nathan-jones - Hello Poetry

3/4 a bottle of fireball and a bag of cheap wine later you and I could be found cuddling the concrete at 3 a.m Chalking our night on to the streets together I felt alive My inhibitions were lowered so when you asked if I was afraid of the dark I lowered my guard and simply told you no. I've only ever been afraid of what I might look like when I came back into the light When I had to face the mirrors again The cracks and the crevices where my confidence hid Under the bundles of broken glasses and chipped teeth You were silence at full volume I had tried to rip the whispers from your windpipe, but they always seemed to blow away with the reasons to let myself love you again You were a page torn from the bible three nights before they burned it You were one of the last surviving scriptures And all I ever wanted was to be granted your gospel To wash my sins away at the mouth of the river My heart soaked and my smile wide I would arrive in heaven every time you were by my side I know you never meant to fire, lover I know we never meant to burn each other To break the glass over the grass and walk on broken beauty and shards of crooked spines I know we never gave each the time of the day Even when we were sober it was hard to walk away You captivated my chaos, and made it easy for me to accept crazy That handle of fireball wasn't the only thing that fazed me, you dazed me and entranced me It was hard to believe someone as awkward as you romanced me But you spoke love like you learned it from Rosetta Stone I worshipped at your alter, the confessional of those eyes, I spoke in tongues I was bilingual and forever single Learning the words to every catchy jingle from eharmony to match.com Maybe it was because of every boyfriend who ever dated my mom Who made me feel inferior That taught me being a man was being handsome and completely ugly on the interior Or because every time I broke a heart I would go home and paint pain to wrist a work of art and find a new place to start again Or maybe I was so used to best friends who played pretend Who sang first comes ache, then comes break, it seems no one can really relate with Nate Once I hit bottom, bottom hit back And I left because you ended up being everything I lacked and for the simple fact that when you were to say I love you I was too scared to say it back So I drank 1/5 a bottle of broken and tried to fill the empty spots To make it whole with just a few more shots Usually ending up back on the concrete I would wait until you fell soundly asleep The night holding tight to dawn as I held you tight to me I whispered into your ear, I'm not afraid of the dark my darling, as long as you walk through it with me

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Mar 5, 2015

Mar 5, 2015 at 3:35 PM UTC

nathan-jones

Fireball

3/4 a bottle of fireball and a bag of cheap wine later you and I could be found cuddling the concrete at 3 a.m Chalking our night on to the streets together I felt alive My inhibitions were lowered so when you asked if I was afraid of the dark I lowered my guard and simply told you no. I've only ever been afraid of what I might look like when I came back into the light When I had to face the mirrors again The cracks and the crevices where my confidence hid Under the bundles of broken glasses and chipped teeth You were silence at full volume I had tried to rip the whispers from your windpipe, but they always seemed to blow away with the reasons to let myself love you again You were a page torn from the bible three nights before they burned it You were one of the last surviving scriptures And all I ever wanted was to be granted your gospel To wash my sins away at the mouth of the river My heart soaked and my smile wide I would arrive in heaven every time you were by my side I know you never meant to fire, lover I know we never meant to burn each other To break the glass over the grass and walk on broken beauty and shards of crooked spines I know we never gave each the time of the day Even when we were sober it was hard to walk away You captivated my chaos, and made it easy for me to accept crazy That handle of fireball wasn't the only thing that fazed me, you dazed me and entranced me It was hard to believe someone as awkward as you romanced me But you spoke love like you learned it from Rosetta Stone I worshipped at your alter, the confessional of those eyes, I spoke in tongues I was bilingual and forever single Learning the words to every catchy jingle from eharmony to match.com Maybe it was because of every boyfriend who ever dated my mom Who made me feel inferior That taught me being a man was being handsome and completely ugly on the interior Or because every time I broke a heart I would go home and paint pain to wrist a work of art and find a new place to start again Or maybe I was so used to best friends who played pretend Who sang first comes ache, then comes break, it seems no one can really relate with Nate Once I hit bottom, bottom hit back And I left because you ended up being everything I lacked and for the simple fact that when you were to say I love you I was too scared to say it back So I drank 1/5 a bottle of broken and tried to fill the empty spots To make it whole with just a few more shots Usually ending up back on the concrete I would wait until you fell soundly asleep The night holding tight to dawn as I held you tight to me I whispered into your ear, I'm not afraid of the dark my darling, as long as you walk through it with me

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You were born naked You opened your eyes to a smile; a smile that would day be found in yours Then you closed your eyes, I bet you can't tell me what your first memory is That first glorious breath you remember taking, the first fully grown tree you saw when you thought "Wow, that's how big I'm going to be one day" The words you spoke when you played pretend for the first time We forget so often The way the moon reflected off the shadows in ours rooms late at night Brought those walls to life I remember the way it felt when a blade pierced my skin at 6 years old I remember being told "go away ****** don't you remember we don't like you" I never forgot after that Never forgot that we are Giants, built on the shoulders of God, we stand, mighty and magnificent Take that pain you feel, replace the anger with love and let yourself heal You're beautiful You're holy and far from hopeless Remember today might be the only day you ever live again Remember whatever you thought tore you apart left you intact Remember what took your breath away left you breathing Remember that fear can be conquered You can find the light Learn to defeat the darkness and embrace the night Remember you came from something much bigger than you, but in our world there is nothing bigger than you You are you, you are a clenched fist and a box of blank paper Pick up your own pen and write yourself perfect You are perfect Beyond beauty Broken never fit you right, leave that coat behind Remember what it feels like to have a first kiss To drive for the first time Remember what it feels like to stay out all night and regret it in the morning Remember the way the sun still penetrates darkness when your eyes are closed Remembers what it feels like to be held When you're close to tears Remember the days you thought you wouldn't live through because you're here now The roughest paths lead to the prettiest destinations But for now, bask in the glory that is your journey You are you, always remember that

