I've never met a marine
who could sentinel
my heart
like he does his country
Sep 25, 2014
Sep 25, 2014 at 3:33 PM UTC
Well, it seems to me
that you are always on my mind
so, I cross my heart and hope to die.
But I found, my dear,
my heart is held in your hands,
screaming.
So you only, my dear,
can break me.
Aug 26, 2014
Aug 26, 2014 at 12:33 AM UTC
I tried to
stop you
from driving tonight
--you were too drunk
to walk straight--
but you still asked
for your keys:
"No,"
"Dont **** with me
right now."
--So, I left,
and got a call
thirty minutes later
saying
that you wouldn't
get in the car
unless I came back,
and just like every
other time:
I couldn't say no.
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 3:23 PM UTC
You are constantly
showing up
in my dreams,
and when you looked at me,
in your car,
at 3:30AM,
-- with my remnants of whiskey
soaked tears--
I've never felt so
beautiful,
but when I saw
you, like that,
kissing her,
not even your
drunken state
could excuse
your dishonesty.
You may not remember
what happened,
but I always
will:
at 11:32pm
in the bar
on Wednesday,
you broke my heart,
and never even
knew that you
had made it whole
to begin with.
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 3:21 PM UTC
This
feeling of
simultaneous
hate and love,
all
amounts
to
b
u
l
l
s
h
i
t
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 3:19 PM UTC
One blacked out kiss
is the equivalent
to my broken heart;
and you were everything
I had always wanted,
but never knew
you were the reason
for my tears in
the bathroom
that night:
I fell for you,
but you did not
let me down easy
--for I can turn you
into lines
of well-versed ink,
but I cannot
make you love me
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 3:17 PM UTC
I'm not sure I know
how to
tell you
that I feel the safest
when you wrap your arms
around
me like a scarf,
-- when I am able
to make your ribs into
a Fireman's coat:
much like the one
you remove after a long day's work.
You used
to make me feel fireproof,
but now I have found that
even those whose job
is meant to keep
alive a heart,
--beating--
can also **** it,
and you will never know
the entire extent
of how you killed mine.
Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 4:52 AM UTC
I feel like if he really wanted you, like REALLY wanted you, like he says that he does, then he would just have you. He would get over all this **** about not wanting to be in a relationship right now or not wanting to settle down. He would get over all of that and make an exception because he wants you. He would not say "Don't wait for me;" he would say, "I don't want to have to wait for you, I want you, all of you, and I want to be with you now".... So, the fact that he is not saying that proves to me that he does not deserve you.
You deserve a guy that would set down everything and want only YOU. A guy that would push all the ******** out the door and just tell you how much he wants to be with you. If he does not have the ***** to do that, does not do that, or says "I don't want to be selfish, don't wait for me," he does not deserve you. Be friends with him -- love him in that way -- but do not let him ******** you around or hurt you any more than he has.
You can do better when it comes to a relationship than being with him. No one, especially me wants to see you get hurt anymore by him. And by the looks of it, he does not want to hurt you anymore either, and that is what he is trying to do here: create a situation where he cannot hurt you anymore.
I know it will be hard love, but you need to let him go in the relationship aspect of your life, and have him as a friend because you two work that way, and if, down the road, he matures more, sees what he lost, and fights for you with everything he has, then he will deserve you, but at this point, right now, he does not, and you deserve much better.
Trust me when I say that I know for a fact that he cares about you. If he did not he would just be a complete *** about the situation. I have been there.
If you are asking me, he is handling this very well in that aspect. And him saying "I don't want to be selfish, don't wait for me" instead of saying, "I don't want to be with you. Get over it," shows that he cares for you and definitely did the whole time.
The problem is that he is not mature enough to see that you, lovely girl, are worth every ounce of fight in him. One day, be it you, or another girl, he will realize that that is what he needs to do -- fight -- and regardless of if when he realizes it and you are the girl, or you are not the girl, you WILL be the girl that he thinks of in that YOU are the girl that will have taught him that is what he has to do.
So, trust me when I say he cares about you so much because, even down the road, you will always be the girl that taught him that he needs to fight.
Feb 11, 2014
Feb 11, 2014 at 2:54 AM UTC
I once knew a girl who
taught me
that "warrior" is spelled
with a silent "T,"
and that caring is an instinct,
not a burden:
Time told her that she
was beautiful,
but she did not
believe it,
for she was broken, and
her body was weary;
she cared about Time,
and, in return,
He whispered in her ear
that her heart
was the highest form
of beautiful
--but still,
sea salt poured from her corneas
for she did not know
just how much Time
she had left;
so,
out of dust and the salt from her eyes
Time crafted
a shield
to protect her aorta
and take captive
her nightmares
--to catch her dreams--
for the day that
Time, Himself,
would run out.
Jan 10, 2014
Jan 10, 2014 at 6:46 PM UTC