A boy holding a blade to his wrist
Pondering on whether he should lacerate his skin..........
who wants me here?
who cares about me?
who accepts me for who i am?
Nobody
so why sit around to pretend i'm ecstatic about life
when i am being contused?
Contused about having rainbows in my brain
getting beat by my dad
he says hes going to beat me until all i know is straight
straight mind
until i stand straight
until i am straight
i thought he loved me
i thought he accepted me for who i am
i have been abandoned by the ones i thought was friends
unaccepted by churches
treated differently by teachers
i have been referred to as "it" numerous of times
at times i feel unusual , like i'm not human....
Society dosen't care
Friends
Family
Teachers
they don't care
When i am lying on the floor
blood leaking from my cut s
my body has discontinued the flow of oxygen and blood
when i am cadaverous , deceased, vanished
that's when people will start felling attritional
that's when people will understand
But its to late for that.
i am dead
because you couldn't open your eyes and realize what i was going through
I wanted to know you understood me before my life was non-extant
Nov 26, 2013
Nov 26, 2013 at 7:24 PM UTC
The bright full moon
lighting up their path at night
No stars are nearby
Just the moon and them
He doesn't notice the moon or the sky
All he sees is her blue eyes , red lips, and pale skin...
Her Lips
Her lips that he is yearning to feel against his
He can see directly through her alluring eyes
but he sees the bad not the good
*The bad...The past *
The past when she was drowning
Drowning in an ocean of hammers and blood
Those hammers were used to bring her down
*And it did
All she wants is somebody to trust
and he wants to be that person...
Her eyes matches her feeling ...
Blue
He tells her its alright
She looks him in his eyes
and says "i love you
Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 8:49 PM UTC
im still trying to figure out if you love me or not
you tell me you do
but is it true?
Do you think about me the way i do every second on the day?
i cant even focus in school
my grades are low because of you
and i cant help it
i just want to burst into tears for many reasons
1. knowing that you live so far away
2. that were still young
3. i think i shouldn't love you
and 4. of course do you love me?
you call me bby
but am i really that to you
or are you just playing with my emotions ?
I honestly cant even explain how i feel
not even in this poem
Oct 19, 2013
Oct 19, 2013 at 8:20 PM UTC
He bruised her
Leaving her on the tip of the mountain
To fall
He left her to die
He forgot about her
He didn't love her face nor her smile
He used her
Abused her
Manipulated her
He nearly killed her
But she won’t leave
She loves the fake morning kiss
The feel of his 6 pack
The feel of his chest
When her head is laying on it………..
“Get off of me “ he said
She got up and ran leaving behind a trail…
A river
A river of the same tears that she cried to many times
The tears are gone now
It’s none left
He used all the tears that she ever had….
She said that’s enough
You’ll regret everything you ever did….
“Remember, what goes around comes around” she said
“Shut up” he said
You took my heart
and I’ll take yours
You took my mind
I’ll make you lose yours
You took my life
And I will take yours
Now look at your blood dripping from your scar that’s similar to mines
Your blood leaving a path to wear your heart is
After I follow my path of blood to find my heart
I’ll think about letting you have yours back
This isn't even 1 cm of how I felt
I’m not done yet
~nlj
Oct 9, 2013
Oct 9, 2013 at 6:13 AM UTC
Sitting here as the tears haste down my cheeks on to the wooden floor
the frigid floor froze my tear
watching the tear drop reminded me of your hair
when it drops down to your back when you take your ponytail out
your long unending alluring hair.
I wonder what it feels like if my fingers are combing through it
I ponder on what it will look like when i see you
if i ever do.
The tears
still dripping down my face
When will they stop?
when i see your seductive smile
when i see your seducing face in person
just my eyes and yours .
This moment will come
One day, i know it will...
Looking at your pictures i say how beautiful you are to myself
I told Jade i think i love you
but the think went away
I do.
You tell me you love me
I say it back.
I don't tell people i love them if I really don't
Love is a strong word
Just Like Hate.
but hate will never be towards you
your far from hate..
Our text messages.
I look over them ,
only you now why...
The meaning of your name:
a clear, brilliant glass
clear like your mind is on irrelevant things
or the negative words that i'm sure came at you .
Brilliant Glass ?
the brilliant glass of you is your personality.
its effervescent.
Your laugh .
I love the sound of it.
I make you laugh just to hear the intonation of it.
Me still using up all my tears.
Oh wait there endless
so i can continue to cry everyday right?
Its nothing else i can really say but i really love you.
-nlj
Oct 7, 2013
Oct 7, 2013 at 12:46 AM UTC