Said I was sheltered
Then showed me some real ****** up ****
I could never forget
You left a mark
In the worst way
Like an earthquake
You shook me up
Opened my eyes
To all the lies
Opened the door
To all that was hidden
I should have never seen
Knew me the best
And still did what you did
No respect
For me
**** hit differently
After seeing it so vividly
And I can鈥檛 deny聽聽
Thought **** wasn鈥檛 fair to me
But now I see it so clearly
Tunnel vision
The bigger picture appeared to me
Something bigger
I鈥檓 meant to be
n.y.g
Jan 2, 2021
Jan 2, 2021 at 3:02 PM UTC
I wish things were different
I wish we talked more
I wish you鈥檇 let me in
I wish we were closer
Instead we鈥檙e distant
You linger through my mind
Thoughts I can鈥檛 push down
Feelings I can鈥檛 ignore
Memories I cannot erase
Everything is you
I can鈥檛 no I won鈥檛 decide
Between me or you
Let you go ?
I hold on tight to whatever we have left
I drown myself in my own pain and sorrow
Because I can鈥檛 express this to you
I wish I was a priority to you
What am I to you ?
Your words don鈥檛 match your actions
You leave me feeling lost
But still I stay
Hoping you change
I wish things were different
May 27, 2020
May 27, 2020 at 3:29 PM UTC
I put your needs before mine
Even at my worst, you鈥檙e the first thing to come to mind
Love deeper than the ocean
Your waves crash over me
Pull me in closer
Devour my soul
With just one stare
I鈥檓 always there for you
Put your needs before my own
That鈥檚 how much i love you
Apr 20, 2020
Apr 20, 2020 at 6:32 AM UTC
You effect me in ways I didn't know existed
affect me
infect me like a disease
inject me with your toxic love
an adrenaline rush
the high i can't seem to shake; You're intoxicating
Over medicating on you
I feel my soul levitate and become one with yours
Intertwined hands
locked eyes
as you go deep inside
steal my mind
You're one of a kind
I can't seem to find
Captured my body
it is yours now
You've taken over me
Without realizing you're lying
'Cause this high makes me sick
Suffocating on your words
like smoke that's so thick
Blinded
I can't see what way to go
tell me to confide
in you
we're on different paths
No matter where i go
i always lose
confused
my mind starts to play tricks on me
i just see visions of you. . .
Tell me what to do.
-n.y.g
Mar 8, 2020
Mar 8, 2020 at 12:15 AM UTC
I wish it was different
If I could rewrite history
You鈥檇 still be in it
Because I hate it here
Without you something is missing
Can you hear me ?
Are you listening ?
Why can鈥檛 I just be
I feel us distancing
is it good or bad
I can鈥檛 decide
With you my heart lies
No need to deny
You were my everything
Capture my soul and mind
With you it was different
I could never explain
Something hard to find
Sparks of flames
Never die
They can鈥檛 understand
Something that can鈥檛 be described
Wishing you were still mine
-n.y.g
Mar 1, 2020
Mar 1, 2020 at 4:18 AM UTC
**I don't wanna fall asleep,
I don't wanna shut my eyes.
Because every time I close them,
All I think about is lies.
The promises you made,
You said you loved me too.
But now you're gone our memories will fade,
Like all the love I had for you.
But I want to fall into bed,
After a very long day.
I want to feel your touch again,
Saying it'll all be OK.
Now I'm sad you're gone,
You never said goodbye.
And like all my dreams,
They'll surely fade and die.
But now we're done,
I hope you'll finally see.
There was no need to run,
I'm sorry you lost me.**
Mar 1, 2020
Mar 1, 2020 at 4:05 AM UTC
I know I shouldn鈥檛
But I can鈥檛 fight the urge
I miss you
My feelings overwhelm me
Im about to send the message
Then erase it all
I know i can鈥檛
But it鈥檚 so hard
You鈥檙e the only person i feel this way for
My comfort is you
I won鈥檛
But my emotions are drowning me
I need to release
I send the message
I feel Better
But i wonder if it鈥檚 the right decision
You don鈥檛 respond till later
I couldn鈥檛 help it
I needed you
I miss you .
-n.y.g
Mar 1, 2020
Mar 1, 2020 at 3:58 AM UTC
Energy so strong
you can feel it when I walk into the room
I'm now in your atmosphere
It's up to you
or is it ?
I allowed you into mine
You hold nothing here
You're trapped inside boundaries
I placed
You think you got here easily
you played my game
-n.y.g
Feb 29, 2020
Feb 29, 2020 at 4:05 PM UTC