There was once a dream
Faces were everywhere,
Once there was a dream
I close my eyes, but its no longer there.
Fingers running down my spine
While I levitate, screaming quietly
I was a part of me
Now not even a part of you.
Noises everywhere,
Even my voices cant keep up,
I found a corner
Where from this madness I can last.
Found a wide and open place
Where the dreams never last,
Found a dark an empty closet
That sees my future as my past.
Afraid to ask,
Afraid to see a mirror
When all it does is stare back.
There must be a mistake
This mountain wasn’t here,
Something is wrong,
The self I knew is back
But I don’t know it anymore.
Jun 24, 2025
Jun 24, 2025 at 11:11 PM UTC
when all seems dark
even a smile loses its might,
when all is said and done
even a hug could choke you out.
when everything turns red
and the voice inside you
shuts you up,
even a simple "im sorry"
will feel like a cut
for every second we lost
a year passed,
and even a thousands hours
wont bring it back
but when the sky turns blue and then black
when the rain just won't stop,
even the softest touch of you
will be all I want.
when the pages turn blank
when nothing on earth makes sense,
and I see your face
Even the darkest moments
can't bring me down, or make me sad.
for every moment I hold you
a thousand years have past,
I'll live today like tomorrow
while we hold hands.
Jun 22, 2025
Jun 22, 2025 at 11:37 PM UTC
Silenced by the late hours
Of a long shower
By the whispers of a lonely owl
Walking close to a path
“That friendly shimmered shadow”
When I close my eyes I feel it
A lonesome poem
Far far in the distance
Ink marks my steps
Mock away my shade
Write on this piece of canvas
What I couldn’t write again
Held by the thread
Of a borrowed thought,
A make-believe cliche
I walk the path of a warrior
Stepping on the ****** steps of death,
Let me whisper to myself in silence
“Could tonight let me forget?”
Forgive me for whats to come
Forgive myself, for I have failed,
I thought I could not break
But it turns out Im made of hay.
Let my sins burn tonight
A long flame by the candlelight,
Ill sip on one last drink
While you witness my last dream.
I walk next to the dust
So I can again dance in the stars,
That beautiful quiet painting
Starring at you and me in the dark.
Jun 13, 2025
Jun 13, 2025 at 2:32 AM UTC
Hold me closely
Its rainy outside
The storm is getting closer
Under the flesh of a neon light
I know is dark
Under the fake moon
And the smiling stars
A scary face in the distance
Pretends to draw on paper,
What your smile feels like
And when your laugh stops.
These shadows I see,
i think they might be laughing at me;
I hear them around the corner
But I pretend they don’t exist.
Walking away in the night
Brushed by the neon light,
I know now if Id listen
Id understand much more about life
Please forgive my forgiveness
It came from a place of weakness,
Burn in the coals of hell
I need to feel your ashes fly away.
Walking on the road
Down where the river flows,
The neon light that shimmers
And lets my whispers by told.
Jun 13, 2025
Jun 13, 2025 at 2:30 AM UTC
I cut myself slowly
So I can feel the blade,
This is the best I’ve felt
Since i remember, i hope I forget
Oh but this knife is too dull
I need something sharper
To heal away the wrong,
An edge made of glass
Or perhaps a better soul..
I stitch away the darkness
I need to wake up
“So ive been told”
But day after day I whimper
Wishing it was over now,
Hoping it was all gone.
I dream away by dreams
I nail away my sins,
A crucifixion on a canvas
Painting by my rusted brush.
Please let me forget me
No happy ending to this tale,
The villain runs away with treasure
And the hero dies in vein.
God, this feeling is painful
I ran out of face expressions,
A tear might sneak here and there
Only to mock me
And laugh away my pain.
Could I ever scape
This prison I call hell,
My mind is a broken engine
That will never let me break.
Jun 13, 2025
Jun 13, 2025 at 2:29 AM UTC
Soothe me, baby just touch me
Make me feel something
So maybe I can rest
Save me from this pit
Wherever I look is dark
Whatever I feel is darkness
While other people dream
All I can taste it sadness,
Lift me up into the midnight clouds
So I can fall to the late night dust
Tasting blood
In every thought I whisper,
Marked by demons
That only wish Id listen
Let the emptiness in your sight
Mark the path of my light,
For every thought I witness
I die inside and at last
I can feel what you painted
Over the cold and empty flask
Love me so I can vanish
Think of me so I can last,
Understand that im only lonesome
Because without me im lost.
