The sun took it's first breath.
The moon flew downward,
Attempting to take a rest.
The beautiful rays of the sky,
Drew a question mark written across
The blue oasis asking "Why?"
That's when I first saw you there,
Oh, and if any words could tell you where
Myheart is,
it is lost.
Disappeared in an invisible relm,
Washed away by numb feelings
To overwhelm my body, my mind, my soul,
To grasp every word drawn up in my
Occupied mind would surely be a blessing,
For you have definately, undeniable, amazingly stole my heart
I don't understand what went wrong;
My love,
Or my song,
Sung for you.
Which one came first?
My reasoning or my verse
Read to you?
What made the words form oh so
Perfectly?
But where did I leave you?
Marked up,
Bloddy, lain upon a road I only wish I knew.
Fell past behind an opposing fate.
On that road, I left my soul.
All smiles slid down to my shadows,
My shadow smiles now.
My mind stole my words,
My mind speaks for me now.
My body breathes,
My body lives now.
My soul has a voice,
My soul screams now and cries
For you.
Every breath departed from these lips
Sings a song only for you.
Line by line,
Layer by layer,
I express every feeling for you.
When your palms rested against my skin,
My whole entire being felt you.
Pumping gratefulness through the veins.
I feel beyond myself in your grasp,
The warmth of your touch.
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 5:25 PM UTC
I was constantly in the midst of you harmful rays
You never gave me a chance to find some comfort in the shade
I was holding on for dear life to whatever was left
But our tiny rope was frayed
We were drowning in the problems you brought in
We could not be saved.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 4:58 PM UTC
At what point does this stop
Because it feels overrated
I feel like my heartache has gone on too long it’s been overstated
So many nights I cried myself to sleep
I prayed to the Lord my soul to keep
My mind was lost
It was constantly faded
But I wanted to be with you so I constantly waited
Thought you’d wake up and see that this was the mess you created
You strung me along
Had me hanging on by a thread
And to this day you always deny every bad thing you ever said
Saying I’m liar
That I’m not to be trusted
But you just mad because everyone knows who you really are and you’ve already been busted
I will never let myself get into this type situation again
I kiss the abusing guys goodbye
You guys ain’t even real men.
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 8:41 AM UTC
Do you ever sit and think of me,
how our “love” was so tragic,
how our “love” should have never happened?
Do you ever get flashbacks?
Do you ever wish you could take some things back?
Do you ever regret the abuse?
Do you even have anything to say to what you’ve been accused?
None of this bothers you?
Do you remember the hate you used to spew?
I guess it doesn’t affect you because you don’t have my point of view.
Well let me give you some clarity,
you laid down the abuse with such intensity.
Nothing you did had any integrity,
You treated me like a stranger,
but to the verbal abuse you we had familiarity.
Lying on the floor dead didn’t seem to move you,
you lacked any empathy.
Do you ever wonder why you degraded me,
why you hated me,
why you messed with my head,
why you messed with my heart,
why you sought to destroy me from the very start?
As much as it pains me to say it,
I loved you.
But your “love” was killing me,
I begged you to stop hurting me,
but on deaf ears fell my plea.
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 9:56 AM UTC
The past several months meant nothing to you
You already had a plan of what you wanted to do
His smile tipped higher from ear to ear
I screamed but you turned down the volume
You could not hear
You knew you had me
You knew the abuser is who you craved to be
You knew destroying me is what you've been dying to see
The word free ceased to exist from my vocabulary
You never wanted to let me go
No matter how hard I'd scream and plea
You knew what you wanted to do
And I never thought this would ever be you.
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 5:49 PM UTC
I’m broken
you took everything I was away from me
I was stolen
and now I’m stuck in time
my soul is frozen
you made a choice to abuse me every chance you got
you destroyed my life with all the evil you brought
my head is spinning
the walls are closing in
it’s hard to know that I ever let you in
there’s a gaping hole inside my chest
you ripped my heart out and now there’s nothing left
I don’t know who I am anymore
I guess I’m just the lifeless being you left to die on the floor
my mind is wondering
it’s searching for an answer
as to why you came in my life and poisoned me like a cancer
I can never forgive you for the unspeakable things you did
you had nothing to gain from my pain
there was no benefit.
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 3:42 PM UTC
How didn’t I realize this was fatal from the start
I came into this and gave you every piece of my heart
I told you what I been through and how I’d never go back
You reassured me and said that I’d never lack
And for that you stuck true to your promises
Our relationship never lacked verbal abuse
Never lacked metal abuse
Never lacked emotional abuse
You ruined my life
And I’m still haunted by you
My not the same person I was
And I hate who I’ve become
You’ve molded me into a person I don’t recognize
I don’t know who I am
Or who I’m supposed to be
Because of you I’m lost
I’m wandering
Because of you I’m always angry
I’m emotional
I’m dysfunctional
It’s two years later and I’m still shattered
I’m stuck in a hole and I can’t get out
I can clearly see just how every single part of my life was devastated by your hands
You took my innocence away
I was left desecrated
I can’t believe I gave you all of me
All of this
For it to turn out and be the biggest failure of my life
The biggest miss
I walked away from this with
Scars on my body and regret in heart.
Oct 14, 2018
Oct 14, 2018 at 9:11 PM UTC
He branded his name on my body
He defiled and debased me
Left as a mere shell
Left shoddy
You took control
You took command
Pay attention and listen
Don't ever misunderstand
I saw your smile and led to a rapture
I never foresaw that it would lead to my capture
You craved my soft skin
You were infatuated
Your mind was swimming with the vile transgressions you contemplated
You only ever wished for me to be exterminated.
Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 10:02 PM UTC
You touch was unforgiving
I gave you everything I had
There was no more giving
The war raged and it felt like there was no end
It seemed like my open wounds would never really mend
I felt pushed to my limit
I couldn't possibly still bend
You were supposed to defend
You were supposed to be my savior
You were supposed to unwaver
How could you look at me and let your blows commence?
How could you "love" me then abuse me?
It doesn't make sense
I pledged myself to you forever
You thought you could torture
Me and it would be whatever
You thought you possessed all skills
You thought you were clever.
Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 9:56 PM UTC
I hate the fact that I hate you so much
I remember all those nights stuck in your devastating clutch
You kept me a secret
You kept me on the low
I was your puppet who gave an entertaining show
I couldn't breathe
I was gasping for air
You couldn't go a day without abusing me
No you could not bare
It wasn't fair
But then again nothing in my life was
You did everything to seek a higher buzz
You haunt me everyday of my life
And to think I'd **** to be your wife
Now the only thing I wanna **** is myself
Gravity's pulling me closer and closer to the knife
I hate that you still have power over me
You still control what I see
You still influence who I am to be
You're name never brought freedom
It brought torture and more to come
I know I deserve better
But my body's covered in your harsh words
****** by those letters
Good things about you never seem to come to mind
All my innocence was left behind
Vile words swirling in my head
They don't cease
They only rewind
Finding your soul seems to be a relic hard to find
You burned your views into my eyes
I can't see much
I've been left blind
I'm left crippled
Your villainous deeds did bind
Now it's dangerous to be left alone with the thoughts in my head
It constantly consumed the infernal trash you fed
I've lost all sense of surrounding
Used to the dangerous path you led
I just wish not a tear for you would ever be shed
What's the point anymore?
You've already left me mangled and dead.
Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 9:51 PM UTC