I am a good person
Even without my name on the acknowlegdement of donaters in the book
I am beautiful
Even without hundreds of likes and complimenting comments on instagram
I am loved
Even without those birthday shoutout posts on facebook dedicated to me
I am capable
Even without those hiking, travelling and eating-healthy posts on snapchat
Most importantly
I am grateful
Even without those prayer posts thanking Him everytime I feel blessed
Because I'm always grateful for who I am
And I dont need them to tell me that
Apr 6, 2018
Apr 6, 2018 at 12:24 PM UTC
My name is Ashly (yes spelled without
the E)
I was born without a windpipe and was 3 months premature.
I underwent surgery for a tracheostomy and died on the operating table.
I was revived.
I was hooked up to many machines and my parents were told I wouldn’t live for more then 3 days...
If I would survive more then 3 days I would be hooked up to machines my whole life and be in a “vegetative state”
Doctors told my parents and family “I would never live to see my 18th birthday.”
I lived in the hospital for almost 2 years.
At age 2, I myself, ripped out my tracheostomy (which could have killed me)
My family rushed me to children’s hospital and the doctors decided to let the hole in my neck close and see what happens.
My doctors don’t know how I made it through the night or days after.
I went home after a couple weeks and that’s when I started living my life as a “normal” child.
All of my sisters were involved in dance classes, my parents( doctors didn’t agree) enrolled me in to classes.
THATS WHERE MY LIFE CHANGED
Dance became my passion, along with gymnastics and musical theatre.
Something my family, doctors or even myself never thought I would EVER do.
On my 18th birthday it was a mixture of emotions.
I made a milestone that no one said I would ever see.
I competed in dance and gymnastics until I was 19 years of age as well as did over 60 musicals at my local theatre company.
I never thought I would ever have a boy love me because I had “too many problems” or even get married for that matter.
Fast forward, I am now almost 33 ( June .11th is my birthday)
Married for almost 8 years to my best friend.
Happy doesn’t even cover what I feel everyday waking up next to my love.
We may not have a “family” of our own but we are happy and in love over the moon with one another.
So why did I just ramble on with this?
Because I’m a MIRACLE and a SURVIVOR.
Even though I don’t remember much from my childhood and what I and my family had to endure, I have been fighter since my first breath.
I’M A SURVIVOR and I’VE MADE IT....
Mar 19, 2018
Mar 19, 2018 at 5:03 AM UTC
the moment a poet
falls in love with you
is the moment
you live
f o r e v e r
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 5:08 AM UTC
She is gripping her favorite lipstick
It was a gift from one of his trips
And she is asking herself on repeat
‘Should I still be holding onto it?’
She puts down the fork and the knife
on her plate
It was their favorite diner to date
And she whispers to no one
‘Am I really done?’
She is sitting on top of a hill
On the bench where they used to
chill
And she stares at the sunset looking
drawn
‘Shouldn’t I, too, move on?’
She puts her headphones on
It is his favorite classical song
She presses the square-shaped
symbol and let out a sob
‘This needs to stop.’
She is staring at her screen
They are their vacation pictures on
the scene
And on one click, the screen proposes
‘Erase all?’ or ‘Close?’
She is petting a bird
It was their lovely baby parrot
And she opens the cage door
‘I am ready to let go.’
Mar 1, 2018
Mar 1, 2018 at 5:54 AM UTC
he's getting married
and she's pregnant
i'm lying in my own
***** and blood
i guess when it happens, it happens
i guess when it doesn't, it doesn't
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 9:21 PM UTC
I think she's 6'1, I think about her from one to six then six to one.
Ironically she exceeds the highest standards, the bar is set, key qualities she's missing none.
She's like when the cover catches your eye and all of a sudden you can't put down the book.
When she walks in the room I get stiff as if "Andy" was written at the bottom of my foot.
I've got a pretty cold heart but in the news they're always saying climate change is coming.
If only the weather man could tell me when she'll get here & how long she'll stay, I can't stop wondering?
The best things in life are worth the wait.
She needs to live some more, be free and soar, doesn't need more on her plate.
I've felt before but those emotions were killing me.
This? I could feel this for infinity.
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 4:27 AM UTC
Sometimes you just don't notice things right in front of you
Sometimes you need it pointed out for you to be able to see them
Only then you realize the possibilities
Only then you start to actually look out for them
What I'm trying to say is..
sometimes it's not rejection
sometimes it's oblivion
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 4:18 AM UTC