every moment with you
is the greatest moment of my life
as they're made
rays of light and joy
shine on my face
out of all the periods
to exist in the history of
time and space
i existed in the period
with you
for that, i treat
this thing of ours
with gratefulness and grace
i existed in a lifetime
where you chose me
what more could i ask for
with you
i feel safe
vulnerability was once
a dream to me
a dream that could only be
pondered
a dream i never thought
could be a reality
i wanna swim in the
pool of your divinity
forever
a truest love
with passion and patience
cannot be severed
durable beyond belief
unbreakable to say the least
a love fulfilled by
deep understanding
as well as
the simplest things
the simplest things
include the fleeting moments
that we share together
but "fleeting"
speaks to the scale
of our universe's sense of time
moments hung,
suspended in the air
of the space it roams in
every moment with you
feels this way
i'm honored,
i embrace it with a grin
- negassie
Mar 27, 2023
Mar 27, 2023 at 3:43 AM UTC
every day
i introduce my very best self
to the day,
to give my world the very best that
she deserves.
it's a natural introduction,
something that i've never
necessarily struggled with.
however, my world has
bolstered my purpose,
my confidence in our universe,
my confidence in its
everlasting beauty.
her eyes captivate me.
i see the stars,
i see Mother Nature's divine handiwork
in her deep brown pupils,
the whites of her eyes
wrapping the world
like the atmosphere
surrounding the earth.
her world is mine,
and my world is hers.
it's such a beautiful thing,
sharing a life and the experience
that comes with it,
carrying the burden
of our journeys together,
easing the load,
inspiring,
smiling through it all.
she is a part of my world,
but she is my world
all the same.
the introduction of
my very best self,
every single day,
it was never an issue, sure.
my motivation to
turn from away from the world,
turn cold,
let that strong feeling of dejection
consume me for good,
that was the issue.
now, so much of
my love and light,
my rich spirit,
it is freely expressed and
adamantly protected
in the name of my world.
the love and care
mutually provided,
the sincerity,
the purity,
it's seeped through the
cracks of a broken heart,
feeding the hunger of a lover,
still a little lost,
still perusing this experience.
my world and i,
hand-in-hand,
perusing this experience
together...
what more could a young man
ask for?
my best self,
my love and light,
bound to the mission of
nurturing my world,
easing the load,
making her smile,
for life.
oh, my world,
i hope you know
what you do for me,
constantly.
thank you, i eternally devote myself
as your soldier,
physically,
spiritually,
and in every capacity necessary
to see you grow and thrive.
thank you
~ negassie
Mar 21, 2023
Mar 21, 2023 at 12:18 AM UTC
the cliff is steep
my legs are getting heavy
feeling weak
weekly tribulation
seething through my teeth
as i fight to the peak
the fall is long
my body’s numbing
though i’m very strong
abyss has been prolonged
i’m fighting daily
giving up is wrong
even if i can’t go anymore
the fall won’t last
for long
- negassie
Jan 13, 2021
Jan 13, 2021 at 2:15 AM UTC
raise my hands and
i look up to the sky
sometimes i'm blind
but in due time
i reveal to myself
that the world is mine
black man
just trying not to
squander my time
i'm feeling fine
in this somber state of mind
gotta shake it before
the strife eats me alive
"the world doesn't dictate you"
i speak that truth to myself
it's a virtue
affirmations, reassurance leading
to my revelation
before i fall into the abyss again
those days when
those words i wrote
felt like my only friend
fending off the world's woes
until the very end
until my God sends me Home
i'll always be in defense
of my mind & spirit
bless
- negassie
Nov 14, 2020
Nov 14, 2020 at 10:27 PM UTC
sit and lament in the dark
heart to heart with myself
without a need for some help
put that up on the shelf
save it for a rainy day
when i know that i
won't have the strength
regardless of that,
regardless of the
length of the abyss
i just take a deep breath
and pray i reach my precipice
aligning with the thought that
i shouldn't always
search for the bliss
pain is a learning opportunity
i'd be ****** if i missed
though i'd rather feel something
relative to the opposite
my fate is written
all i have is the cards given
self-actualization
never turning away from the frays
of my nights and days
instead i organize it
pray over it
and create a space,
a safe haven for it
leading a life of reassurance
even at my lowest
perseverance in the restitution
of my joy
always searching for the young boy
