The last time we spoke,
I forced a smile.
Forced myself to say hello.
No eye contact.
From 6 feet away.
Even though I know,
your smile was fake.
BANG
That string holding my heart together,
explodes.
And the past 3 months
I'd spent
Forgetting every touch
Every love
completely disappeared.
Both smiles were forced.
I wish I knew
the explanation
behind his.
I know we both know,
What's behind mine.
Jun 11, 2012
Jun 11, 2012 at 5:23 AM UTC
are you
still there?
I’m sorry I’ve kept you wondering,
Sorry that I can’t be
what you wanted.
are you
still there?
I’m sorry I’ve kept you waiting,
Believe me I’ve been waiting
a lifetime and a half for this to end.
are you
still there?
Because I feel so alone now,
so broken how,
Can you go on without feeling?
Without breathing and thinking?
are you
still there?
I think I know now.
Presently, I am alone,
But once you were always with me.
May 11, 2012
May 11, 2012 at 2:55 AM UTC
Lifting; You raise me,
My entire life to you,
Forever in debt.
May 10, 2012
May 10, 2012 at 6:56 PM UTC
I can hear the wind chimes,
and it keeps time,
Like it's giving me a sign,
a way to find,
What will happen next.
The sunlight on the trees,
Just right and glistening,
Makes me want everything I see,
to stay and keep me company,
forever in this moment.
On my table I see raindrops,
The sun is out, the rain's stopped,
From each leaf the rain hops,
Drips and drops,
I wish it would continue.
I can still hear the wind chimes,
You, once, were mine,
But so you know after all this time,
I'm afraid I will never find,
somebody like you.
May 10, 2012
May 10, 2012 at 6:52 PM UTC
About to light up,
Wait just another minute,
Now it's Four Twenty.
May 10, 2012
May 10, 2012 at 5:33 PM UTC
So limited,
Yet living so free,
Give me a reason not to be,
I am what I am,
And you can,
Take my hand,
And leave me the way others have done.
I'm limited,
But it won't stop me,
Won't slow me,
Won't sadden me,
For I do not stress,
Over what I cannot change,
I can't change who I am,
Though sometimes I wish I could,
I'll never forgive,
The one,
Who limited,
Me.
But I won't ever,
Let it,
Define me.
May 10, 2012
May 10, 2012 at 2:02 PM UTC
(Verse 1)
Guess I just wasn't it for you,
had me waiting around, set me up to lose,
Don't know what I expected from you,
Just a little understanding,
You're taking your time with putting me down,
And I guess I'm still trying to figure you out,
But I think I'm sorta over it now,
Just gotta steady my rocky landing,
(prechorus)
I keep trying to find my bearings here,
But it's hard when you just disappear,
Honey I don't have the patience,
So don't you keep me waiting,
(Chorus)
So make up your mind,
I keep running out of reasons to give you more time,
Maybe you're already gone,
And you didn't have the ***** to tell me all that was goin on,
All I know is the thing that's tough,
is knowing I won't be good enough,
for your love, so baby
Please be friendly
I'm not looking for love,
but my heart is on empty,
(Verse 2)
You haven't spoken one **** word to me,
And I understand you need time to think,
But I didn't think it'd take you weeks,
Guess it wasn't worth it,
I thought I knew you better than that,
Such a strong connection when we met,
Didn't think you'd wanna leave just yet,
But then again you were a little *******
(prechorus)
I keep trying to find my bearings here,
but it's hard when you just disappear,
I don't have the patience,
So don't you keep me waiting,
(chorus)
So make up your mind,
I don't wanna keep wondering if you will be mine,
Maybe I want you gone,
And it's good that we didn't work it out,
So now I can move on,
All I know is what's gunna ****
is thinking I'm not really good enough,
to keep you,
but baby I won't fight fate,
and when you realize I'm gone it'll be too late,
I realize now I don't need your love,
but that doesn't mean you can set me up,
and make me think,
this would actually work,
I'll find someone else who will see my worth,
So open your eyes,
and try to realize, how much you lost this time,
I won't be back here again,
I'm sick of you, and I can't believe,
that we couldn't even be friends,
All I know is what I'm gunna do,
and that's find someone thats ******* better than you,
and I, know now, that somehow,
I'll find my guy,
and he won't think twice.
Make up your mind.
May 7, 2012
May 7, 2012 at 1:02 AM UTC
It was like the clouds had read my mind,
They all had started to get in line,
to swim across the open sky,
close up the holes, and shield your eyes,
I wanted the sunlight to go away,
Turn back time to another day,
The clouds continue and do not cease,
Not one bit of sunshine, not one piece,
And as the blue turns into gray,
I lift my head and start to pray,
I still feel warmth despite the cold,
Too young to die, for someone so bold.
May 2, 2012
May 2, 2012 at 12:18 PM UTC
You're so close to me,
And yet you feel so far,
Gone much too soon,
and that's the hardest part.
I can't believe the fact,
That you've left this world for good,
I wish I'd spent more time with you,
And hugged you when I could.
Your smile lit up the nighttime,
Your frown dimmed the brightest of days,
You left for once but not for good,
I'll see you in a better place.
You had so much to live for,
You always exuded such life,
No matter how dark the times,
You could always find the light.
You may not be here anymore,
But you'll always be in my heart,
No matter how far away you may seem,
We'll never be apart.
May 2, 2012
May 2, 2012 at 3:17 AM UTC
For awhile,
I thought it would actually work,
I truly believed myself,
I tricked myself into thinking that,
You would like me just enough,
That I would be Just good enough,
to tell you my secret,
and have you still like me,
My face is strong in company,
but quietly,
You'll see,
tears will fight their way,
onto my face, forever etched, will forever stay,
I can't be cured.
Can't be loved, won't be heard,
not much worth, too hurt,
to try anymore, given the situation,
and the situations inflation,
I can expect no less, not one to impress,
I'm okay with being alone.
I know I'll have me. And I'll never
Let me down
a third time.
Apr 30, 2012
Apr 30, 2012 at 5:37 AM UTC