nestling - Hello Poetry

i'm sitting across from you black coffee in your hands (as usual) sugared syrup (your words) in mine a little small talk and catching up we smile the same dogtoothed smile it's like no time has passed i've missed you (we are avoiding the reason) (we'll never see eye to eye on it anyway) i've missed you too we both feel the time that's passed we finish our coffee (not too quickly) you hug me and i hug you back (i haven't hugged back in so long) salt-sprinkled beard scrapes my head i think too much time has passed w.e.

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Sep 19, 2023

Sep 19, 2023 at 7:02 PM UTC

daydreaming

i'm sitting across from you black coffee in your hands (as usual) sugared syrup (your words) in mine a little small talk and catching up we smile the same dogtoothed smile it's like no time has passed i've missed you (we are avoiding the reason) (we'll never see eye to eye on it anyway) i've missed you too we both feel the time that's passed we finish our coffee (not too quickly) you hug me and i hug you back (i haven't hugged back in so long) salt-sprinkled beard scrapes my head i think too much time has passed w.e.

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the forgotten child is nearing the end of their adolescence. these thoughts have swam inside them for a decade rumbling, roaring, ramming against their barricade it was not me that was forgotten, but the naïve child inside me i've spent a decade reserving my right to tell the awaited rescuer that the child and i prefer to stay at our safe haven. i am a body of 22, but a mind of 12 naïve 12 turned pitiful, pessimistic 14 turned people-pleaser 17 turned naive 18 turned pitiful, pessimistic 20 turned please just come back, why did you never come back i'll never stop wondering why i had to create my own safe haven i've spent a decade reserving my right to turn away my wrongdoer it's silly of me to think that you returning makes you a rescuer nature versus nurture, a baby bird kicked from the comfy nest a decade-long vacation from being a parent, abandoned until i grew the forgotten child is nearing the end of their adolescence.

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Jun 30, 2021

Jun 30, 2021 at 1:05 AM UTC

musings of a waif

the forgotten child is nearing the end of their adolescence. these thoughts have swam inside them for a decade rumbling, roaring, ramming against their barricade it was not me that was forgotten, but the naïve child inside me i've spent a decade reserving my right to tell the awaited rescuer that the child and i prefer to stay at our safe haven. i am a body of 22, but a mind of 12 naïve 12 turned pitiful, pessimistic 14 turned people-pleaser 17 turned naive 18 turned pitiful, pessimistic 20 turned please just come back, why did you never come back i'll never stop wondering why i had to create my own safe haven i've spent a decade reserving my right to turn away my wrongdoer it's silly of me to think that you returning makes you a rescuer nature versus nurture, a baby bird kicked from the comfy nest a decade-long vacation from being a parent, abandoned until i grew the forgotten child is nearing the end of their adolescence.

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She doesn't know But I think I love her And I think that I want her To be mine She doesn't know But talking to her Makes me smile like I've just won the lottery She doesn't know But even writing this I get a pang in my stomach From a storm of butterflies She doesn't know But no one compares to her She doesn't know But everyone else does

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May 31, 2015

May 31, 2015 at 7:14 PM UTC

She

She doesn't know But I think I love her And I think that I want her To be mine She doesn't know But talking to her Makes me smile like I've just won the lottery She doesn't know But even writing this I get a pang in my stomach From a storm of butterflies She doesn't know But no one compares to her She doesn't know But everyone else does

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Your words melted from the heat of your mouth and dripped from your tongue. The syllables sounded like gunshots firing from your lips dropping against the ground with a metallic thud. How many times have you performed this execution? Deep down I knew you were a fox and I was a rabbit but I never thought you would stop my heart in such a way. My heart stuttered when you said my name but now the mention of yours freezes me like the cold that creeps into a lifeless body. You always said you had no soul but with every death you leave in your wake, you collect yet another. I remember begging you to stop speaking to stop reloading your bullets. But what's the point when you already planned to leave me behind, struggling to breathe?

