you make my heart flutter like the pages of a stop motion sketch pad
you make my voice stutter like a skipping cd track
th- th- that girl is my true horizon
pure perspective through the looking glass
dance stop make it fast
make it slow
make me go in in in
and out of phases like the moon
wane on wax off
stars shining and i am lost
in your constellations
in your subtle body language
i find full conversation
colorful like a diverse nation of words
and thought
bringing movement into still life paintings
you make my canvas come alive
inspire me hire me to enhance your dimensions
dynamic with multiple angles
you've got chimes in your voice
vibrating like wrist bangles
gently placed upon an angels wing
because when you speak you sing
melodies and harmonies
lullabies and symphonies
take me please to live in your music box
and ill be your ballerina dancing when you wind me up
twirling without giving up
faith in you.
you are my muse
you are the object of my poetic affection.
Jul 18, 2010
Jul 18, 2010 at 9:47 PM UTC
I wish you could see you through my eyes
I wish you could feel you through my hands
I wish you could hold you through my arms
I wish you could hear you through my ears
I wish you could remember you through my memories
I wish you could kiss you through my lips
I wish you could trace you through my finger tips
I wish you could love you through my imperfections
I wish you could want you through my desires
I wish you could need you through my missing pieces
I wish you could be you through me
Then you’d truly understand my compulsion
My yearnings my cravings my convulsions of the heart
When you’re far away
And I feel lost
Searching my soul
Gluing together parts that mostly don’t fit but hoping they’ll grow in adaptation
You’d truly understand my love for you past differences and abrasive conversions
Through opposing opinions and words better left unsaid
You’d truly understand that we are greater than the sums of our lesser parts
That we don’t have to be divided by the greatest common disagreement
Between us
You’d truly understand that of everything i've experienced
You have brought the most joy
You have caused the least pain
You have showed me the most beauty
The most compassion
You have showed me another way to love
Another way to love me
Another way to love you
You’d truly understand that you’re worth more than you think you’ve earned thus far
That you’re value is not something to be weighed or measured
It doesn’t matter what your GPA is
Or what grade you earned in math class
It isn’t defined by where you came from
It isn’t described by the color of your skin
It isn’t limited to your insecurities
Because it transcends
And rises above the bad days
The days that you feel awkward
The days that you regret
You’d truly realize that you are most beautiful when you are vulnerable
You are most beautiful when you aren’t strong
You are most beautiful when you aren't sure
You are most beautiful when you make me feel like
Cool stones in a creek, the way you wash over me
You make me feel like
A flower grown taller than the rest
You make me feel like my childhood memories
The ones I cherish and long to remember
You make me feel like a canary
Singing more passionately than the rest of the flock
You make me feel like the hands of time slowing down
To extend each moment spent with you
You make me feel like the tide
And you the moon pulling me through the days
You make me feel like who I am when no one is watching
When no one is listening
You make me feel like me.
And I wish you could read this poem through my train of thought
I wish you could realize how it doesn’t feel close to accurate enough in expressing how I feel.
I wish I could see me
Through you.
Jul 17, 2010
Jul 17, 2010 at 8:27 AM UTC
How can this be?
How can everything I've worked for be taken away from me?
How can everything I was fighting for fade so fast?
I'll never know what makes the time pass,
Maybe it's just that the hands on the clock keep moving,
No matter how much I'm loosing.
Sometimes i feel like gravity wants more than to pull me down,
But to pull me through,
And away from you,
Even kicking and screaming,
I'll never wake up when I'm dreaming,
Of my undoing,
Still I wonder, what keeps me moving?
Lying on this beach,
I realize that things so close, could be so out of reach,
And its ironic to think,
That just because my eyes blink,
Doesn't mean they've run dry,
Because it's years later,
And still I cry.
I just can't sustain,
What I thought I could, because things won't change,
They exist in the same
Light, they always have
And it hurts to laugh,
When you feel so broken inside,
It feels so necessary be in plain view but still hide.
