mischka-muispoetry
South African
Love writing what's on my mind . Always trying to relatable and pure in my poetry. I write what I feel , how I feel it, and exactly about who I am. I love people and I love to set standards straight. / / I'm in love with the idea of old fashioned love and memories. / / That's me ----> Muis
In the daunting hours after the clock stroke midnight
Where I awaited dawns' arrival
I found myself pondering over many memories of my past
My story of survival.
Which took me only but 6 years to tell...
Many years has passed since I jotted down a single word
Of the many mixed but ******* wonderful feelings I felt
Some would say I was on a road of discovery...
I say it's growing up....
Facing the hand I've been dealt..
The truth I've come to learn, is one big eye opener.
1. You try to hide your feelings
With humor or any type of distraction worthy of not being frowned apon by socially accepted standards
BUT.. We forget our eyes speak for our soul
The ones truly depressed will eventually be seen by those who Chose to notice.
It's like a day with "bad" whether, some will view it negatively
Some will find purpose, as the wind blows through the willows singing its precious, but still lonely tune..
2. The ever so dark and lovely, so called fairytale, happiness..
Does exist indeed. It's what you perceive, that determines it.
Some will never be satisfied.
The dead dreams of living.
The scarred has a wrist canvas painted with a razor brush in vibrant Red.
The perfectionist just needs that final check.
Perspection, communication and understanding is the key to unification
3. Facing your present, brightens your future.
It's like how you would, despite your world turning into ashes
Rise from destruction, reconstructing your own story
Write your own journey. Rewrite it. Write it again. Make mistakes.
The light won't shine on false identities.
Rediscover.
Jul 5, 2020
Jul 5, 2020 at 6:45 PM UTC
Now I don’t want to know the price
that I'm going to pay
For dreaming about you and me forever
or for begging you to stay
Just like the ocean waves
wash across the shore..
Your memory keeps coming and going back and forth
I don’t want to be here anymore
But what am I supposed to do
When I believed your arms could be my fortress..
..not susceptible to outside influence or disturbance
You decided to hurt and leave me in pieces
Despite the fact that this failure wasn’t because of me
It was YOU
I can not stop caring or treating you as my friend
I truly loved you, you had no clue
Sometimes I just wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
May 10, 2017
May 10, 2017 at 10:52 AM UTC
Now I don’t want to know the price
that I'm going to pay
For dreaming about you and me forever
or for begging you to stay
Just like the ocean waves
wash across the shore..
Your memory keeps coming and going back and forth
I don’t want to be here anymore
But what am I supposed to do
When I believed your arms could be my fortress..
..not susceptible to outside influence or disturbance
You decided to hurt and leave me in pieces
Despite the fact that this failure wasn’t because of me
It was YOU
I can not stop caring or treating you as my friend
I truly loved you, you had no clue
Sometimes I just wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
May 10, 2017
May 10, 2017 at 10:51 AM UTC
Hold a gun to my head and count till 3.
I'll rather die , than to live another moment without you.
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 2:20 PM UTC
It would be nice to have someone stand by me and be there for ME for a change.
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 3:25 PM UTC
Lying all alone by yourself...
With all of your thoughts to keep you company..
When your world around you
Remains dead and dark...
When your demons come to life, killing you with every sick memory you hate...
When your heart no longer beats, for it turned to stone.
When your eyes burn like hell because of all the crying, but no tears fall...
When your sick to your stomach for hating yourself all and all...
Thats when you start to comprehend the fact that
You are not good enough
You are not worth it
You are far from perfect
He deserves better than you
You can not give him what he needs
You are not beautiful
You look pathetic
You should end your misery
Its the point of no return.
Jan 9, 2016
Jan 9, 2016 at 11:25 AM UTC
I am looking at this world around me.
with no compassion or love
My emotions have become dormant
I think I've had enough
My life means nothing
If I don't have you by my side
You are my love, my happiness
My existence and pride
I miss you terribly...
May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 4:08 PM UTC
My world turned upside down
When I got the news today
I was left in shock
Without a word to say
To know I could have lost you
To know you could have died
To know I was not there
Standing by your side
Hurts me so deep
It cuts my flesh bare
To know I should have made an effort
To show you I care
I was sick to my stomach
As I heard you struggled alone
I cant stand you hurting so deep
Knowing your pain has grown
I realised what life is
I realised what you mean
Your an amazing man
I have ever seen
I'll do my best from now on
To prove my words are true
I'll stay, come hell or high water
Because I just simply.... care about you
Mar 25, 2015
Mar 25, 2015 at 4:30 PM UTC
What if all the hurt you experience stays behind words you can never find ?
All the tears just seem to be never ending.. yet your face remains dry?
What if you just can't carry the weight of the world alone anymore ?
What happens then ???
Mar 25, 2015
Mar 25, 2015 at 4:15 PM UTC
Have you ever been so heartbroken
That you literally feel the pain in your chest?
That your heart actually aches?
That you feel like throwing up all the time?
That being alive just seems wrong?
Welp.
That's where I am right now..
Mar 25, 2015
Mar 25, 2015 at 4:09 PM UTC