I let them tear at my insides
Rip me open and take what they want
I’m lying helpless. Spread open. Exposed.
I wouldn’t dare look them in the eye.
One by one I feel their weight lift off me
as they get their fill and move on.
I’m left alone.
I wipe their saliva off my ribcage and hug my insides together.
I start to feel my heart beating again.
I can feel it echo throughout
my hollowed chest
I lift myself up and start to walk.
I can see more scavengers in the distance
I close my eyes, wincing from the pain.
And continue to walk toward them.
Jan 27, 2020
Jan 27, 2020 at 3:39 AM UTC
My eyes drift up to the rotating colors moving as fast as my heartbeat across the ceiling.
I close my eyes and feel your hands gripping my thighs, pulling
me in, closing all distance between us.
All the blood in my body rushes down between my legs. I bite my
lip in anticipation, letting my body sink into the sensation of
feeling your warmth next to me.
I take one last look at the kaleidoscope ceiling, bring my lips to yours and finally give in.
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 7:16 PM UTC
How do you feed longing
to where it's always satisfied and kept at bay
by the shores of your soul
I feel waves of all consuming loneliness
knocking me on my knees
begging for someone to lift me up
and hold my heavy heart above water
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 1:31 AM UTC
If I flip a coin and it lands on tails,
I'll tell you why I did it.
tails, I'll tell you why I felt like I wasn't enough anymore.
tails, I'll tell you how afraid I was of being erased
tails, I'll tell you how much I wanted it to be you
and if it were to land on heads,
I'd stay silent
Nov 18, 2018
Nov 18, 2018 at 12:55 AM UTC
You laced me with your touch.
It lingers in my goosebumps
just waiting for the excuse to rise again
to see you rise
--
thats when I feel the most wanted
Aug 11, 2018
Aug 11, 2018 at 2:40 AM UTC
I feel hollowed out, gutted.
I can hear my heartbeat echo throughout my chest,
making it the only way I know I am still alive.
and that something is still alive in me.
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018 at 8:58 PM UTC
My flowers are wilting.
Missing sun, missing water.
They feel abandoned
My mind has become a dark room
with scratches on the wall, keeping my thoughts in isolation.
I'm waiting for the rain.
The rain of clarity,
of a new season.
Something, anything.
To let the light back in
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018 at 8:54 PM UTC
I seem to always fall into the cracks between your words.
I can’t seem to land on them.
Believe them.
I’d rather fall into a mysterious black hole
I’ve created to imagine my own version of what you say.
I drive myself crazy.
Not believing.
Not seeing.
Just ruining.
What could be.
Apr 28, 2018
Apr 28, 2018 at 1:47 AM UTC
I found darkness in you.
The familiarity of abandonment
Of pain.
I clung to it.
I clung to you as if you had all my answers
As if you could clinch my thirst of attention
Lack there of, rather
It was toxic
It would **** me
But I wanted more
You remind me of my father
Apr 25, 2018
Apr 25, 2018 at 3:10 AM UTC
You make my heart feel like shattered glass
And everytime I try to fix it, it cuts my fingers
Keeping me wounded
Because who am I, if I’m not wounded.
You don’t heal me
But you thrill me to no end.
Your pain makes me feel wanted
And challenged
And I just can’t help it.
Pain is all I’ve ever known.
I don’t love you.
I love the pain you give me
Because it makes me feel
And I am nothing if I can’t feel
Apr 25, 2018
Apr 25, 2018 at 2:59 AM UTC