Because even in a room so full,
I feel so empty,
Like a walking shell,
I've always known how to conceal myself well,
So by the time you think you're close,
I've done everything that I feel im supposed,
To do to protect what's left of my withering heart,
Because even when everyone's together I feel so apart.
And demons of this world have taken better souls than me,
Torn by the wreckage, and drowning in the seas,
We all have a journey, all have a path to follow,
And even when consumed by pain, I still feel hollow.
And this is sending me to my knees,
Hands together, begging please,
Give me something to live for,
Show me life is so much more,
Than it appears to me.
Jul 16, 2010
Jul 16, 2010 at 4:22 PM UTC
She goes
In and out my brain
Like links in a chain
Connecting me
But she shines dimly
As she walks away.
She goes
Where's my baby at?
When am I gonna get back,
What I used to have?
Why'd you clip my wings?
There she is
My angel sings.
She goes
Rocking the breeze
Like a digital image projected on the seas
Breaking up with the waves
Coming in with the tide.
She goes
Sitting in a room with empty chairs
Is there any trace that she was ever there
Because I've erased her footsteps
But she's not easy to forget.
She goes
Coming out of me
And onto this paper
She flows
Sometimes I wish she would just cry
Just so that I could follow her trail of tears.
She goes
Into my soul
Influencing my choice
Vibrating my vocal chords
Making my voice
But all I have is a whisper
I blink and I've missed her.
She goes
Running on this track
But not in circles
She's running off course
Never taking the path that's flat
Always up hill.
She goes
Renting out my heart
Borrowing it but never intending to return
What is left
Charred and burned.
She goes
Like a melody
Always in fast forward
But I can never rewind
Only replay
Without injecting myself in
All I want is one try
Maybe two, maybe three.
She goes
Wading in the waters
Weighed down by the pain I've taught her
But she shimmers in pools
Floating on the jewels
Like a diamond in the ruff
Or the roughness in the diamond
She swims to the edge of the island
And climbs out
Dripping wet clothes clinging to her body
Becoming her skin
Enhancing what's within
Hugging her curves
I'm so intrigued
Trying with my words
To get her attention
But she keeps on moving
There she goes...
Jul 16, 2010
Jul 16, 2010 at 4:17 PM UTC
UP
my heart
speeds
my feet hit
down
leaving small imprints of me on the ground
running from shadows cast by the moonlight
im sure if i was the ocean id feel waves undulating inside of me
drifting apart and crashing together
pregnant with a stormy sea
feeling the contractions gather tightly and then dissipate
slowly
if only it were that unconscious an effort to let tension go
naturally,
i want to be a woman with a young happy heart that thinks it will beat forever
i want to be a woman that loves all the small things usually left unnoticed
and taken for granted
like finding a broken seashell that you can hold up to your ear
and still hear the beach
i want to be like the water flowing or sitting still
with all its different temperaments (mostly sanguine)
i want to be the lotus that struggles upstream, against the current
blooming along the way...
when i close my eyes i long to see the universe on the backs of my eyelids
i long to dance while im dreaming
but not when im sleeping
but when im feeling more alive than i have ever felt
when i am loving more than i could have ever loved
when i am flying without actually leaving the ground
when i am singing without making a sound
when i seem lost
when i am found.
Jul 14, 2010
Jul 14, 2010 at 10:46 PM UTC
i gave you my everything
and i thought you took it all away
but i realized that i am my everything
i am my savior
my angel
my guiding light
i am the one that holds me at night
i gave you my heart
and i thought you shattered it completely
but then i realized though broken it still beat
pumping blood through my veins
my life
my reason to hold onto all of me
i love
i gave you my strength
and i thought you only took it for weakness
but then i realized that my weaknesses make me stronger
my faults
make me human
make me feel
unique like a wrist bone or a finger print
and beautiful in its creation
i breathe
i gave you every breath i exhaled
and you never took it in
you never felt the essence i breathed into you
but now i breathe for me
i inhale the sunshine into my own lungs
ive won.
i gave you the credit i deserved
i showed you the humility the compassion the forgiveness i yearned for
but now im giving it to me.
i am my everything
Jul 13, 2010
Jul 13, 2010 at 7:38 PM UTC