Where do you stand. Now
Alone in the sun
Miserable earbuds
and backwards youme
Forever
this moment in the loneliest place in my life
suburban parking lot, USA
Covering secret hope with blankets of anonymity
Money just cools them
Freeze each other LIKEICECRYSTALS
can't even be together
Never. Even when it can't get worse
in the sillyfuck of summertime sticky countertop of hangover
Seasons without the hot seatbelt of safety
and the inoutness of us
not careful always
Sick bruised overdue goodbye
life sentence
Stealing it back with the work of no worries
Just hoping art still means something
just ******* praying it's not empty
like your neverpromises
and your didntlies
Cowering with broken heart fever
Burying strangers shrugs in coffeehouse choketears
Who-gives-a-fuck cliche misery
I hope your own shadow haunts your periphery
Like narcissus' fear of drowning
Sometimes the goodbyes are should have
A whole year of goodbyes
All I wish for is the end
Apr 9, 2012
Apr 9, 2012 at 9:08 PM UTC
Trembling consciousness
Bewildered by the separation between
Within and without
Troubled yearning settling
Just beneath my skin
Sep 6, 2010
Sep 6, 2010 at 6:25 PM UTC
eyelash on wet skin
I point, push shiny swimsuit
She blows wish away
Jun 19, 2010
Jun 19, 2010 at 6:42 PM UTC
Cold morning water lip
Straight-------- swallow---- bury me
Bury
Secret, knowing, secret
How clean can she be?
Break me simply
Break me soon
Find me out
Oh, it’s here
No fool, she can’t change it
I cannot, I will not
Go crazy
With love
For you
The one thing you want, the one thing I crave incessantly
Will never happen
So what the **** are we doing here?
Braiding each other’s lost subtleties into something no one wants to see
But us
Free
Fast
Falling
****
May 10, 2010
May 10, 2010 at 10:19 AM UTC
His eyes grew dark and distant
absolutely nothing wrong
He smiled without his eyes
how are you feeling?
nothing, numb, bored
Bracing each other, pushing
out
Fearing the flatline, we find
one another, in the dark
Rubbing the blood back into his palms
he buries his breath in my clean hair
Counting down the seconds, we remember
Leaving the cold room, he asks
is it over now?
Mar 8, 2010
Mar 8, 2010 at 1:50 PM UTC
Startled by my reflection
In the open window
Living room straight back
through the kitchen
Blue snowlight
Stares through me
Seeing out all day long, forgetting
The night drops black curtains quiet
when no one's looking, instead
Of out
I see in
Brave and solitary
The one waits true
Bright unsecret
Blood rushing real
Whispering cure
He can see pain and touch it
away
with golden sincerity
Mar 4, 2010
Mar 4, 2010 at 6:07 PM UTC
quiet hope nestled
pushing out from crowded corners
secret wanderlust
Feb 9, 2010
Feb 9, 2010 at 3:48 PM UTC
his fire wraps me in warm new flames
I gasp for air
The day begs for length. Oh, god, why not?
Pray tell, this intense madness won’t drive him away.
Taking his sanity and art with him
A man worth the time, fancy that.
A feeling not worth controlling, imagine this:
Minds smashing sparks alight
Hair always wet or drying
Cheeks hot with anticipation
Eyes wide
Souls listening to the earth’s pulse
Novel nonsense lightening the lead of
truth
Feb 9, 2010
Feb 9, 2010 at 3:33 PM UTC
Frozen funeralNecessary burialYou pushed me backAgainst the wall. My eye was morethan on the doorIt became stringentFor manners sake, I didn’t make a faceAt that vinegar smell.Knowing better is no remedy for hurt prideBrand his pink skin for the first timeDuck out before the sourA new hot shower AwaitsAt home. Or somewhere with potted fernsBreathe ReprieveNever been with such a followerat my heels. Looking over my shoulderBlurting and grindingOn my nervesFeigning understandingNo more storm metaphorNot worth the anger earned By the dark pastI clutch my secret hopeLike a sold out ticketAwakened by remembered hungerImagining fresh garden loot. Still drippIngWet(January 2, 2010)
Feb 7, 2010
Feb 7, 2010 at 5:32 AM UTC
Black out before sun down
Slippery jabs of guilt slide
Sickness knifed in
And never seen again
Not by you
You lose control of your mouth, your body, your balance
Your hands wave ‘round your head in some imaginary joke
Your toothy grin and those hands still flapping are aimed at me,
And still, no one is laughing
No memory of yours holds my embarrassment
Your mother, your father, your husband, your daughter
We remember mean accusations over stubborn bottles
We know the secret you keep from yourself
How do I shift this guilty weight from my dark heart to yours?
Can I steal your excuses? Can you recall your childhood shame?
Let the light of truth shine fierce after the sun steals away behind dark hills
Feb 7, 2010
Feb 7, 2010 at 5:28 AM UTC