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Nov 8, 2014

Nov 8, 2014 at 1:15 AM UTC

11/8/14

Your words melted from the heat of your mouth and dripped from your tongue. The syllables sounded like gunshots firing from your lips dropping against the ground with a metallic thud. How many times have you performed this execution? Deep down I knew you were a fox and I was a rabbit but I never thought you would stop my heart in such a way. My heart stuttered when you said my name but now the mention of yours freezes me like the cold that creeps into a lifeless body. You always said you had no soul but with every death you leave in your wake, you collect yet another. I remember begging you to stop speaking to stop reloading your bullets. But what's the point when you already planned to leave me behind, struggling to breathe?

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It's been really chilly lately, as if the sun has ceased to give off heat. If I were yours, it would be easy to talk about holding you to share warmth. And maybe it's worth noting that my heart beats faster as I write this. But as the leaves fall and flowers begin to die off, I begin to think I've been beat. Because God knows she's better than this bitter autumn and girl. So maybe it isn't worth mentioning at all that your voice was the highlight of my day. In conclusion, all I've learned in this frigid season is that my heart warms too quickly to strangers.

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Nov 8, 2014

Nov 8, 2014 at 1:10 AM UTC

11/4/14

It's been really chilly lately, as if the sun has ceased to give off heat. If I were yours, it would be easy to talk about holding you to share warmth. And maybe it's worth noting that my heart beats faster as I write this. But as the leaves fall and flowers begin to die off, I begin to think I've been beat. Because God knows she's better than this bitter autumn and girl. So maybe it isn't worth mentioning at all that your voice was the highlight of my day. In conclusion, all I've learned in this frigid season is that my heart warms too quickly to strangers.

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7:14 PM // Will you marry me? 7:38 PM // Yes. Not today though, it would be dark by the time we got home. 2:30 PM // Marry me 2:35 PM // One day 6:50 PM // Marry me 6:50 PM // I can't today, but I will 2:14 PM // Will you marry me 2:16 PM // Yes. It's too hot today though 2:17 PM // I got a bag of cheetos I've been trying to finish for like 3 days can we get married when I'm done with the bag 2:20 PM // I guess we'll see 6:27 PM // Will you marry me 6:28 PM // I'm not dressed well enough but yes, eventually 6:29 PM // I'd marry you in pajamas and you'd still be absolutely stunning 6:30 PM // You're lovely 11:42 PM // Lets get married 11:43 PM // If you insist. It's kind of late though 11:43 PM // It's daytime somewhere tn

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Aug 20, 2014

Aug 20, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC

The Beauty Of Screenshots

7:14 PM // Will you marry me? 7:38 PM // Yes. Not today though, it would be dark by the time we got home. 2:30 PM // Marry me 2:35 PM // One day 6:50 PM // Marry me 6:50 PM // I can't today, but I will 2:14 PM // Will you marry me 2:16 PM // Yes. It's too hot today though 2:17 PM // I got a bag of cheetos I've been trying to finish for like 3 days can we get married when I'm done with the bag 2:20 PM // I guess we'll see 6:27 PM // Will you marry me 6:28 PM // I'm not dressed well enough but yes, eventually 6:29 PM // I'd marry you in pajamas and you'd still be absolutely stunning 6:30 PM // You're lovely 11:42 PM // Lets get married 11:43 PM // If you insist. It's kind of late though 11:43 PM // It's daytime somewhere tn

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2:00 A.M // I do this some nights Wish for you to come back When I feel lonely. But I'm different now. 2:15 A.M. // Why am I writing this I just feel numb. This is begging for you To hurt me again. 2:38 A.M. // **** you. Jesus ******* Christ. I hate you. I'm glad you're gone. 3:00 A.M. // Why did you leave? Why did you say you'd stay? You always leave. This was the last time. 3:23 A.M. // I don't remember your number. I need someone right now. But it feels like you died. Are you okay? 3:24 A.M. // It feels like you died. But you're still here. You still live in my head. You're still ******* me up. t.n.

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Aug 6, 2014

Aug 6, 2014 at 3:27 AM UTC

A.M.

