when your life settles
you’re gonna miss me and
wish you wiped my eyes
when they welled up
because of you.
i hope you handle the quiet
better than i do
Nov 6, 2021
Nov 6, 2021 at 7:28 AM UTC
im back
this time adding more colors
to my hair as i lose it from my lips.
left all my beds unmade
and my voicemail full.
this ******* house makes
my ears bleed
the watery sun cant thaw bones
stuck in their coffin
May 27, 2021
May 27, 2021 at 10:11 AM UTC
i soaked my pillow in
glitter tears and your name.
i know it’s not supposed
to be this hard to get out of bed
or live out the conscious hours
of a day.
Mar 20, 2021
Mar 20, 2021 at 9:08 AM UTC
i don't remember when
the lies became defining
but i know they were as necessary
as the cheap cigarettes.
the sky wasn't the only blue
the day you returned all my things.
i lost the plot last summer and you
(saw the Christmas lights without me).
you tell me fix myself
i told you it's only temporarily crippling,
the sadness, but i can't take another hit.
Mar 9, 2021
Mar 9, 2021 at 3:59 PM UTC
i dont remember when
i swallowed all the blue in the world
but all i know is the exhaustion
and the red on my arms
i promise everything started out with
good intentions but i cant promise
anything after that
i cant find any empty spaces in my head
or any whole pieces of my heart
Mar 1, 2021
Mar 1, 2021 at 2:52 PM UTC
i love you
but i know i'll leave you.
warming your bones have
turned mine brittle.
i was 14 when the boys with sad eyes
started picking me apart
im not far from 21 and all I wished for
last year was to shed the skins
that have touched mine
Jan 29, 2021
Jan 29, 2021 at 10:07 AM UTC
i cant afford the therapy i need
so i take another drag
of stolen cigarettes and lips
that have no business near
my sharp tongue.
last year felt like you and i
were the only 2 alive.
this year i wish i could die
on command
Jan 10, 2021
Jan 10, 2021 at 2:05 PM UTC
call me
we'll talk about the hole in my soul
and the one i left in your heart
when we were 14.
your smile makes the girls weak
and me sick, knowing who it's kissed.
i tried to be warm for you but im born in the middle of winter
Jan 1, 2021
Jan 1, 2021 at 2:56 PM UTC
how come you only need me
when nobody is around?
you had eyes like mine
until i saw the slightest hint of malice.
i used to believe in a lot of things
but i dont think we can share a street
that we once loved on.
you with your ******* problems and dimples
making me lose my appetite every other day.
were your eyes reflecting mine?
Dec 7, 2020
Dec 7, 2020 at 3:13 PM UTC
i'll dry my own eyes
for the summer
and hope that I can hold
a heart gently this time.
been trying to conceal
the internal conflict showing
under my eyes, with glitter.
I hate that you're the one
who has someone, night after night
And you still ask why I can't sleep.
think i'll sit out this weekend.
again
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 3:39 PM UTC