Dec 13, 2024
Dec 13, 2024 at 3:11 AM UTC
Surrounded by empty bottles
Falling off my bed through the night
They wake me for a moment
Reminding me I am far from alright
Pictures I once drew
Staring at me from that place I knew
Think of me as a knight
A drunk or a punk
Makes no difference to me knowing
I am in fact less than than
I cut myself tonight
I needed to feel, but I still cant
Maybe ill take another sip
Maybe this one will last
And if not I got another waiting
My throat is parched, not yet numb
What happened? And where did I go?
Lost control of my thoughts
Thinking I still had control
Curious to take a bite
Out of this pie of glass
I hope tonight I savor what I always lacked
Think of me as a wonderer
Or a painter without a brush
Dont need a canvas, dont need a cast
I draw the lines of ecstasy
With the blood from the past
When crying became pointless
Hours past as if i was forbidden to wonder
The lights down the street marking
That thinning and empty path
Gram by gram I wonder
Could you **** my very essence of lust
One line after another and I still
Feel nothing more than a rush
Think of me as a lover
A lier or a ghost
Think of me as I wonder
For this night I wish id never ponder
Gram by gram Ill shallow
The thin lines of dust
Hoping one day I find
If I can feel the corners
of a square made of glass
Aug 27, 2024
Aug 27, 2024 at 12:31 AM UTC
Good night, rest well
I said to you every night I lived
A kiss on the forehead
I gave to you holding my heart in a pinch
Your tender sweet smell
My sons, for you I gave my very self
I walk the streets at night
Hoping to one day I find
Your ever loving faces
Telling me “daddy, we are back”
I walk a dark path
Because the truth is, without you im lost
I dance a line which vanishes
The moment I close my eyes.
My soul cries every morning
Because I dont get to wake up by you
I drown myself at night, knowing
Knowing I can never get you back
My angels I wonder
I hope with every last breath I grasp,
I ponder moment after moment
For the moment I lost you
Took away the sanity I once had.
Night after night I shelter
In the last few corners i have
My babies, my boys
Ill once more hold you closely
Im trying to make my way back.
You got taken away from me
The truth is, i had no fighting chance
There are demons around us
And someday youll rest
Knowing they took you away from me
While I begged and begged and begged.
I wish I could hold you
I wish, I wish
Hold you near me
Sing to you one last time
I wish my loving rocco and tili
For you own my heart
And my every beating beat.
Aug 27, 2024
Aug 27, 2024 at 12:29 AM UTC
If I could Id tell you
What is like to surrender.
If I was able to, Id show you
How a dead soul mourns at night.
Shivers that dress me in madness
Waiting for a cold breeze to cast a spell,
Tremors I was once surrounded with
Hold my hand into abyss.
Like tearing flesh with a rotten iron bar,
Or wiping my back open
With the tears of a thousand broken hearts.
Rip my nails, burn me lonely
So I can once again feel.
The shattered picture I held near me
Lost a place to be in.
Like a blade cutting deeply
Into every vein, every limb,
I’ll fantasize of a place
Where pain will cease to exist.
Drag me through the mud now
Mock me if you dare,
Spit on me, hopeless ending dreams.
Rip me away from madness
Carve a hole in my grin,
Create a world of nonsense
Where I can once again wish.
Oh if I could I would,
Hold onto to you once more
I understand is far from truth now,
But would you please explain to me
Why a whisper can travel forever
But a wish would die young?
Show me, I beg you,
The path to redeem.
Guide me, I ask of you
While I drive off a broken and rusty bridge.
Aug 7, 2024
Aug 7, 2024 at 4:24 PM UTC
Ill pretend to paint a painting
Using some cloth, some paint and a brush.
Ill attempt to describe your beauty
Like I could ever have a fair shot.
Ill dream of casting an image, or a thought
So angels can vanish, knowing they lost at last.
Ill wish for one more moment, as I witness
The stars coming to a halt,
Sitting next to the pit in fire
Matching that warmth spell you casted fast.
Ill drink one last bottle
Tonight and forever shall never last,
Oh, ill win every battle
If it got me closer to your heart.
Ill look at your eyes and pause a moment
So I can understand the endless pit,
With every second I stare
A demon surrenders
In the hope you’ll look back at him.
Ill render the deepest sorrow
Ill walk the longest way back,
For with every second i saw you
A new hell awaits to take me back.
Yeah, Ill melt in your silhouette
Ill dance away in your dreams,
An perhaps one day I wonder,
Would I ever see such a forbidden dream?
Aug 7, 2024
Aug 7, 2024 at 3:58 PM UTC