what does it mean to be lonely.
what does it mean to be lonely,
what does it mean to be lonely?
except
they're ***so
close***
you
can't
feel
them?
Aug 19, 2014
Aug 19, 2014 at 4:08 AM UTC
Memories memories go away
That's my conscience everyday
I make overthinking seem like a chore
You only hate when you do it more
Keeping me up late looking for security
Wishing my hands were full of yours and you right next to me
Sip life straight out the bottle and enduce
A time where time stops ticking and tocking an impossible truce
Unable to let go of your daily habits
Lay down on your mattress toss and turn from the madness eye lids peeled open from the sadness
To think when I didn't know your name yet you looked my way and I couldn't fake it but
I have to forget before I remember
All these memories, burn deep it's the embers
All I wanted to do was love her
While my lungs inhale the smok.. my feelings are being smuthered
Aug 19, 2014
Aug 19, 2014 at 4:08 AM UTC
People always tell you to
get over it
but only until you experience it
do you you realize
it's not that simple.
Aug 19, 2014
Aug 19, 2014 at 4:05 AM UTC
I just want to say the things we're all thinking.
You're thinking about how it felt when he smiled at you for the first time.
How his lips tasted like mint and cigarettes.
You're thinking about your first kiss with him now aren't you?
How it felt to feel wanted in the most romantic way.
Now he smiles at her.
Now she taste his lips and doesn't even appreciate the smell of cigarettes his breath carries that he tried to hide with mint.
Now he looks at her and undresses her in his mind like he used to undress you.
You miss him.
You miss the way he used to tell you "You're mine."
He doesn't care anymore and it's killing you.
This is what all of us broken hearts need.
What we need to hear is hidden in our skin so we tear it open with blades until we are satisfied.
We never find what we need.
So we dig deeper into our broken souls and continue to bleed.
Aug 17, 2014
Aug 17, 2014 at 1:10 AM UTC
Can't you hear me screaming your name?
I'm calling out your name.
I'm pounding on the wall,
Slowly going insane,
I pound on the walls until my knuckles bleed.
I'm just hoping you can see me.
I want to make you proud,
But no matter how loud I scream I know you can't hear me.
Dear Sara,
I still pass by your house everyday.
Remembering the memories.
Remembering your voice.
Your breath always had the sent of liquor,
Your smile was always covered in drugs,
The warmth of your hug always pulled me in.
I grew to like the smell of liquor that lingered on your breath and soon I had my own addictions and demons.
God **** it.
Who do you think you are?
Leaving me here.
I need you.
Please,
Come back.
I need you.
Dear Lost One can't you see me hurting?
Aug 5, 2014
Aug 5, 2014 at 1:28 AM UTC
Why do you hold on to me?
I'm such a mess,
Just set me free.
I won't be here forever so just set me free.
I'll be gone someday.
Just apart of the trees.
Maybe then you'll finally let me be.
Serenity is no longer considered peace.
Aug 5, 2014
Aug 5, 2014 at 12:58 AM UTC
It’s becoming clear
Old fashioned romance is dead
I want an LTR
But they want to hook-up instead.
I want long term dating
Not short-term flings,
I want tight and secure
Not something no-strings.
At my age I never considered
Meeting someone for a hook-up
This is a crazy situation
I just couldn’t cook up.
This casual dating I find
Is just making me frantic,
Somehow it doesn’t jive
With an old-school romantic.
For a writer
It’s like committing libel
To a true believer
Like speed-reading the Bible.
Now I sit here wondering
Should I accept the latest fashion,
And let them satisfy
Their hot-blooded passion?
Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 5:14 PM UTC
You ripped my heart in shreds
For so many years
I'm hear to tell you
I'm crying no more tears
I see no more love
That it's all over now
How will I survive?
Forgetting you, that's how.
I'm done with the pettiness
And stupid lies
Such immaturity
You get no more tries
He's hurt me
Cut me open wide
Taken out my heart
And destroyed my pride
I want to forget
I want to start anew
But I'm not sure I can
I'm not sure what to do
It's like my life has ended
The past eight years
So much pain
Not worth my tears
But I'm gonna cry
I can't hold back
It hurts so much
To see all that I lack
I have my doubts
I'm really not sure
I'll figure it out
I'll find a cure
For my broken heart
Unwillingly shattered
Torn all apart
Bruised and battered
I'll pick up the pieces
And get up off the floor
I won't look back
While I walk out the door
Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 5:12 PM UTC
I pray for rain
So that I can place my head on yours
And together we can meditate upon the ambience of the soothing trickle against my window.
I beg for storms
So that we don't need an excuse to lie in bed for endless hours and stop time and the world, then lose our minds in each other.
Oh I hope it blizzards
Then we can snuggle under my blankets and get entangled amongst each other like glorious vines on a house.
I plead for thunder
Because then I could lay with you in the absolute darkness, and see the beautiful shards of light spark, and hear the thunderous roar as we lay excited clinging on to the very bones of each other.
I dream of all this and more,
But for right now I just can't wait to see your face again.
Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 4:01 PM UTC