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Jan 13, 2015

Jan 13, 2015 at 5:20 PM UTC

nathan-jones

Remember

You were born naked You opened your eyes to a smile; a smile that would day be found in yours Then you closed your eyes, I bet you can't tell me what your first memory is That first glorious breath you remember taking, the first fully grown tree you saw when you thought "Wow, that's how big I'm going to be one day" The words you spoke when you played pretend for the first time We forget so often The way the moon reflected off the shadows in ours rooms late at night Brought those walls to life I remember the way it felt when a blade pierced my skin at 6 years old I remember being told "go away ****** don't you remember we don't like you" I never forgot after that Never forgot that we are Giants, built on the shoulders of God, we stand, mighty and magnificent Take that pain you feel, replace the anger with love and let yourself heal You're beautiful You're holy and far from hopeless Remember today might be the only day you ever live again Remember whatever you thought tore you apart left you intact Remember what took your breath away left you breathing Remember that fear can be conquered You can find the light Learn to defeat the darkness and embrace the night Remember you came from something much bigger than you, but in our world there is nothing bigger than you You are you, you are a clenched fist and a box of blank paper Pick up your own pen and write yourself perfect You are perfect Beyond beauty Broken never fit you right, leave that coat behind Remember what it feels like to have a first kiss To drive for the first time Remember what it feels like to stay out all night and regret it in the morning Remember the way the sun still penetrates darkness when your eyes are closed Remembers what it feels like to be held When you're close to tears Remember the days you thought you wouldn't live through because you're here now The roughest paths lead to the prettiest destinations But for now, bask in the glory that is your journey You are you, always remember that

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"It's hard to love someone who hates themselves I hadn't seen you in weeks, you popped up out of nowhere just like the pills did I barely recognized you But I remember that sleeve, it's where I laid my heart to rest It's where I brought a smile to a gunfight and lost with open arms I had been empty for so long I forgot I gave my heart away in the first place You used to remind me a lot of church, I dressed up really nice to try and impress something I wasn't sure existed But I followed through on my promise and worshipped at the heel of your lies The shrine I built for you broke last week, it fell off the counter and cracked almost the same way you left me Your kiss left drunk and my words started slurring and my falling started occurring and the time started blurring together I wasn't naive enough to think we'd be together forever but I thought you'd stick around for a little longer At least long enough to let my pain pass, and help me get passed the past Stuck to the tip of my tongue, I was always so close to telling you how I felt but your name always got clogged in my throat I choked on the forgiveness I swore I'd never give I thought about dying so much I forgot how to live Fell head over healing for you I remember that love It was like remembering spring comes after every winter And fall follows every summer The seasons may fluctuate but they'll always come With time, so will love I want to apologize to the both of us for how long it took me to let things go You needed space, I thought you meant outer so I tried to grab you the stars I just ended up burning my hands They blister at the sight of broken now, I hope you're doing okay Me? I carry around a bunch of never-agains in my pockets and pictures of forgotten friends in my wallet, I remember love It looks a lot like that mirror i lost myself in It looks a lot like her It looks a lot like you It looks a lot like you"

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Jan 12, 2015

Jan 12, 2015 at 11:09 PM UTC

nathan-jones

A lot like You

"It's hard to love someone who hates themselves I hadn't seen you in weeks, you popped up out of nowhere just like the pills did I barely recognized you But I remember that sleeve, it's where I laid my heart to rest It's where I brought a smile to a gunfight and lost with open arms I had been empty for so long I forgot I gave my heart away in the first place You used to remind me a lot of church, I dressed up really nice to try and impress something I wasn't sure existed But I followed through on my promise and worshipped at the heel of your lies The shrine I built for you broke last week, it fell off the counter and cracked almost the same way you left me Your kiss left drunk and my words started slurring and my falling started occurring and the time started blurring together I wasn't naive enough to think we'd be together forever but I thought you'd stick around for a little longer At least long enough to let my pain pass, and help me get passed the past Stuck to the tip of my tongue, I was always so close to telling you how I felt but your name always got clogged in my throat I choked on the forgiveness I swore I'd never give I thought about dying so much I forgot how to live Fell head over healing for you I remember that love It was like remembering spring comes after every winter And fall follows every summer The seasons may fluctuate but they'll always come With time, so will love I want to apologize to the both of us for how long it took me to let things go You needed space, I thought you meant outer so I tried to grab you the stars I just ended up burning my hands They blister at the sight of broken now, I hope you're doing okay Me? I carry around a bunch of never-agains in my pockets and pictures of forgotten friends in my wallet, I remember love It looks a lot like that mirror i lost myself in It looks a lot like her It looks a lot like you It looks a lot like you"

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