I've seen the mistakes I make,
I hate myself for them
Every time, I tell myself "it's okay"
"I can improve"
But every time, I get this urge to disappear
to die
I feel something around my neck
as if it wants me to stop breathing
Maybe I won't be opposed to it
so I can save everyone from my mistakes
Dec 17, 2024
Dec 17, 2024 at 3:44 PM UTC
you've told me that you aren't ready
that it wasn't because of me
but readiness is not a feeling you can't control
its a decision you make
maybe I'm just not worth being ready for
Oct 5, 2024
Oct 5, 2024 at 5:56 AM UTC
the patterns
the behaviors
the words said
they’re all so familiar
it’s as if I’ve seen them before
my past relationships
all so similar to ours
the inconsistency
the lies
the uncertainty
all of which are unhealthy
and yet I find it hard to leave
despite the pain,
the tears,
the traumas
I stay
Sep 30, 2024
Sep 30, 2024 at 8:47 AM UTC
And then I realized
I'm not someone you remember in the good times
I become no one when you have everyone
suddenly, when things go south
I'm the one you seek
Your everything for a brief moment
It all disappears as soon as it arrived
The attention and care
Although meaningless to you
Is appreciated by me
I'm being used, I'm aware
Don't worry, I'm leaving
Sep 27, 2024
Sep 27, 2024 at 4:25 PM UTC
My rest is no longer you and I together
You were my moon that turned into a meteor
You, my personal happy pill, became the reason to my breakdowns
Please, tell me my love,
What shall I do?
Neither of us willing to let go
You refuse to set me free
I am unwilling to hurt you
Tell me darling,
Will all this pain be worth it in the end?
Apr 9, 2022
Apr 9, 2022 at 2:29 PM UTC
waking up
dried tears, puffy eyes
i've done it again
cried myself to sleep with guilt in my heart
the guilt coming back every time i think of you
You're a king
yet i treated you like a servant
i broke your heart
yet you're still here
why must you stay?
why do you still like me?
please i'm begging you
Hate me
Oct 15, 2021
Oct 15, 2021 at 8:42 AM UTC
i would love to be a beautiful butterfly
i would love to go around the world and fly
If this happens i would cry
i may even give the world a second try
i am just a skunk with high dreams
My only friends are the trees
The forest sets me free
But when humans see me..
The self hatred begins
People stay away from me
Because of the fragrance that i excrete
A piece of dung is something my fragrance can beat
Even a bath can’t set me free
Nothing can set me free
Feb 1, 2021
Feb 1, 2021 at 8:30 PM UTC
Darling,
Experiencing all these things with you was a great experience, however
Problems couldn’t be avoided,
Regrets were made,
Equality was never obtained
Sorry for saying this my love but
Staying with you caused me more problems
Infused with toxic,
Our relationship will not last
Now that I have told you this,
please let me go
Aug 28, 2018
Aug 28, 2018 at 7:08 AM UTC
I cant wait for true love to come
Love that completes me
Love that makes me happy
Love that makes me feel like I'm worth it
I cant wait for this pain to disappear
For depression to stop
For my anxiety to give me a break
For problems to stop coming back
I cant wait for paradise to come
A peaceful place..
No war, no racism, no gender inequality
A place where everyone is happy
I cant wait for death
Because I know Heaven is the only place
The only place where all of these can happen
Death is the only solution
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 6:23 AM UTC
Why celebrate your birthday with tears in your eyes?
Tears saying your sad
Those tears must not come out because of heartaches
Those tears must come out because your happy
Celebrate your birthday with someone special
Someone that means the world to you
Someone that will never give you heartaches
Heartaches that can devastate and **** you
Celebrate it with friends
Friends that will add a smile to your face
Friends that never hurt you
Friends that are true
Celebrate it with food
Food that will make those tears disappear
Food that may not taste good
But is made out of love
Celebrate it with gifts
Gifts from the heart
Gifts that does not hide secrets
Secrets hidden by tape
Oct 28, 2016
Oct 28, 2016 at 6:54 AM UTC