Blood, more blood
On the walls
The door
What you see is rusted blood stains
I see the flashbacks
Of myself,
Injecting poison
Thinking it’ll save me from my demons
You see sickening red colour,
I see my struggle
I see the girl swaying in thin air,
Trying not to fall, trying not to collapse
I see the arms with blood running down them,
I hear the muffled screams, “Help me, someone?”
Oh what a sight, that I can’t un-see now
She’s falling, hitting her head on the floor
Is she brainsick?
To yet put herself in this mess again
Overdosing like it’s a candy you can’t resist
Oh but, she’s only a human,
Trying to survive, trying not to die of emotions
Trying to let go of traumas she can’t forget
She’s only a girl
She’s only a human
She’s not a monster
Jan 9
Jan 9, 2026 at 1:40 AM UTC
It begins with a tragic sigh
A sudden cool breeze
Tortuous cold fog
Leaving you unable to see
After a while, you stare at the broken pieces
Your shadow shattered on the floor
Tears falling one by one
You wait for someone to knock at the door
Days pass by, while you sit and rot
Too scared to open your eyes
You keep the curtains closed
You question, “Time flies?”
But then on a very subtle day
You shake your head and get up
It starts with taking a deep breath
Feeling that air in your body, down your lungs
You walk to the kitchen, slow and steady
And make some coffee for yourself
Still confused but something lights up inside you
You pick up and read the book buried on the shelf
It seems like you have to start from the beginning
Back from when you were just a kid
Pushed into this cruel world to “live”
Your whole life looks like a dark pyramid
You no longer wait for that knock
You stop longing for that one hug
You give up on the idea of being “saved”
So you ponder and let it go with a soft shrug
Whatever meant the most to you
Sounds like a stupid idea now
All that grief you were holding within
Seems like a television picture or a show
And this is how you know
This is the art of letting go
Jan 9
Jan 9, 2026 at 1:38 AM UTC
I am not gonna meditate on you anymore
I am not gonna think about you anymore
You came like a lightening bolt
Then left like you were never here
Making me question my own identity
Making me question my life’s reality
Was it just in my head? Was it a dream?
Was it a nightmare that I didn’t see?
Aloof, my mind strays in different directions
Were you someone I thought you weren’t?
You walked in and embraced me like a child
Told me you wanna hear all about my mind
Held my hand so it wouldn’t shake while i speak
You said you won’t judge me even if I hung myself on a tree
Then one very fine day, you started drifting away
Into the abyss, where I couldn’t even hold onto you
I kept latching onto the shadow you left behind
Tried to manifest you back cause I was always crying
But I’m tired now, and I can’t go on like this
And so they say,
The final act of loving someone,
Is letting them go
So I let you go
Jan 9
Jan 9, 2026 at 1:14 AM UTC