never been questioned about my social life before. Why is it hard to believe that someone loves the silence, the emptiness, the loneliness?
It's not an excuse I make to cover up for accused lack of social skills. I have good social skills. I talk. I listen. I entertain. But it doesn't mean I enjoy socialising. It's just
like a theatre act. Put on a mask, act out someone you're not, and get applauded. You do not carry this mask or the audience back home.
I've heard of a saying, 'silence is an answer'
But to me, sigh-lent is an emotion.
May 7, 2019
May 7, 2019 at 12:23 PM UTC
It's always you against the world but it's
Okay to remain silent
To sail through your endless thoughts
Be in your world,
Alone wandering like a traveller of the night
It's okay to be alone.
Jan 21, 2019
Jan 21, 2019 at 10:57 AM UTC
you sit in a cafe
you wait for the coffee you had ordered 30 minutes ago
you then notice a group of men in expensive suit walk in
your eyes follows their every move
they find for the large table to sit
they take out papers from their suitcases
suddenly one man stands up and shouts at the owner
'give me my rent or i'll blow this place up'
the owner runs to the back of the cafe
you hear sobs
you hear screaming
you hear rummaging of glasses
suddenly you hear nothing
it all stopped
the man went to check at the back
he stomped out angrily
'she's dead', he said.
'next cafe then', they said.
Dec 10, 2018
Dec 10, 2018 at 8:32 AM UTC
You scare me, of how you have become a part of my life
You scare me, of how much I must depend on you
You scare me, of how you can hurt me
You scare me, of how much you can love me
You scare me, of how much I love you
Feb 15, 2018
Feb 15, 2018 at 8:37 AM UTC
I feel nothing but heartache
I taste nothing but my tears
I hear nothing but my sobs
l smell nothing but the rain
I see nothing but you in my mind
Feb 15, 2018
Feb 15, 2018 at 8:35 AM UTC
to the woman so heartless;
you sit on the bench at the train station,
watching people walking pass you.
you see a toddler running around without his mother beside.
you then notice a woman looking all over frantically.
the toddler runs into the middle platform , into the crowd.
you ignore and wait for a random man dressed in an expensive looking suit.
you spotted a man carrying a suitcase.
you start walking with a stick, like a blind man.
you use the stick, hit the man on his knee.
he drops his suitcase. you take the suitcase and run away.
you bring it into the toilet and opened it.
in it, you find papers.
papers of his will.
he has a week left to live.
Feb 14, 2018
Feb 14, 2018 at 10:13 AM UTC
i forgot how to breath
when you came into my life
feel like 10 feet high
how could this be
i didnt need anyone
and then you came
and then you said hello
who would ever thought that you change me forever
i dont need anyone
but only you
how did this happen
when you said those words
that made me feel like im enough
let this end be with you
let this feel like we're here forever
let us feel each other, in a world of no one ever
Nov 17, 2017
Nov 17, 2017 at 9:21 AM UTC