heart beats a mile a minute
I wish it didn't beat at all
Mar 2, 2014
Mar 2, 2014 at 12:05 AM UTC
lying on the tiled floor
cool against my bare skin
glance at my familiar addiction
the razor
it made me feel when I was numb
and made me numb when I didn't want to feel
could it all be over so quickly
just a slice on my skin
and a minute of pain
before it all went dark
and I was freed from these chains
that held me to the earth
but I can't do that to myself
I have people to live for
and even in our roughest patches
they stood by me
but their love wouldn't take away the pain
or make the scars fade
or help satisfy my thirst for hurt
they could deal
but I could not
Feb 20, 2014
Feb 20, 2014 at 1:22 AM UTC
They all thought he was fine
Smiling down the hall
Appearing genuinely content
But it's amazing what a mask
Can cover up
All the pain
The guilt
The anger
Untill it boils over
And all we're left with
Is a dead boy
And a smoking gun
Feb 15, 2014
Feb 15, 2014 at 1:47 AM UTC
The demons can swim
And the tide is rising
I'm chained to the pole
That was our love
They're getting closer
And screaming my name
And all I can hear
Is you
Jan 30, 2014
Jan 30, 2014 at 9:01 PM UTC
I'm kinda over being told I did it wrong.
That I wouldn't be good enough if I tried.
That I should give up before I get hurt.
But I will never stop fighting for what I love, for what I believe in.
You can tease the **** out of me, but I will never stop being who I am. If you have a problem with me, leave. I don't need to hear it, and no one else does either. Leave me be. I am who I am and I have no problem telling you what I believe in, in a very noisy, embarrassing manner.
Jan 22, 2014
Jan 22, 2014 at 12:52 AM UTC
pale moon light
harsh camera flash
whiskey
cigarettes
razors
scattered leaves
beauty is not me
pain is me
blood is me
*** is me
im the model of bad
the only kind of model i can be
Jan 21, 2014
Jan 21, 2014 at 12:20 AM UTC
I wish I could buy a new heart
out of a vending machine
it'd make money
from all the broken
damaged
stolen
heartless people
they need new hearts
because someone else
broke theirs
Jan 7, 2014
Jan 7, 2014 at 2:04 AM UTC
every boyfriend is the one
untill otherwise proven
the good are never easy
the easy never good
and nothing ever turns out
how you think it really should
deception and perfection
are wonderful traits
one will breed love
the other hate
you'll find me in
the lonely hearts
under I'm after
a brand new start
Jan 3, 2014
Jan 3, 2014 at 2:03 AM UTC
the new year
is a time of revision
becoming new again
and if thats how
it's supposed to be
then why
do I feel the same?
Jan 1, 2014
Jan 1, 2014 at 3:48 AM UTC
lets break it all
the house
the family
the hearts
everything
Dec 27, 2013
Dec 27, 2013 at 12:47 AM UTC