will I ever be remembered
for more than my mistakes
when the choices that I've made
made more than one heart ache
will I ever be remembered
for more than my mistakes
when I ran out that liquor store
with whatever I could take
will I ever be remembered
for more than my mistakes
when I took the whole tab instead of half
and got lost among the shapes
will I ever be remembered
for more than my mistakes
because I whisper my accomplishments
and wonder what it takes
will I ever remember myself
for more than my mistakes
Dec 17, 2018
Dec 17, 2018 at 2:02 AM UTC
"Don't ruin it by talking"
I tell her as we watch my lava lamp
was it too soon
as the leaves changed we did too
that's when I noticed it, talking to my mom
I realized that things were bad since
they grew back
am I using this new girl, that's her favorite show
her warmth? her presence? her kindness?
but what I know is
you only stopped chewing your nails
when I wasn't there
these answers
if I know they don't
show up in my tears then, why, why
do I keep searching for them there
the answer to
what am I trying to replace?
as we watch my lava lamp
your warmth? your presence? your kindness?
but what I know is
right now
it isn't you.
Nov 10, 2018
Nov 10, 2018 at 10:32 PM UTC