i long for the days back when life was sharp
lately it’s all ashes on astroturf
the pink paper lanterns that light up our space
leave stars in my eyes as i lie in wait
and i thought i’d find peace along the shore
if i could only let go of what i think i deserve
Nov 19, 2015
Nov 19, 2015 at 9:59 PM UTC
the ghost of every person i ever loved
that has ever hurt me
lives in my shadow
(they whisper of my worth)
put them to rest
how do i put my ghosts to rest?
i said i wouldn’t bury you but
these seeds are useless
planted deep in my chest
i can’t hold you close
so i’ll blanket you in dirt
leave you to grow
to sleep in the earth
in the sun
and in the rain.
i'm sorry dear, i won’t be here
to keep you out of the shade.
it’s my turn to walk under the sun
and this time,
alone
hope to see you
next spring.
hope you’ll be glowing shimmering shining
(a yellow rosebush in my garden)
golden like my memory of may
when i hadn’t kissed you yet.
Nov 19, 2015
Nov 19, 2015 at 9:45 PM UTC
quit asking why
the answers will come
in due time.
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 4:47 AM UTC
you were the calm.
before my storm
the storm in my eyes
and the universe within
*
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 4:37 AM UTC
the serene squirrel
asked for perspective&
untied her hands.
late night waning full moon experience(s) and
daytime waxing half-moon discovery
upon discovery
the system doesn't work
this system will not
ever work--
so.
work
around it.
i scream **** yes" and
get swallowed in the moon
there's starshine flowing
from my fingers and toes
each and every star
every life
every breath:
is art at its essence.
at its source.
*
***
*****
~~~~~
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 4:34 AM UTC
in a matter of days the stars aligned
acknowledging the void, I was bathed in light
may we free ourselves through the sharing of pain
find peace in light snow,
in each other's embrace
spot every red door and bench and half-moon
unravel self told lies
accept the unknown
give up on the chase and on finding a home.
no longer a stranger ****** into a strange land
it comes in waves but I'm beginning
to feel less alone
now pull up the shades of your heart & let shine:
the blinding soul light
your stardust eyes
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 12:59 AM UTC
extinguish the flame
let go of your dependence
and comfort in pain
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 12:46 AM UTC
I lived and felt a million souls
within the time it took
for you to walk through the door
every moment is eternal.
every breath was
infinite life.
all
the
stars
and stars
within souls
existing not existing
in ever-burning light
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 12:40 AM UTC
i've spent my life avoiding life
through analysis, through sleep.
i've hidden myself from myself
no wonder i feel like someone else.
there is something very alluring
about losing your mind and yet
there is nothing poetic about being sad.
despair is ugly but
you
can utilize it.
so i'll paint my nails to fit my mood
somewhere between blood and blue
the color is the difference
between me and you.
spiral inward.
reality screams
patterns
at me and
exists only as
compulsions
in me
stare at the ceiling.
disappoint them.
do nothing.
be proud.
i want to
shed the discomfort
of optimism
and **** **** up.
Aug 19, 2014
Aug 19, 2014 at 3:18 AM UTC
I saw you through the window wearing my shoes. Face looking cynical and wanting to scream, keeping closed. You let nothing out but sorry smoke, how do you expect to be heard? You sit atop your box forever on guard, never leaving what holds which you think does not exist. So go, take your time. I will be watching behind the glass. Wrestle yourself and everyone you know while you pretend you cannot hear the sound.
Dec 5, 2011
Dec 5, 2011 at 3:40 PM UTC