noah-mytho
Labelled as the guy who'll always be there, the one friend everyone can trust to tell them the truth no matter how harsh it is, and also the friend who gets overlooked the most. Too nice to get mad and too upset to be able to handle the pain. Deciding to turn towards my words to eloquently write down what's screaming inside my head. / I've been broken too many times in the past few months and i don't know why i keep trying anymore.
Lying awake waiting, waiting for something that you don’t even know, it’ll never come though.
It hurts to wait, it hurts to not know, but why does it hurt?
Is it the quiet?
Is it the darkness?
Is it being alone?
Maybe it’ll go away once I wake up, if I could fall asleep.
Maybe it’ll be just this one night and after it won’t happen again.
Maybe I’ll wake up to find that it was just a nightmare.
Maybe it wont.
Maybe it’ll stay.
Maybe it’ll come back often and I’ll succumb to the pain once more.
Maybe this’ll be the future.
Some Nights… I just hurt.
Mar 28, 2017
Mar 28, 2017 at 3:50 AM UTC
Beautiful.
Exquisite.
Gorgeous.
Pretty.
Playful.
Handsome.
Adorable.
Cute.
Fierce.
Frightening.
Wise.
Truthful.
Intelligent.
Clever.
Creative.
Unique.
Broken.
Pain.
Hatred.
Fury.
Mercy.
Warmth.
My never ending Love.
Aug 13, 2015
Aug 13, 2015 at 4:41 AM UTC
... I'm not there to listen anymore?
... my touch fades away?
... You outgrow my clothes?
... there's no one's to talk to late at night?
... I stop texting You first?
... I stop answering Yours?
... I stop posting online?
... I stop liking other's posts?
... I log off, and never log back on?
... there is no ringing of the phone?
... there is no one picking up?
... all that is left, is memories?
Will You notice when i'm gone?
Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 3:15 AM UTC
All the compliments? Every "I love you"? Every "I miss you"? Every "Please don't leave me"? Was it all a lie?
I can't understand how you moved on when I did nothing wrong. Forgetting how I was always there, always jumping to be by your side. Letting you sleep as I held you and pushed your nightmares away. Singing while you slept and you waking up saying your dreams were of me singing to you. Holding on to you through every horrible event... never giving up hope.
But you changed... you gave up on me for no reason. Losing every memory that kept us strong. Losing yourself...
So I give up... you don't want me around because I can still make you smile with one word, one look, and one tear. I can make you laugh with one joke, one laugh, one word. I can tell where you hurt without you saying or showing it. I look at your eyes and feel your pain, sorrow, angry, guilt?
Everyone has a limit, but i have never reached mine. I can withstand any pain, heart shattering pain. So deep, my soul gets cut and shatters!
Jun 17, 2015
Jun 17, 2015 at 1:35 AM UTC
Who would care?
Who would notice if i stopped messaging everyone?
Who would text my phone, message me on kik, blow up my facebook or even call?
Who would notice if i left?
What would they miss, me or my kindness?
Would they actually notice?
Would they actually care?
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 10:41 PM UTC
"I gtg"
"Brb"
"Ttyl"
"I'll message you later"
"I'll get back to you"
"I'm busy atm"
"I can't talk rn"
**** your lies.
If you're so busy then what is with those 20 posts about being alone? You wouldn't be alone if you talk to the person who you just told to go away.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 4:12 PM UTC
Rain coming down, trees being pushed around.
Cars driving by, nothing to be seen by the naked eye.
Cloud covered sky, why do you cry?
Are you upset to be covering up the lights?
Are you mourning your loses?
Or, are you celebrating your arrival, all by yourself?
Everyone is here, just waiting for you to calm.
For when you calm, they'll join you in the night.
Peeking through your transparency and sharing their lights.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 3:36 PM UTC
Smiling faces,
Empty spaces.
Explicit joking,
Anger provoking.
Juicy scoops,
Useless groups.
Hilarious memes,
Broken dreams.
Spent years,
Shed tears.
Memories destroyed,
Lost in the void
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 10:30 PM UTC
Walking in the rain...
It refreshes your mind, body and soul to the point that your barriers and walls don't exist anymore.
No one can distinguish tears streaming down your face from rain drops collecting on your cheeks.
But, it makes you remember everything you've been through,
And all the pain rushes back so that you can understand that deep down it was necessary, unknown, but in someway.
Throwing yourself to the ground.
You wish it all away.
Grip you head.
Falling...
There is no more.
Not until the smell of petrichor
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 12:35 AM UTC
15 months, a blazing fire is maintained...
2 weeks later and all of it is forgotten with one act...
2 months later, a new hope is found...
1 week later, the match is struck and a fire is kindled...
3 days later, the candle burns out...
The time for each has gotten shorter at an unexpected rate. After each all that is left is the smell of petrichor. It is the only thing that makes me feel safe anymore.
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 12:27 AM UTC