I was restless for the past days
I could not get anything done
I stared at screens
for days and days
Then I realized I was alive
It does not seem like much
but I was suppose to be dead
I should have died on the 12th of June
But I didn't
I am still here
The happiness that overflowed me was incredible
I am alive
Jun 17, 2015
Jun 17, 2015 at 3:25 PM UTC
I have reached loneliness
as today only my father remembered
something my mother should not have forgotten
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015 at 3:01 PM UTC
Please forgive me
I have the worst kind of writer's block
I have thoughts pouring out
from everywhere
I still can't touch my pen
I have no right to be angry
no right to be hurt
no right to be sad
It was my fault
So please forgive
Give me back my right to be
my right to write
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 2:16 PM UTC
When I lost you
I don't remember losing a part of my soul
In fact since I lost you
I don't remember having a soul at all
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 2:04 PM UTC
I lost
I know I did
I did not realize I was
Losing
I know I lost
I stopped fighting
You don't have to remind me
I lost
I already know I did
After 5 years
a little less
I lost you
I lost you all
I know I did
You don't have to
Keep yelling at me
I already know
I lost
I stopped fighting
I lost
I know I did
I did not realize
I was hurting you
But now I know
I hurt you
So I lost
I know I did
I said sorry
I am walking
Away
I lost
I know
You can stop yelling
I apologize
I stopped
I am walking away
I lost you
I know
I lost
I know I did
So please stop yelling
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 2:02 PM UTC
starting to move
I was trying
I wanted to get up
leaving, leaving LEAVING!
I was nearly gone from here
I could see life again
I had already imagine the sun
and the flowers
and the friends
family
love
and joy
But you came
you kicked
I was already down
you kicked me
all that I wanted to see again was
leaving, leaving, LEAVING
you kicked me
I will never see them again
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 9:28 AM UTC
"Why do you do it?"
"To stop the pain"
"Owh"
"You?"
"To feel pain"
"Why?"
"It is better than feeling nothing"
"Owh, you think so?"
"Yes"
"I don't"
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 3:14 AM UTC
It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea:
But we loved with a love that was more than love—
I and my ANNABEL LEE;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful ANNABEL LEE;
So that her highborn kinsmen came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me—
Yes!—that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my ANNABEL LEE.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we—
Of many far wiser than we—
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful ANNABEL LEE.
For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful ANNABEL LEE;
And the stars never rise but I see the bright eyes
Of the beautiful ANNABEL LEE;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride,
In her sepulchre there by the sea—
In her tomb by the side of the sea.
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 2:49 AM UTC
If sadness was a choice
people would choose to be sad
There is never a choice
People cannot be happy
without being sad
which is sad, so now I am happy
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 2:53 PM UTC
I wonder if I have already written her down
If I didn't, I did now
Will she live forever?
In eyes not yet born?
No, because this is unseen work
She will not live forever
She will die with you
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 2:35 PM UTC