I mean, I don't blame you
Why would you like a simple girl such as me
You told me you did but as I have mentioned your bittersweet lies caused me nothing but a shallow pain
Why would you like a girl
With cracked skin
bagged eyes that sting from my tears
and a curvy yet fat ***
I don't blame you
didn't expect you to like me
the fact was I knew you didn't yet something kept me going
Why would you like a girl
who doesn't even like herself?
who looks in the mirror an spots all her flaws rather than the beauty she cant seem to find
no confidence whatsoever but behind a tough personality she hides...
So I don't blame you for not
liking a girl like me
not even a little bit
not at all
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 8:14 AM UTC
if you wish to be a warrior prepare to be broken.
if you wish to be a explorer prepare to get lost, and if you wish to be a lover prepare to be both.
to be a lover meaning you possess a feeling, a spell or desire.
that irresistible urge to be with someone.
that heavenly union, that destiny conspires.
to be a lover takes strength like a warrior. such as loving a person, even when they gave you a thousand reasons not to. to be a lover takes some exploring. a mere attachment, or infatuation. a bond or a yearning? getting lost on what loves really means.
to be a lover we sometimes seek what it means when all its about is, the intermingling of 2 souls, come together to form a whole. we look to deeply to decipher love to code the way in which the caged creature works,
we learn, get hurt, grow love, repeat.
to ever extract its true essence is tough...
Are you ready to be a lover?
May 3, 2016
May 3, 2016 at 6:18 AM UTC
I know it's hard to touch the clouds
when memories
hold you down
I know you cry a lot inside
when no one is
around
I know it is hard to wake up
sometimes
when breathing cuts so deep.
and the birds, they sing
but
you cannot hear
and the sun, it shines
but
you cannot see
and there's a lot of warmth around
but
you cannot feel.
I know it feels so hard
to live
with so many scars
but
light will shine and you will
see
and birds will sing and
you will hear
It's just a dark path
you have to walk
and I will be there
to walk along
don't hold your breath
don't give up yet
just
keep your hope
and you'll find one day
that you can fly again
for you deserve
the highest clouds
the purest air
the deepest love.
and I'll be here for you,
you, dear soul,
the sweetest lyric
of them all.
Mar 20, 2016
Mar 20, 2016 at 10:37 PM UTC
My heart
unpeels itself
in slow motion
ribbons elegantly drift
to the floor
once again I am entrapped
in a butterfly dance
as I move towards connection
entrapped in a cage
of my own building
stewn all over
like carnival confetti
utter joy at the beginning
a true celebration
and then…the explosion
a fissured opening as
painful as a birth
I am all at once
A part of the cracked
and steaming earth
In the darkest corners of my mind,
I search rooms at a
mysterious party
as if in a dream
Who do I look for?
I pass each space
Couples on beds
in their thrusts of passion
beckon me to join
Despite my burning up
I ignore
I know that I must reach
The open field
sit in sweet solitude
place my hands upon the runes
of my heart
explore its mysteries
and then
only after I am sated
by my own passionate
embrace of mind
only then,
with fire in my eyes,
will I be able
to run freely
to you
Mar 20, 2016
Mar 20, 2016 at 10:36 PM UTC
all i wanted was a simple apology
if you loved me it wouldn't be that hard
but i guess you didn't
they told me not to fall to hard but i never listen for i thought was different.
but you were exactly what they said and to my existence your malignant
but yet somehow you still are a stimulant
you set gasoline to my fire and it heats up resembling our heated arguments that end up with one of us in pain
for you were never the solution you were never my rain to exhaust my flames
your a poison and it's addictive yet my soul still survives
it hurts so much but my heart yearns for you it chimes
chimes in a irregular beat; wishing for you to care but its like i'm never there
i always end up suffering the ramifications
your my main cause of my dreary tribulations
yet, i stay
yet, i still care
yet, i'm still blamed
yet, i cant stop loving you
Where did i ever go so wrong?
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 6:16 PM UTC
the stifled sound rumbling on the tip of my tongue eager to come out.
It roars with happiness and excitement from what it seems.
But behind that exotic laugh is a soul. The laugh hides the soul keeping it hidden from outsiders.
The laugh keeps a delightful smile on someones face. Everyone wants to feel happy..even if it is for a split second.
That laugh takes your mind away from the dreadful thoughts of suicide or the painful outlook of what is called you life.
The laugh takes away the pain as if were an antidepressant.
But what happens when the laugh stops...that dreadful pain resumes to what is reality as it consumes your identity as a whole.
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 9:17 PM UTC
I cant drown my demons because they swim. Diving into my every thought creeping into my mind.
Plunging and destroying all the hope
from my fragile heart.
They seep into my soul making it cold, dry, and now withdrawn...
Withdrawn from the outside world shutting everyone out my demons come out from dawn to dark.
These demons causing all these emotional scars and they left a mark. These demons constantly putting me through pain now I'm a recluse that has been misused and abused.
So, I'll be dammed if I let anyone in. These demons forbid my mind from being happy and I shall not dare challenge it because these demons still swimming are
already killing me
Torturing my everlasting existence
When will it ever end?
Mar 8, 2016
Mar 8, 2016 at 8:59 PM UTC
Cried to many tears
and now my life is dreary
You've taken everything but you clearly don't care
Belittling everything, your smiling while I'm having nightmares
Why am I living still?
Is it just a question or just a thought?
Should I end it even with this little piece of me thats fighting to live?
Constantly being depressed and tired but damn...something has to give.
For If my road keeps spiraling I'm afraid my road will only be short.
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 4:37 PM UTC
i said "i love you"
but you keep twisting my words
plunging them until they have no meaning
im depressed, misused, abused, and above all tired.
god i wish i was dreaming
No matter how loud i scream it
"I LOVE YOU" you cant seem to grasp the passion behind it. ******** me over constantly
Now im sitting on floors staring at pill bottles imagining the possibilities and your the reason for this ****
Will you be the death of me or my only way of tranquility?
Will you love me like you should or still have me wondering "what would"?
I said "I love you."
3 powerful words you'll always pretend not to hear.
Feb 4, 2016
Feb 4, 2016 at 10:37 PM UTC
You fail to see I'm hurting from the looks in my eyes. If I tell you I'm fine you should know thats a lie. You clearly can't notice that I'm screaming for help and my heart is broken. So I put on a smile to disguise the pain. I cant even describe how I feel. Its more like a sound, the sound of a constant rain. It beats hard against windows thumping much like my tears. Hoping for the sun to push the clouds away and fill the sky with cheers. But that won't happen because I'm to far hurt for any repair. You fail to notice my life is in despair. Why can't you see? Im slowly dying won't you help me
Feb 2, 2016
Feb 2, 2016 at 11:26 PM UTC