in me
this life costs a lot
in different ways
but that inner youth is
always free
grateful to say i'm
learning every day
moving forward to better places
fear of the darkness
is a hindrance to my lamentations
honing the approach of my journey
as evolution and preservation
now excuse me while i get back
to my meditations
- negassie
Oct 21, 2020
Oct 21, 2020 at 9:47 PM UTC
thankful for my Savior
for implementing greatness in me
it's safe to say that
this life ain't easy
constant negativity
through introspection
saying that i loathe me
daily
evenings reeling on my meaning
liberating myself through this writing
perfect timing when
i see the light again
revitalizing an empty life
i'll come back again tomorrow
scythe to the neck of my oppressors
and my sorrow
healing through my mental processes
so i see the light of day
keep my faith in God
so i know that there's a way
destined for my refusal
that the evil strike me where i lay
imma never stop running
until i can do so safely
striving for the
continuance of self-expression
i never ain't me
demons tryna come for my mental
in spontaneity
running away from Satan
and chasing God simultaneously
- negassie
Oct 20, 2020
Oct 20, 2020 at 7:18 PM UTC
i’m so tired of forevers and goodbyes
miming lies deep into my eyes
that’s why i feel like the truth
is hard to find
the wanders of my tired mind
control my severed tongue
severed by the thought that
my thoughts aren’t wanted
by anyone
and i’m tired of it
i feel the floating away feeling
or my desire for it
torn spirit
had some cries because of it
wish i wasn’t lying about my goodbyes
every time because i’m
scared of it
- negassie
Oct 14, 2020
Oct 14, 2020 at 5:03 AM UTC
tired tired tired
reconnaissance on my mental
it’s seen better days
clear the haze and you’ll see my
body patiently waiting
scathing pain in my failure
but you won’t see me shaking
my physique will never wither
weathered by texas summers
survived the fray of our strength
and at the same time
the blunders of my being
never overshadowed my faith
keep my heart to God
even amid the pouring rain
i’m my brother’s keeper
yet i stand alone
a keepsake
a keepsake for my better days
seeing the fabrication of
love shown through the
shining rays of my smiling face
but who’s gonna be there
at my wake
carrying me away to my maker
helpless times i’m in
and that’s all i have to savor
- negassie
Sep 24, 2020
Sep 24, 2020 at 3:50 AM UTC
to my sisters and brothers
fighting for our freedom
may your hearts settle
like the leaves past the summit
of a windy day
lay on the floor with your tears and your trauma
deep breaths
your mind needs the moment to emit the karma
your pain will be dealt towards the responsible
you must let it leave at your heaviest
release all the tension from days and
weeks and
months of constant worry
and sorrow
of tomorrow’s you will never ask for
let your mind, body and soul
settle
like we have been
forced to do as a people
for generations
this will work in your favor,
so you’ll be ready to
demand your freedom again
mind you, this is daily
you go through cycles and processes for your life
your sisters and brothers lives
your familial successors lives
so regenerate
nobody’s drained like you
we’re deep in the storm, so
these cycles will be worth it
so we will end up seeing skies of blue
to my sisters and brothers
i’m here fighting
i’m here with you
for you
strongest spirits on this earth,
incomparable
so, as this day ends, i must ask of you:
settle yourself
for tomorrow is brand new
(with the same cycle...
but you know what i’m
trying to tell you)
- negassie
Aug 30, 2020
Aug 30, 2020 at 1:46 AM UTC
passion and turmoil
circle around me like it’s
ring around the rosie
the former acting as a
tributary to the latter
swellings of emotion are
very scant in positivity
leading to bodies of time where
nothing really matters
cross tucked to my chest
holy reverence past my life
moving to the next
blessed yet cursed
this passion works in ways that
hurt my soul
haunted heart
i’ve seen this from the start
my fire can envelop me whole
the light’s shone in my eyes
my light is salvageable
the rather daunting sky
can be quite malleable
with a heart of steel
and a mind that’s palpable
yet a mind of such strength
can hold tears that
you have yet to cry
demoralization that leads to a sigh
passion and turmoil work
hand-in-hand
so we pray that time flies
so we can hide until we’ve
weathered the strife
make my eulogy brief
please mention my
emblazoned spirit
as well as my fight to feel free
sifting through
heartache and misery
passion and turmoil has
drained all of my energy
- negassie
Aug 29, 2020
Aug 29, 2020 at 4:01 PM UTC