morbid_desiress - Hello Poetry

I have no outlet I have no place to run No one to talk to No one to hug I feel so alone now Just myself and the trees And though they’re alive They’ll say nothing to me I feel like I’m filling Up, up to my top I feel like I’m full But the filling won’t stop I just want a friend I can talk to with ease I can say anything to Anything that I please But instead I’m alone And I fill myself up With words and feelings I want to speak but cannot Instead I have no one Just myself and the trees And though they’re alive They say nothing for me

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Mar 17, 2020

Mar 17, 2020 at 8:20 PM UTC

morbid_desiress

Just myself and The trees

I have no outlet I have no place to run No one to talk to No one to hug I feel so alone now Just myself and the trees And though they’re alive They’ll say nothing to me I feel like I’m filling Up, up to my top I feel like I’m full But the filling won’t stop I just want a friend I can talk to with ease I can say anything to Anything that I please But instead I’m alone And I fill myself up With words and feelings I want to speak but cannot Instead I have no one Just myself and the trees And though they’re alive They say nothing for me

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If there was one word One word, isolated by itself That I cannot stand above all others It would have to be "Okay" I despise "Okay" "Okay" Is how your millionth day at work went "Okay" Is off-brand raisin bran "Okay" Is how you say life is going When you don't want to admit you spend Every second of it Wanting to die "Okay" Is packed to the brim with Hidden implications Like a treasure chest Filled with bottles With little subliminal hatreds Written on tiny slips of paper Passively aggressively pushed inside To discover later As I pull out a treasure map And try to decipher Where I went wrong "Okay" Is a one word dismissal That feels like an essay a thousand pages long "Okay" Is a poison dripping with disinterest When I dared to share with you Something I thought might make you smile "Okay" Is like trying to talk to a wall While watching the paint on it dry "Okay" Takes two seconds to write Yet I waited days For that dreaded word To grace my notifications "Okay" Should be used sparingly As if each time you send it You **** the receiver just a little bit "Okay" Should not be said so often that I know what you're about to say Like I saw it in a crystal ball "Okay" Is not looking up from your phone When I tell you about my day "Okay" Is not the proper response To "I love you" They say that the opposite of love isn't hatred It's indifference And I can't think of a response More indifferent to pouring out My heart into your hands Than "Okay" At least the last thing you said to me Before we parted ways Showed that you cared At least a little bit "I hate you" Stung less Than the thousands of times Over our countless conversations You responded "Okay" Okay?

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morbid_desiress

Feb 22, 2019

Feb 22, 2019 at 11:44 AM UTC

Joliver

Okay

If there was one word One word, isolated by itself That I cannot stand above all others It would have to be "Okay" I despise "Okay" "Okay" Is how your millionth day at work went "Okay" Is off-brand raisin bran "Okay" Is how you say life is going When you don't want to admit you spend Every second of it Wanting to die "Okay" Is packed to the brim with Hidden implications Like a treasure chest Filled with bottles With little subliminal hatreds Written on tiny slips of paper Passively aggressively pushed inside To discover later As I pull out a treasure map And try to decipher Where I went wrong "Okay" Is a one word dismissal That feels like an essay a thousand pages long "Okay" Is a poison dripping with disinterest When I dared to share with you Something I thought might make you smile "Okay" Is like trying to talk to a wall While watching the paint on it dry "Okay" Takes two seconds to write Yet I waited days For that dreaded word To grace my notifications "Okay" Should be used sparingly As if each time you send it You **** the receiver just a little bit "Okay" Should not be said so often that I know what you're about to say Like I saw it in a crystal ball "Okay" Is not looking up from your phone When I tell you about my day "Okay" Is not the proper response To "I love you" They say that the opposite of love isn't hatred It's indifference And I can't think of a response More indifferent to pouring out My heart into your hands Than "Okay" At least the last thing you said to me Before we parted ways Showed that you cared At least a little bit "I hate you" Stung less Than the thousands of times Over our countless conversations You responded "Okay" Okay?

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Someone is stabbing my chest. Anxiety in its finest, it never does rest. All it does is just count my regrets. I’m overwhelmed by the past, I just want to forget. Please, just take me away. Promise you’ll leave. Please, don’t promise you’ll stay. You know it’s the truth, you know you’ll leave. And it’s me who will suddenly stop to believe. You can’t do this to me. Having me dream of everything that we could be. I’m falling apart, you’re my every need. Weeds choking me out, and you planted the seed. Please, save me from this. Don’t allow me to live to know an everlasting bliss. Instead of saving me, you’ll **** my heart and my soul. Then cover me in dirt after I’ve fallen in your hole. I’ve fell to your traps, you conniving crook. I should’ve know that your smile was the greatest hook. Drawing me closer to you, more then more, Til suddenly it’s only you I’ll adore. You’re a heart and soul thief. Goodbye to my being, hello to the grief. The grief of our lost existence, But of course, I’ll still love you with persistence. Who said love is fair? To love, I don’t matter. No, love doesn’t care. All you do to me is take, And your love for me is fake. It’s a disguise. Now I’m stuck here staring at your eyes. In admiration, Or should I say, it’s devastation. I’m devastated, But as much as I want to, I can’t look at you with hatred. I guess falling to my knees for you was merely my fate. And I can’t try to escape, for I fear it’s much too late.

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Feb 1, 2019

Feb 1, 2019 at 8:46 AM UTC

morbid_desiress

Anxiety In It’s Finest

Someone is stabbing my chest. Anxiety in its finest, it never does rest. All it does is just count my regrets. I’m overwhelmed by the past, I just want to forget. Please, just take me away. Promise you’ll leave. Please, don’t promise you’ll stay. You know it’s the truth, you know you’ll leave. And it’s me who will suddenly stop to believe. You can’t do this to me. Having me dream of everything that we could be. I’m falling apart, you’re my every need. Weeds choking me out, and you planted the seed. Please, save me from this. Don’t allow me to live to know an everlasting bliss. Instead of saving me, you’ll **** my heart and my soul. Then cover me in dirt after I’ve fallen in your hole. I’ve fell to your traps, you conniving crook. I should’ve know that your smile was the greatest hook. Drawing me closer to you, more then more, Til suddenly it’s only you I’ll adore. You’re a heart and soul thief. Goodbye to my being, hello to the grief. The grief of our lost existence, But of course, I’ll still love you with persistence. Who said love is fair? To love, I don’t matter. No, love doesn’t care. All you do to me is take, And your love for me is fake. It’s a disguise. Now I’m stuck here staring at your eyes. In admiration, Or should I say, it’s devastation. I’m devastated, But as much as I want to, I can’t look at you with hatred. I guess falling to my knees for you was merely my fate. And I can’t try to escape, for I fear it’s much too late.

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