2:00 A.M // I do this some nights Wish for you to come back When I feel lonely. But I'm different now. 2:15 A.M. // Why am I writing this I just feel numb. This is begging for you To hurt me again. 2:38 A.M. // **** you. Jesus ******* Christ. I hate you. I'm glad you're gone. 3:00 A.M. // Why did you leave? Why did you say you'd stay? You always leave. This was the last time. 3:23 A.M. // I don't remember your number. I need someone right now. But it feels like you died. Are you okay? 3:24 A.M. // It feels like you died. But you're still here. You still live in my head. You're still ******* me up. t.n.

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"You shouldn't see me like this." I frowned, wondering why. Are you afraid I'll leave you? If you are, you should know That I love you. When I think of you being happy, I think of freckles and butterflies. And the way you smiled. The way you made me feel. Like a thunderstorm was inside me. The warmth covering my skin, and the air was a little heavier. And I love you. When I think of you being sad, I think of the times I've ran to you When I was hurt and crying. And how you patiently help me Until my tears are gone. And I love you. When I think of you being angry, I think of you listening when I'm angry. How you wait for me to calm down And then we joke about my temper. And I love you. I love you. I love every part of you. Love doesn't stop. Not in anger or sadness. I love every single part of you. And I'd love to see your every emotion. t.n.

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Aug 4, 2014

Aug 4, 2014 at 3:30 AM UTC

You

"You shouldn't see me like this." I frowned, wondering why. Are you afraid I'll leave you? If you are, you should know That I love you. When I think of you being happy, I think of freckles and butterflies. And the way you smiled. The way you made me feel. Like a thunderstorm was inside me. The warmth covering my skin, and the air was a little heavier. And I love you. When I think of you being sad, I think of the times I've ran to you When I was hurt and crying. And how you patiently help me Until my tears are gone. And I love you. When I think of you being angry, I think of you listening when I'm angry. How you wait for me to calm down And then we joke about my temper. And I love you. I love you. I love every part of you. Love doesn't stop. Not in anger or sadness. I love every single part of you. And I'd love to see your every emotion. t.n.

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Now at 3:25 a.m. All that matters to me Is how your lips would feel If they were slowly dancing with mine How your skin would feel If it were underneath my fingertips And imagining the way your hands Would curl around mine in the dark. At 3:25 a.m. my mornings Used to be dark and lonely Cold and empty. But this is what happens When you fall in love You trade in that loneliness For a garden of daisies Because if they like daisies, you like daisies. And suddenly all that matters Is watering that garden And watching it grow And praying a drought won't appear Because at 3:25 a.m. You're the entire world to me And I don't want it any other way t.n.

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Jul 24, 2014

Jul 24, 2014 at 3:37 AM UTC

3:25 a.m.

Now at 3:25 a.m. All that matters to me Is how your lips would feel If they were slowly dancing with mine How your skin would feel If it were underneath my fingertips And imagining the way your hands Would curl around mine in the dark. At 3:25 a.m. my mornings Used to be dark and lonely Cold and empty. But this is what happens When you fall in love You trade in that loneliness For a garden of daisies Because if they like daisies, you like daisies. And suddenly all that matters Is watering that garden And watching it grow And praying a drought won't appear Because at 3:25 a.m. You're the entire world to me And I don't want it any other way t.n.

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I never felt more alive than I did That moment that you said "I love you. I'm in love with you." It was like electric currents Shot clear through my vertebrae. And I forgot to breathe for a moment. And every day since then At one and two and three in the morning I crave to hear it once more. Because you've marked me. You've etched yourself into my mind. I told you, I made you promise That you would stay So you couldn't break my heart. And you replied that Breaking my heart would be To throw your reason to wake up Away. And for that I love you Ever so much More. t.n.

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Jul 19, 2014

Jul 19, 2014 at 7:24 AM UTC

Can You Tell I Haven't Slept?

I never felt more alive than I did That moment that you said "I love you. I'm in love with you." It was like electric currents Shot clear through my vertebrae. And I forgot to breathe for a moment. And every day since then At one and two and three in the morning I crave to hear it once more. Because you've marked me. You've etched yourself into my mind. I told you, I made you promise That you would stay So you couldn't break my heart. And you replied that Breaking my heart would be To throw your reason to wake up Away. And for that I love you Ever so much More. t.n.

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