Being told to make up my mind
Isn't the move
I don't know what's mine
I'm sure I'll learn soon
But who's to say
That this is how it needs to be
Things change everyday
I hope you can see
Although people don't notice
How I've been
I thought my tendencies were showing
Hanging out with my sins
But who's to say
What do I know
I'm told I'm insane
I'm just losing hope
In people, the world, myself
What's happened here
How far we fell
Yet we focus on our careers
Priorities have shifted a bit
Family should be first
And make sure you don't feel like ****
Just the basics for sure
I was told things would get better
As you get older
But I'm so worn and weathered
And I swear everyone's gotten colder
But who's to say
What do I know
I'm told I'm insane
I'm just losing hope
In people, the world, myself
What's happened here
How far we fell
Yet we focus on our careers
Feb 12, 2024
Feb 12, 2024 at 10:45 PM UTC
I can't think of a reason
That I'm still here
Maybe waiting for the season
Or maybe there's too much fear
Lets just sit here while
The world passes us by
Not usually my style
But better this than to die
I just feel empty
Inside and out
Just some can't see
Guess I'll just wander about
Just drifting off into a void
Looking for a way
Just a way to avoid
Every ******* body
Lets just sit here while
The world passes us by
Not usually my style
But better this than to die
Can't anyone see that I am dying
What more does it take?
It's not like I'm lying
But what are the stakes
Pour another and another
Until I can't remember
Why most don't bother
Probably should have had a mentor
Lets just sit here while
The world passes us by
Not usually my style
But better this than to die
Sep 13, 2019
Sep 13, 2019 at 7:57 PM UTC
The smoke has cleared
It’s worse than I feared
I don’t like what I see
If not smoke then line the drinks
Couldn’t tell you the last time
I remember everything clearly
Just being stuck in this downward line
The thought of sobriety scares me
I don’t like what I see
In sobriety I see me
I don’t like the world
Might as well call us the psych ward
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 11:30 PM UTC
I am a moving shell
That is just going
To burn in hell
That expression is showing
I deserve to be pleasant
Because I wasn’t with you
It was like I was on a depressant
So in the end I got *******
You must be happy to not have me
In your life anymore
I was one you would never see
Which made me completely sore
I am a moving shell
That is just going
To burn in hell
That expression is showing
What truly hurt me
Was that you never cared
Which I didn’t see
And info you never shared
But you just answered
Only when it was convenient
Your actions were just like cancer
“Facing my demons”
I am a moving shell
That is just going
To burn in hell
That expression is showing
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 11:29 PM UTC
Hello death, I know
It’s been a while
Since I’ve been this low
I was just a mere child
Now having aged
Life has only gotten worse
Trying to keep me caged
I only assume I am cursed
Where has the light gone
Where did the love go
This life I am not fond
20 years later and I have nothing to show
All I wanted was to have some to care
But only very few were there
Others would just stare
Sorry but that is all I can share
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 11:26 PM UTC
I want to be normal
Like I used to be
I no longer feel formal
Which most can see
I can’t stand these
Memories that are tainted
Those feelings ceased
And I might just faint
Someday. Someday.
I’m going to be over you
Someday. Someday.
I’ll be with someone new
I think I may just end it
Because life is ****
Nothing is ever good
Everything is never understood
I could stay
But who’s waiting
For me to say
Something, that’s just irritating
Someday. Someday.
I’m going to be over you
Someday. Someday.
I’ll be with someone new
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 9:39 PM UTC
I am numb
From all of the drugs
I had to give myself
Something you couldn’t do yourself
This sense is new
Felt by very few
I feel my body becoming numb
I must have been drugged
Maybe the alcohol contributes
Or maybe the pills
Yet the pain continues
Emptiness is what I try to fill
I am numb
From all of the drugs
I had to give myself
Something you couldn’t do yourself
I want to be sober
Which will happen
When you’re the one I get over
To get away from your traps
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 9:36 PM UTC
Why am I so helpless
Like why am I like this
My life is just a ******* mess
And I’m not sure if it’s one I can fix
The thoughts have been more often
Thoughts of it all just ending
But writing is here to soften
Me and that hand I told to be lending
How can these days be so hard
I do not understand
In life I guess I didn’t play the right card
Or maybe I was just dealt a terrible hand
I have never been more depressed
Than I am now at this moment
I tried to keep it suppressed
But I have decided to own up to it
I just was wanting to open up
To those who might care
Or those who might have has enough
And maybe all they to do is share
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC
I’m just going on
Through life without you
Because we are done
What else can I do
I just would like comfort
At a time like this
They’ll just have give some effort
Friendship is what I truly miss
Who is reliable
Or even trustworthy
Most i know are deniable
I’m shown no mercy
I’m begging right now
Please help me
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 4:41 PM UTC
I can’t stop
The pain and I
Just want to be on top
But no reply
All that happens is a hug
And meaningless actions
Might as well be a shrug
I guess there was no taction
Why won’t the thought of you
Just get out of my head
Please you need to
Leave and go somewhere else instead
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 4:33 PM UTC