i
caught
a glimpse
of
your
alluring eyes
but
you
swiveled
them away
with no
sign
of
vigilance
within
and
all
of
a sudden
an
indescribably
pain
grew
in intensity
inside
of
me.
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:55 AM UTC
I sit in here in my window seal half naked, with my window open and the smell of freshly soaked grass wafting in with the flashing lights of the sky.
At this point in my life, i dont know what the hell is going on. Im trapped between the walls of my heart and the confines of my mind.
I am the once solid foundation of your home, after the earthquake shook your house to tears.
I am the once smiling face, after your lover left.
My heart, once beating strongly and lightly, now pouts, cold and hardened, next to my once healthy lungs.
No words can bring the soul back into my eyes, nor can any kiss bring the color back into my cheeks.
My hands cant hold him anymore, for they seem to only shake and become numb.
My mouth is no longer capable of forming soft gentle words, only harsh and savage, broken phrases pass over the cusp of my lips.
My mind finds no comfort in the things once enjoyed by my being, accompanied by the music of my laughter echoing through the corridors of a once happy home.
My legs no longer know where they are pushing me, my feet are unsure of where to step.
People say that no one is lost.
But could you tell me where i am?
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:54 AM UTC
Talked til 6am--
thought it meant something, but I
am nothing to you.
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:52 AM UTC
I'm Not lost but I'm not found either. Over time the wound tends to heal, but we are left with scars that remain forever. Pull off the scab and you are left with a significant scar, same with people. Get rid of someone who tends to cause you pain. As you've already let them go they leave behind their presence whether it be memories or significant values, the spirit still remains.
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:51 AM UTC
What has become of us
Amidst the hustle and bustle of city life
When did evolution condone us to regress into a state
Of uncalculated caucus
As we meander our way through the rapids of life
Rapid
Is hardly a best-fit descriptor
For we are past the point of speed
We mill around like headless horses
Buzzing bees
Stinging roaches
Fallen leaves
Roaring lions
Try to lead
But fail
Like cottons fighting breeze
Is this all we are?
Is this what we were made for?
To quickly climb the climb
And await the graceless fall
Parachutes prepared for praise
But our pride prevents and prevails
Till the day I climb the ladder
Shall I not attempt to see
What the view at the top might be like
I fear it enthralls me
But then reality strikes like a maddening blaze
And suddenly I see
That I'm well on my way up the hill
As I swing from bridge to bridge
Is this the way to live?
Uncautious steps with kleptomaniac ease
As we take what we desire
From our capitalistic divider
Though we hate to be the same
Not at all do we differ
Are we not all blinded mice
With a tetra-human vice
Spiders apt at spinning lies
Banking life on Friday highs
All around me boring beasts
Lost to whims, to say the least
What I fear most is the day
I give in and join the race
Is the day I eat my heart out
Just to enjoy the highest gaze
Till then here trapped in the zoo
Enclosure encasing truth
Finding fault with every human till the day I conform too
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:50 AM UTC
Truth makes me weary inside
Troubled, lonely and cautious
Do I trust their muffled mumbles?
Let the syllables make a home atop my body?
And create a whole new me
Within a newfound story
Nothing stands taller than the truth
Planting its roots so perfectly
Upon my right arm
O, I quiver
Sing the words,
Trouble me with desire
Let me sink into a tainted reality
A tainted mind,
With your worrisome tongue
You capture my innocence,
My emotions spill roughly
Along the steps leading nowhere
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:45 AM UTC
A vista
spiels with neon
Non-essential conversation repeating
Humanity hovers at the entrance
In this shopping centre every need seems urgent
Mouths pause their chatter
To sip at coffee or chow down burger
Gestures are reinforced with nail polish,
jewellery on many fingers
and small change passing across counter tops
In here the weather is neither warm nor cool
and everything seems designed to stimulate my mediocrity
Reflection in the shop-front is on sale at bargain price
but today I cannot afford to buy on impulse
I turn away to blend
With colourful blah
MChallis © 2009 (reworked 2014)
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:43 AM UTC
your smile
shines in every season
In spring it blooms
In summer it blinds
In autumn it relieves (me)
In winter it warms
i would not know
what to do
without
you and your shining
smile
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:42 AM UTC
the words starts as whispers of thoughts, flimsy threads of ideas, inconsequential
they float through my body, start in my heart and push outwards
they expand, my heart expands, falling to my feet and propelling them onwards
wrapping around my muscles and bones
melting into me.
they fill my lungs, like they're going to explode under the pressure
my ribs crack
my throat closes tight around the bubble of thought-turned-vocal
they fill my teeth and coat my tongue and
the bubble bursts and
I love you
I love you and the dam has opened and I love you and I'm flooded with all the times I never said it and I love you
it's like a force of nature and I can't stop it and I don't want to and I love you I love you I love you
I love you.
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 1:38 AM UTC
To the girl who..
Stays home from school
Because she's too depressed
To even get out of bed.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Stands in front of the mirror
Unable to fight the tears
That criticize every inch.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Can't keep her dinner down
Because she only lost
Two pounds.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Cries on the cold tile of
Her bathroom floor with
A ****** razor in her hand.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Wears a long sleeve shirt in August
To hide all the scars
That memories leave.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Pops a handful of pills into her mouth
Just to feel normal for once
In her life.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Drowns her feelings
In a bottle of *****
I love you.
To the girl who..
Watches the one person she loves
Fall in love
With somebody else.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Has family that
Always reminds her and
Tells her she's never good enough.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Locks her bedroom door
To hide from the demons
In her own hell.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Won't go home tonight
Afraid of what might happen
Behind closed doors.
I love you.
To the girl who..
Feels hopeless
And alone,
Planning to take her own life.
I love you.
Why do I love you?
I am you.
And, to you who reads this letter,
Whoever you may be,
Whatever road you stride down,
Wherever life may bring you,
Always remember that you are not alone.
Somebody loves you,
And there is always someone
Who is you.
Sep 22, 2014
Sep 22, 2014 at 11:41 PM UTC