i look back
at pictures
of my self
and i don’t
see me
i see a ghost
of a man
i once was
a man
whose happy
and has a sort
of place
in this world
but the man
seems to be
never true
broken to pieces
and gone with the wind
a memory forgotten
to never be seen again
the thought of me
is never true
there i go
who am i
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 1:17 PM UTC
who said
leaving you was easy
because even after all
these pain-soaked days
with my heart broken wide
i still can’t seem
to keep you out of my mind
and everywhere i look
i see you
you’re smile
you’re laugh
you’re beauty
everything about you
is in everything i see
i can’t seem to escape
these feelings i have
and i don’t think i ever will
which wouldn’t be a bad thing
if you were here with me
but you’re not
no you’re in another’s arms
on another’s lips
making someone else smile
while they do for you
and all i can do
is sit here and cry
hoping to find my answer
at the bottom of this bottle
and all these pills
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 1:16 PM UTC
i’m sorry for what i did
i loved you
hell i still do
i never meant to hurt you
i was just scared of being left alone
please understand
it was never part of my plan
i hoped one day we’d be together, just two
laying in the grass, eating those fruits
you joked at me for never having tried
my beautiful yellow sunflower
if i could do it all over
i’d have stuck with you
never to cause pain
but to see your beautiful eyes
dilate once again
Aug 23, 2018
Aug 23, 2018 at 10:19 PM UTC