I can't sleep
Everytime I remember your words
They snap and recoil
And hurt me awake
Next time when someone
Promises me forever
I'll just smile
Look them in the eyes and ask
How long is forever to you.
Apr 12, 2018
Apr 12, 2018 at 12:42 AM UTC
When I told you I missed you,
and you said,
"It's only been two days".
When I wrote paragraphs,
And exhausted breaths,
Explaining to you,
How much I REALLY liked you,
And you didn't say anything back.
All the times you outright ignored what I said,
As if you couldn't hear me,
And just smothered me with a kiss, instead.
Remember that.
I'm happy I'm out,
But the memories of me staying around,
Begging for your attention are what haunt me.
That's the tricky thing about relationships,
Not knowing what's temporary or permanent,
Because the good memories never go away,
No matter how old they are,
They can feel so recent,
Because we can always relive them.
But always remember,
Just because a person deserved you in the past,
Doesn't mean they will deserve you forever.
Just because they kiss you,
Doesn't always mean they like you.
Apr 12, 2018
Apr 12, 2018 at 12:39 AM UTC
I miss you
When the songs you gave me are playing
I miss you
When a love song starts playing
I miss you
When I read about love stories
I miss you
When I watch the movies you asked me to watch
I miss you
When I remember the jokes you made
I miss you
When I go to places we used to go
I miss you
When I see your horoscope sign
I miss you
When I see your name even though it is not you
I miss you
When I eat your favourite food
I miss you
When I need someone to share my stories with
I miss you
When I am sad
I miss you
When I am happy
I miss you
Every single second of everyday
I miss you
So **** much.
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 2:05 PM UTC
For all the years
I've been living
Never once have I shared love
With a boy
For all those years
I've been thinking
That I'll be fine without love
Or a boy
Nineteen years now
I've lived in this world
Somehow suddenly
I do feel the need of love
To love someone
and being loved
Sharing stories
Giving inspirations
Getting motivations
When will I feel the love?
Because sometimes
I feel that love does not even exist
I feel left out
When almost everyone had felt the love
Puppy love
Happy or sad
At least they have experienced it
Holding hands
Knowing that they are loved
Does love exist?
Jan 31, 2015
Jan 31, 2015 at 1:54 PM UTC
Raindrops fall from the sky
The colour of the sky was blue
Teardrops fall, I cry
So tired of being blue
Crying in the rain
So they'll never see me in pain
Watching the rain wash away
But not my emotions, no way
I wished to wear a crown
Not to be their clown
Why can't they see me like "woah"
Instead of "ohh"
I am not as tough as you can see
I can't be strong as I wanna be
Stop judging me
I never knew how my life would be
Dec 13, 2013
Dec 13, 2013 at 8:53 AM UTC
Why is it so hard to get near you?
All I want in this life is you
The sky is still blue
Never changed like you
When can I get you?
I am desperate to own you
Once I got you
I will never let go of you
Whoever comes near you
I will kung fu
Because I want to be your only boo
I swear this is true
I want to be with you
Let's start new
Just me and you
Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 9:21 PM UTC
A melancholic I am becomin'
I wish that you can feel my teardrops on your skin
After a long time I have been keeping in
Now the dams are leakin'
Trying to not make you feel mean
I hope this thing does not begin
When you are talkin'
It makes me feel like there is somethin'
You are the reason I could feel the adrenaline
When you are starin'
You make my heart stopped beatin'
When you are lookin'
I stopped breathin'
Now I am fallin'
Yet I do not want to get drownin'
It will make my head start spinnin'
Something I put on my face, it is a big grin
And now I am gigglin'
Because I am forgettin'
The reason for all those things.
Oct 31, 2013
Oct 31, 2013 at 12:09 PM UTC
I faced Him today
I meet Him everyday
Never missed a single day
Yet I have never seen Him
I can feel His existence
I know He is here
I know He is there
I know He is everywhere
He is watching over me
But I'm feeling guilty
For not giving my best when I confront him
I think my faith is trembling
Why is this happening?
Help me
I don't want to lose the way
I don't want to go astray
Show me
The truth path of this destiny
Stop me
From getting lost so easily
Just a blink of an eye
I don't know myself anymore
What do I want?
Why am I here?
What's my aim?
Where do I want to go?
Which one should I follow?
And now
I'm trying my best to look for me
Myself, that I've lost once and again
Then I seek for Him
Asking for forgiveness
For every sins I have done
It is so shameful
Take me back to the start
I want to start a new life
"Turn over a new leaf" is what they told me
So I'll use the chance I still have
Before it's gone forever and I am no longer to be here...
Oct 30, 2013
Oct 30, 2013 at 8:34 AM UTC
Every morning
When I open my eyes
You are the first I will see
Your voice will be singing in my ears
You are the first I can think of
Hello and good morning!
Every night
When I close my eyes
You appear in the darkness
Your voice will be my lullaby
The stories you have told me
Will be my bedtime stories
Goodbye and good night!
So I kiss your shadow and sleep
In dreams
I see you
I see us
Happily together
Sharing stories
You hold me tight
I feel safe in your arms
Seems like everything I do
There is always you
But why must you?
Your shadows follow me to everywhere
And leaving me blue
Oct 27, 2013
Oct 27, 2013 at 2:02 AM UTC
I lie
I cry
I am fake
This is my fate
Makeups on my face
Is the mask I always wear
My lipstick shows I always smile
But I feel this life is not fair
I like to make people smile
It's a great pleasure
Though they never thanked me once
It's wonderful to have them say "I need you"
I am a clown
I'll try my best to make you laugh
Don't look me down
I have a pride and this is my life
Oct 27, 2013
Oct 27, 2013 at 2:00 AM UTC